#ivegotissues

No one ever tells you what your life will be like in your thirties. They only just warn you that this the time of your life where everything makes sense. My warning: NOTHING STILL MAKES SENSE. I’m a 34 year old east coaster living on the west coast where half of my immediate family has followed. I also live with anxitey and I am the definition of an intovert. 

Not just any kind of introvert. An introvert that loves being outdoors; hiking specially. Wierd, right? I do not, however, like hiking with a lot of people. I tend to stay away from group hikes or overcrowed trails because other vibes kill my vibe and most likely one person will irritate me the entire time. I love being a solo hiker and going to places on my own.

A solo day for me usually consists of a local hike, going to the movies alone or sometimes I even risk going to a concert on my own. I’m complicated but who isn’t? After being around so many people I usually will take a hiatus from society. I will only come out for work or a trip to the grocery store if I must. People drain me and in return I take a week or two off.

My anxiety doesn’t help much. I am the type of person who will dwell on the negative alot and it usually takes me out for the count. Anxiety is different for anyone who has it. I get anxitey attacks when I feel overwhelmed. I even get panic attacks when dealing with heights. I am working on my fear of heights though. Hiking has helped a great deal. Some weeks I’m good and other weeks I’m hiding away from society dealing with my issues in my head. It can be crippling. The circle of the anxitey life for me, I guess.

But some days I try to pull my self out of my funk. It slowly takes a toll and I know what it does to me. I don’t like the feeling of feeling like I’m helpless. So, I guess you can say this is my journey. My journey of how I deal with my anxiety and how I just deal with life in general and being in my thirties. So welcome and enjoy this crazy ride.