#ibs problems

Im trying to cope with my horrid “I be shitting” syndrome

Random chronic illness post because idk why not vent into the void?

I have heard, more than ever since starting my most recent job: “but you dont look _____”

And that phrase is going to make me crash out.

No, I dont look like your 5yo nephew with ADHD- I hide it *a lot* at work because I was raised in a school where I was bullied cause of it. I didnt have a choice. Ive had stims bullied out of me that only in the past year have resurfaced.

No, I dont look like I am disabled. Truth? Was out of school for 27 days cause of Covid, got POTS, have IBS, chronic migraines, and hypermobility. I hide them because I dont want others to feel uncomfortable even when Im trying to not die. People dont often see how my heart rate jumps to 110+ just from talking, how my teeth chatter cause I got out of the shower, how my nausea gets unbearable to the point that I sometimes cannot eat solid food without nearly throwing up, how im terrified to use my cane even when in the worst pain of my life—— fact is? Someone who ive considered incredibly close since- forever, has never seen me use the cane— I dont want to be percieved as though I am incapable of something even if Im dying— so I hide it—