#hugotsnap

I am scared my love. Of what I am feeling right now, of the things that are sure and unsure, of the things that came and will have to let go. Of all the smiles and chills you gave me and all the pain and tears I will shed in the coming days— I am scared.

It seems so long since I fell in love. I cannot even remember the last time my heart skipped a beat. Or the last night I decided not to sleep because I was high in the clouds with someome I love. The feeling is so weird right now. It seems that everything is new and that I am starting to learn things again. It felt surreal and so true at the same time. It is no doubt that when the right man with the right love comes, you can never be confuse. You can never be tired. And you will feel everything as if you were never broken.

Please take care of my feelings. My heart has been broken so many times I cannot even count the pieces. I am not asking for you not to hurt me, or make me sad because I know that is already in the bundle of happiness. That you can never be happy without being sad. What I am asking for you my love is to be true, please don't make me fall in love with unsure feelings. Whenever you say 'I love you' and I just shrugg off as a response, please try harder to make me realize that those words are still true. That those words really mean what they are suppose to mean. Whenever you try to make me feel special and always have second thoughts about it, please be patient with me. To move on from the past, I have to accept that I am nobody's special person and that no one will stay to make feel important. So believing again that I am special will be really hard for me, but I want to. I want to believe that I am special too.

I want to believe in love again. I want to give love as much as I deserve to be loved. This time, I am not following fate nor destiny but I am agreeing with them. I agree that it is you I wanted to share my thoughts at night with. I agree with fate that it is you God has planned for me all along. I agree with destiny that you came at the right time when I am healed and ready to love again.

We might never know where this could take us but I am sure of one thing— that I love you and that was never really hard for me to know and do. I am scared but my love, for you, I will be brave. For us I will never be sad everyday that we may be apart. I will never miss you that much cause I know I have a little of you in my heart. And for the days that we are together, please hold tight cause the road could really get bumpy sometimes. Please tell me everyday that you love me because I tend to forget that someone really do love me. That someone could really love me this time and that I could fall in love again. And above all, thank you for everything. The waiting game was all worth it.

From someone healed, ready and strong.