#galekin

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I'm fairly new to the community, and sometimes I feel sort of invalid because I don't have any kin memories or anything like that. Everybody else is talking about their memories and missing or meeting canonmates and I'm just sort of sitting here in the corner, you know? If I don't feel any of that, am I even really kinning? I don't know.

As a Gale, I have to be careful in BG3 fan spaces. People really are upset they have to help me with the orb, and just kind of hate me sometimes. I'm sorry, ok? I was young and in love/groomed (a little of both) and acted on a delusion of grandeur. I know I screwed the fuck up. I know I was a bit of an info-dumper, it was how I tried to connect with people. I didn't really know any other way. When I was in school, I tried asking people about things as you're supposed to and whatnot, and it went nowhere. More often than not, they answered then just sat there, staring at me (although to be fair to them, it could always have been "normal" eye contact, I still don't quite get that concept, looking into people's eyes is so intimate, even just for a few moments, and trying to get it just right so it's not "too much" but not "too little" just... It's impossible). And then if I gave my answer, it was a coin flip whether or not they'd be annoyed with me. I didn't know how to handle that, so I just... Stopped asking, because I had no idea if I was doing something wrong or if the people around me were just being rude to me for some reason (probably the neurodivergence, not that the term or concept existed, but I was always Different, and apparently, most people can just Tell) and I could never shake the idea that I somehow did it wrong, and if I couldn't do it right, I shouldn't do it at all, so if I didn't know what about the way I did it was wrong, well, I just wasn't going to do it. I didn't mean to be annoying or to hurt anyone.

I hate having multiple kintypes from the same source. Like, yeah, I'm Jaskier (twice) AND Geralt AND the Lion Cub of Cintra (not Ciri because I was transmasc but that was my deadname so source-me is cis-me which is weird), but like I didn't know the other versions of myself as in like it's not all from one or two canons. My Geralts when I was Jaskier weren't me, neither of them were, nor was my Geralt from when I was the Lion Cub of Cintra, my Jaskiers from both that life and when I was Geralt were not me, so like... If I ever wanted to reach out to other Witcher kinfolk, Idk what I'd do. And this also goes for other sources, BG3 (Gale, Astarion, several Tavs, and a Dark Urge) being another really notable one, and one where I know for a fact I didn't know myself because of the Tavs (they were definitely not me because of very notable features like being a very tall tiefling fighter, which I never was, and not the same one, when there was one at all). It feels weird and I'm kinda glad I'm a very antisocial person (extreme introvert, whatever you want to call it) still.

It’s really disheartening how few Hunger Games sourcemates are out there. I’m Gale, and I can’t find anyone. I have my Peeta, and we’re married (as we eventually were in our life in District 12), but I haven’t been able to find anyone else who is specifically from the books. The movies are nothing like the books! It’s infuriating! And no one seems to give a shit. Ugh.

A message to 🔨🙏🏽.

Mystra, my Mystra. While the likelihood that you still listen to my words, that you have been reborn once more, now made mortal, is scant to none. Let it be known that my devotion remains burning and undying. That no matter what story was woven with our names, the truth of our love will remain forever precious in my memory, for I was never happier than in the time I was yours.

Canon disabilities... Well, everyone knows canon!Gale is likely autistic, and yeah. I probably was, too. The word and concept didn't really exist but there was a sort of understanding that "most wizards are just weird that way, like how most sorcerers have some form of mommy and/or daddy issues and most paladins have a savior complex of some form or another". I remember Astarion commenting "you really are a typical wizard, aren't you", he wasn't being mean or anything just, well, I'd been info-dumping to him and I think that was the moment he realized "oh, so the stereotype exists for a reason". Genuinely, there was no malice or even sarcasm in what he said, he was actually happy to listen to me for some reason (this was after the Absolute issue, while I was helping him in the Underdark, so perhaps he was just happy to be distracted from being separated from the sun while our companions found a way to settle that issue).