#jaskierkin

I hate having multiple kintypes from the same source. Like, yeah, I'm Jaskier (twice) AND Geralt AND the Lion Cub of Cintra (not Ciri because I was transmasc but that was my deadname so source-me is cis-me which is weird), but like I didn't know the other versions of myself as in like it's not all from one or two canons. My Geralts when I was Jaskier weren't me, neither of them were, nor was my Geralt from when I was the Lion Cub of Cintra, my Jaskiers from both that life and when I was Geralt were not me, so like... If I ever wanted to reach out to other Witcher kinfolk, Idk what I'd do. And this also goes for other sources, BG3 (Gale, Astarion, several Tavs, and a Dark Urge) being another really notable one, and one where I know for a fact I didn't know myself because of the Tavs (they were definitely not me because of very notable features like being a very tall tiefling fighter, which I never was, and not the same one, when there was one at all). It feels weird and I'm kinda glad I'm a very antisocial person (extreme introvert, whatever you want to call it) still.

I desperately miss such small things. The way Geralt would look at me when I started up That Song (♩ Toss a coin to your Witcher, oh Valley of Plenty ♩), it was... Almost annoyance. But ever so slightly, he was suppressing a smile. I think. I'm pretty sure it was a smile, I mean, it's hard to tell with the whole brooding thing but he seemed to appreciate it eventually. After I told him that I had tried writing songs like what he would have wanted, the truth of the situation, and no one listened. They all just wanted stories of fornication, of glory, of treasure, of romance... And even then, when any of it goes out of the norm, out of what is deemed acceptable, the bard is the one who suffers for singing it. Geralt was far, far from the first (or last) to punch me for my words. But he was the most justified in doing so. Most were just annoyed that my song upset them or their delicate sensibilities.

Geralt, if you’re out there — I still miss you dearly.