#seekin

Giorno, 💛🌬

Think of who you were before. I’ll be using Homestuck as an example, because it’s what I’m familiar with, and it’s actually a pretty good example for this hypothetical. Let’s say it has 100 characters (which I think is roughly true). Let’s be even more generous and pretend they’re the only people who exist in any given “Homestuck” universe. We’ll also say that 1,000 people on this earth kin from Homestuck, and have one canon/timeline/life as a canon Homestuck character each. If you want to assume it’s possible for every fictionkin to find all of their canonmates, that’s at least 10,000,000 people that’d all have to end up on this /exact/ planet, just for 1,000 people to have canonmates to find. I just don’t think it’s likely. I think it’s crazy enough we all ended up on a planet together, or that (whatever media has you in it as a character) even exists.

Another thing, they could be anyone. Anyone. They could have no internet access. They might not speak your language(s). They might not believe in past lives, or know what fictionkin is. I feel like a lot of people don’t seriously consider that people who don’t know what fictionkin is, or don’t identify with the label, or even think it’s stupid, can be the reincarnation of XYZ in spite of that. The friend/significant other/family member you miss could currently be a 40 year old company man with a family, a schoolchild in Egypt, or any of the 650k nuns currently serving the Catholic church worldwide. Roughly 25% of the entire (localized) human race is 0-14, and about the same number of people are without internet.

When it comes to something as tenuous as past life memories, I think a lot of people are influenced by hearing about others’ lives, especially if it’s coming from someone they recall being close to and they /want/ the canonmate relationship to be true. I’d like it to be true for you, too, I just don’t think it is the majority of the time. I think that’s why so many supposed canonmates drift apart and never reconnect— yes, the post from the 15th inspired this. I think it mentioned sourcemates, but it reminded me of the many times I saw that with canonmates. I think many of them realize/accept that their memories are different, or nonexistent, and move on. I honestly believe people who get so hung up on & bent out of shape over finding them should try to be more satisfied connecting with sourcemates— you still have more in common with them than you have with most people, if kinning is that important to you.

Also, disclaimer: I don’t actually know if people still do canonmates/canon calls. I’m JUST coming back to looking at stuff about fictionkin online. I’m mostly seeing posts about sourcemates nowadays. I’m not gonna add my anon tag to this one. I kinda have to wrap this up quickly now, so I can’t proofread, sorry if it’s illegible.

— tiny dirk

its like. you are my favorite person ive ever known. you were my closest friend; the first person to be genuinely kind to me with no strings attached. you offered me a home when all i wanted was shelter to stay in until i could leave and stop bothering you. you told me that i was never a bother to you. you were the first genuinely safe person i was around.

and i dont remember your name. i dont remember your face, or your voice, or how old you were or even your favorite color. i know you wore a lot of purple, but was that your favorite or just the color you tended to wear? i know you were so so so kind but i dont remember anything of our relationship. i miss you. i miss you. i miss you.

i have hope that ill remember more about you someday, and that maybe if i remember your name ill be able to find you again. barring that, though, i hope youre safe and happy. you deserve that, and so much more.

-Corrin

-yuri ddlc