#ftmtx

fuck a smelly dyke? (it/its)

I’m xenic, but, like, female-to-male-to-xenogender. And in a way that aligns a bit more closely with ftmtf experiences than ftm experiences. At least from what I’ve seen of both groups. I don’t know. One of the categories of xenogenders I hoard is dollgenders. They’re really really amazing and I like them. But “ftmtf dollhood” has such a strong association with kink and I hate it.

I’m really really ace. I have no interest in ever having sex with anyone. I don’t like to think about or talk about sex. So this really bothers me. Even though it probably shouldn’t. I usually present very masc/“butch” (can I call it being butch if I’m not interested in women?), which is what I do like dressing like. But I think I would have the courage to do more of the frilly dollcore stuff that I also like if this wasn’t in the back of my head all the time. That it might be interpreted that way.

I should just call myself xenic with no specifications. People don’t need to know my personal history. But it feels important to me.

Just getting this out of my head.

https://www.tumblr.com/neopronouns/665323627620728832/ftmtn-an-afab-person-who-first-began-a-masculine

https://www.tumblr.com/enderluna/766985360553230336/ftmtnb-a-flag-for-people-who-are-female-to-male-to

https://www.tumblr.com/the-playrooms/686062072314953728/ftmtnb-detransitioner-flag (this one is specifically for those who consider it a detransition, which isn’t everyone)

There’s one more pink and purple ftmtx flag that I lost the link for, which I guess is okay because I didn’t like it that much anyway.

Sorry, I kind of collect these flags. So I have the links and I should have sent them earlier. A lot of them are filed under ftmtn or ftmtnb instead.

Thank you so much. I did not fare well on my own lol