Waking up from what I hoped to be my last gender reassignment surgery to over hear nurses saying they've had to give me adrenaline during the procedure (usually for those who are having cardiac issues during surgery) and to wake in excruciating pain to be told they have to be careful what medication they can give you incase it supreses my respiratory system further, I can say for certain this is the third time I have risked my life to allow myself to keep living and be true to who I am.
I can only sit here in hospital wondering am I being selfish knowing that I now have another surgery ahead of me because of these complications. Is it wrong being at peace knowing I'm happy to die on the table than not live completely free of my old body.
Being trans isn't a choice, it's almost a death sentence.
