Llevar una vida de escritor. Es llevar una vida miserable. Lamentable y triste. No hay felicidad ni goce suficiente. Todo nos impregna de melancolĂa. Y si no hay heridas, nos las autoinfringimos. No existe la gloria con el pasar de los años. Pensamos, tenemos la esperanza de que con los años lograremos cosas importantes. Cuándo la verdad es que poco a poco nos daremos cuenta que no conseguiremos un carajo. No somos especiales. No somos la excepciĂłn. No somos diferentes. No somos mejores. Simplemente somos escritores.
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hi i was wondering if you could do the comforting a depressed s/o for thoma and ayato mayhaps?
Ofc lovely! I hope the boys efforts make you feel better even if only a little! - Mod Diluc
Ayato & Thoma Comforting Depressed S/O
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Ayato
Mmh, bothersome indeed.
Not because you are a bother mind you, more so because he cannot figure the best remedy to make you feel better.
Doesn't mean he will not try though.
"My dear Y/N, Would you like to go for a stroll in Chinju Forest?"
"Here dear, have this- what is it? My boba tea- hm? No I do not mind giving it to you, why did that even cross your mind?"
He will make it habit to bring home small things as hopeful brightening gestures just to see your smile; Dango Milk, A plushie from one of the tourist souvenir shops, maybe he'll even brave face at Yoimiya's firework shop just to get his hands on some of those special dazzling ones that erupt into hearts; he could've swore he remembered hearing you say they're your favourite.
Suddenly you'll find him working at the estate more than normal, wonder why that could be; definitely not so he can keep tabs on you closer and encourage you to keep him company.
He won't mind your idle chatter and jump at unloading your stressed thoughts onto him while he works; a distraction he values to much higher regard than the boredom of his own work.
Vent away reader, hearing your struggles and offering advice or simple silence and playing the doting role of a shoulder to cry on is fine to this young Lord.
If it means helping you smile and sigh a relief then it is all surely worth it.
You do mean so much to him, he hopes you're aware of this.
How easy it is for you to lose yourself in your own self sorrow, letting the facts fly by in a gloomed daze.
But he will remind you, always.
His jokes, albeit sometimes far fetched and rather... highbrow manage to get at least a little huff and smile from you, and that is great! It means it isn't all doom and gloom for his beloved.
He knows mora doesn't fix everything, but he'll be damned if he doesn't exploit his abundance of it to take you to fancy restaurants and in his spare days off; vacations to settlements all around Inazuma, hell- he'll even take you abroad to other nations!
Warming and love filled kisses to the lips, stolen at the most abrupt of times, stealing your breath away mind you.
Gentle cuddles and soft caresses whenever you sit together, lie together too.
What would be better? Is it emotional support that will help? Or would physical affection yield better results, infuriating for him to not know which way is most effective for the love of his love; ah well, he'll just do every darn thing under the sun that let's you see he is deeply and forever in love with you, no matter how sad you become or depressed you feel, he will be there to keep you company through it all and cut through it like he does with so many of his enemies.
After all there is no bigger enemy to him than that of a plague that harms his sweet dear beloved, you reader.
Thoma
"Wanna grab a bite to eat?- Oh! or I could cook for you! What?- waste of time? Nonsense Y/N! Sit down and let me get prepared, tell me, what do you desire; I'll do my best to make it perfect just for you."
No, why are you depressed reader-chan? he hates seeing you so down in the dumps like this.
Stupid depression, he can't kick that away with force as much as he would love too.
He will constantly shower you with kisses, praise and cuddles, anything to put that smile back on your beautiful face.
He will let you do as you please too, twiddle with his dog tag? Play with his head piece for all he cares, he knows how much you love his attire and take joy in sticking close by.
It becomes a rather difficult task when he needs to finish his chores for the Kamisato twins at the estate, but to hell with it, sharing jokes with you, tickling you with the duster mid clean session; "Stop? Why would I do that when I get to keep hearing your cute giggles Y/N? Come here!"
He may even get in trouble a few times, being distracted by you, but there is no better distraction than you, so it's a price he'll gladly pay. At least you laugh again in those times.
He will pop out in any free times he gets to grab some of your favourite snacks, maybe a new blanket for you to cuddle at night with him?
He is nothing but a hopeless romantic, so you can sure bet that he will drag you out even if you refuse at first, to take you to beautiful places you hadn't even realised existed, just to show you the beautiful landscapes and dazzling night sky painted with stars.
Except some cheesy one liners too; "Beautiful isn't it? But not as much as you Y/N."
"I will never get tired of seeing that smile Y/N."
He will remind you all the time of how beautiful you are, and funny too, how much he couldn't ever live without you, how lucky he is to have you be his, how proud he is to know he is yours too.
Depressed or not, he loves you, oh so so so much, and even if he had to remind you every single day that you are perfect and he couldn't prey for a better partner that wouldn't change a single thing.
Because he thought he would never find a family again once he was left adrift at sea that faithful day, but it was you who anchored him back to something warm, something he thought he wouldn't have again, love and companionship.
So he will sooner rather die than not return those feelings tenfold, now, and forever.
I’m actually genuinely concerned. I’M LOSING MEMORIES!!!! I CAN’T REMEMBER ANYTHING!!! Things are blank. It’s awful. It’s like I’m losing more memories each day.
I have a hard time remembering the simplest things, and that scares the shit out of me. Sometimes, I don’t know what day it was or what I did a minute ago. At times, I don’t remember the face of the people I met a second ago. Is something wrong with me?
Mis propios pensamientos están acabando conmigo tantos escenarios de lo que es o pudo a ver sido si, hubiera pasado algo o hubiera hecho algo distinto, el constante miedo al fracaso, a decepcionar a las personas que creen en mi, el miedo a no lograr todo lo que quiero, el miedo a mi misma y no conocer el lĂmite al que mi propia mente me pueda llevar...
Mi mente es un lugar complejo que ni siquiera yo misma conozco por completo y no logro comprenderla, es el lugar albergo mis más oscuros secretos, los sueños y anhelos que tengo y donde guardo todos mis recuerdos desde los más felices hasta los que me han hecho daño al punto de acabar conmigo.
Debo sanar, muchos que dicen que todo esta en mi, el querer estar bien pero no es asà de sencillo, no es que yo no quiera estar bien, porque realmente no me gusta perder el control de mi, sobre pensar todo lo que sucede en mi alrededor ni lo que ya pasó, quiero dejar todamos estos pensamientos y actos suicidas, dejar mis transtornos, yo quiero estar bien pero no es tan fácil como lo creen...
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I've binged the last 3 days, haven't worked out in those 3 days either because I've been so depressed and let myself fall back to old habits. I find myself being devastated that my health journey is over and I've ruined 3 months of hard work.
Then I remember it's not fucking over till I say it's over. Onward and upward, I'm not letting 3 bad eating days ruin 3 months of progress just because my brain likes to self sabotage.
