(Tw: Mentions of hurting/killing people)
So apparently turning evil changes your entire source and your memories of source?? Which is not something I was expecting, butā¦when our Luigi turned evil he also had a shift in his source memories, so I guess I shouldāve expected this. Maybe if *someone* had told me about that I wouldnāt have been *so confused*. Looking at Lex but whatever.
My source memories have absolutely gone to hell the past two days and I am Once Again Here to Yap About Them. Since I have nothing better to do. We love throwing stuff like this into the void.
Before, I had really strong memories of some guy named Ollivander that I apparently knew and had grown up with, and who replaced Ultraman in my canon. Heās just gone now. Entirely. I think since my heel turn literally just happened the brain is still scrambling to make me a new source, so I donāt have a Ton to work off of right now. But I DO have a few brief flashes!
Me and Lois got in a fight at some point. I killed someone, I think, but it wasnāt a televised thing and she was the only person who knew about it. I told her in confidence that she would understand, because she was my best friend and murder is the kinda thing you can admit to your best friend (Iām joking. Donāt do that). Apparently she didnāt understand, and we got in a big fight about it. I donāt remember the aftermath, if there was any.
Now, the whole āLex reveals the other half of my parentsā messageā thing Iām trying to figure out. I was still shocked, Iām pretty sure, because hearing your parents tell you to go start a harem is going to be shocking for anyone. I think I was starting to have doubts at this point, though. About humanity and being good and whatnot. Why exactly am I doing all this? Whoās actually thanking me? Everyone was so quick to turn on me after the reveal, after all. Did any of it actually mean anything?
I didnāt necessarily think Lex was right about. Literally anything he said ever. But he seemed to have so much fun for a guy who was supposedly super evil, and everyone loved him. I doubt I ever, like, went to him about my moral doubts or whatever. I donāt think any amount of me being evil wouldāve stopped his desire to kill me. (Heās yelling at me for āmisunderstanding the pointā. lol)
The exact moment I turn Iām starting to remember. It wasnāt that long after the reveal. I know I still went to the Fortress, realized Krypto was gone, flipped Lexās table and whatever, turned myself in and got locked in the pocket dimension, escaped and went back to. What do I call them. My human parentsā house to recover, all that jazz. I think it was that talk scene with the dad. āParents arenāt meant to tell their kids who to beā and all that. I do still agree with everything he said, btw! He was entirely right about all that. āIām not who I thought I wasā OH THAT. THAT EXACT SECOND. It wasnāt a āOh noo my parents wanted me to hurt people :(ā, it was a āOh, *I* want to hurt peopleā.
I still stopped the rift and killed Ultraman, obviously. I didnāt want the world to fall into a black hole. I think it went downhill for everyone else pretty quickly after that, though. I didnāt really have a desire to Rule the World or whatever, but I certainly wasnāt *helping people* anymore. I think I did a good amount of killing. Oh god, wait, Kara. Uhh. Yāknow, Iām just gonna not think about her until the Supergirl movie comes out. Yeah. Iāll let the brain figure that out after that.
Everyone else? Uhā¦I meanā¦I know the āJustice Gangā tried to stop me, at some point. Iām pretty sure I didnāt kill them, but I have vague memories of punching Guy in the face. Sorry?
- Clark Kent (fictive) (#š„š“š)
