#changes on t

Noticeable changes? (Honestly there hasn’t been any big changes, but I already knew there wasn’t gonna be huge changes right off the bat!!)

My appetite has grew, not much since I’m prescribed Vyvanse and it suppresses my hunger a lot.

I’ve been hella more tired, more than usual. Not physically, just sleep tired.

Acne has for sure started. It’s not bad, but I didn’t get much acne before T so that could be why.

Haven’t felt excessively angry or irritable. Vyvanse makes me very irritable and angry, and ever since I’ve taken T it hasn’t added to the fuel.

No hair growth yet!!

I think my smell is changing? But I think that’s just me...

Apparently my voice has been getting lower too. Not drastically, but my mom mentioned it a few days ago. I don’t hear it, but it made happy to hear that.

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I’m not 100% sure, but I think my bottom growth is starting... Starting to feel uncomfortable at random times.

hey y’all remember when i said i was gonna do lots of updates on t changes? i completely forgot i could do that.

Realized I haven’t posted anything about being on t in a while and I’m almost 10 weeks on t (wtf!!!) so here are all the changes I’ve had

-for the first week I was really tired but now I’m not!

-acne!!!!! A lot more acne than I used to have (but that wasn’t a lot to start with) I’m a greasy boy tho if I haven’t showered in a day

-leg and arm hair is different

-voice! My voice is deeper and is cracking and it’s funny bc Ami mocks me w a fake deep voice lmaoobut also my singing voice has changed I can’t reach the notes I could which is sad but w/e I just sing for funsies

-face shape is changing my jawline is becoming beautiful

-I had like a period of 3 days and that’s all !!! Fingers crossed I don’t get anymore

-lil bit of downstairs growth but that’s weird and kinda gross and personal??? So like :p

-I’m a lot hungrier than I used to be but I don’t have the opportunity to eat much more than I do so hopefully I’m not gaining weight

-muscles!???! Nothing really visible but my upper body strength has changed, part of that could be I now do a lot of inventory and stocking at a paint shop so I’m lifting gallons and gallons of paint a lot

(almost) 9 months on T

The fast changes are behind me now, so I don’t pay as much attention to them as I used to, which is also why I post less. But not paying attention to the details means I’ve become aware of the slower changes, like body and face shape. My body has actually changed a lot. The fat on my hips and chest is slowly disappearing, and I’ve put on some muscle. Since coming out I’ve gained 10kg, half of it after starting T, and I no longer want to shrink myself out of my own skin. I have to shave twice a week to not look like mr. fluffy. When I touch my face I can actually feel that I’m present, that I’m a physical being, that I’m not outside my body looking at it like a stranger. After 9 months I’m finally starting to settle in my body after a decade of not feeling connected.

I had my hysterectomy which I posted about August of 2021. The last and final operation will be metoidioplasty and as long as everything goes swell, it will be the final step, and I will just have to inject hormones for the rest of my life lmao.

I have lost weight over time, I jump around some. If I work a lot which involves over 5 miles a day normally, I stick around 110-116lbs. I am a small (almost 5'3", so I'm 5'3" okay??) transman. I don't know that I'll ever be happy with my height, but I'm pleased with all of the changes with my body over time. I'm an adult man, and I get to see myself as such. This is fortunate. I am grateful I had this opportunity, even though I will say to get my surgeries it involved many jumping through loops and bumps along the way.

I have made it. An update on my environment: I now live alone. I like it this way, and I hope I can keep it this way. One bad roommate after another since 2012, I...can't do it anymore. I have lost everyone. Now I need to build a new community of my own. To a fresh start.