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While the PAC does say what type of beauty you posses, it's more so delving into your vibe. I had so much fun writing the scenarios and making the mood board, so I hope you have fun reading it as well. Once again, this is a general reading, take what resonated and leave the rest. Please remember that these readings are for entertainment purposes only!

pile 1

three of cups, king of cups, five of cups, temperance

my pile number 1s possess a type of melancholic beauty. there's so much depth to you and people appreciate both your inner and outer beauty. you are so kind. very elegant vibes form this pile.

it's also giving romanticized depression from an outsider's perspective. if people ever made edits of you, it'd be with lana del ray songs. you laugh with others, you now how to make them laugh and how to pop up just when they need you. you know how to be there for each person. other people could be slightly in awe of how effortlessly you connect with people. this wisdom and knowing makes you so beautiful in the eyes of others, especially your admirers pile one. it's a bit off-topic, but someone could find your name very beautiful and wishes they had the right to call you by it over and over again. until they wear that name out ("but that's a lie since i could never get sick of your name")

your emotional depth adds an almost ethereal aspect to your beauty along with your calmness and maturity.

but there's also hidden depths of you, the most important being your sadness. people may catch glimpses of it or hear about you having a hard time, which to you is fine because i think you're past caring about whether people realize it or not, what matters to you is that this sadness is all yours to carry. the reasons for this differ for each one of you-- nobody knows how to be there for you like you are for others and you do not feel like teaching them because you're so tired or for some of you this sadness has become a part of yourself that you carry. you do wish it away at times of course, how could you not? but its heaviness in your life has become a familiar presence that you wouldn't know what to do without.

people wish they knew what it was. some of them could have this fantasy of "saving you."

you've been through your fair share of tragedies, but you have a relaxed air about you. if any of you smoke here then people think you look really hot while doing it (i'm not encouraging that you start or continue smoking. please make responsible and suitable decisions in your life.)

it is not that you are sad all of the time, most of it could be reserved for when you are by yourself. and i think you do make an effort to be there for other people and carry out acts of "casual kindness" when you can without expecting anything in return. to you, it just makes sense but for the people around you it adds to your appeal. you're very wise and grounded. i'm not that well-versed in astrology but you could have a lot of water in your chart.

lowkey if i had to give an example, it's a bit similar to gojo satoru? the chaotic-ness of his personality doesn't apply, but if you know what happened in his backstory with geto, etc. it's really tragic but he never really shares it with anyone. he just is who his students need him to be.

you've unknowingly broken people's hearts pile 1. there have been people who wanted to be to you what you have been to others but were disappointed when they realized you let nobody in. there are many who have admired you.

moodboard + scenario:

The others had long left after having their fill, too tired to go on. Now it was just them and… you. It made their heart want to jump out of their throat. To be in such close contact with you, they wondered if you could hear it with how loud it was beating. They wouldn't be surprised if you did, you always had a knack of knowing things like this even if you never say them out aloud.

You were more relaxed than normal. Your eyes lazily took in your surroundings, and they could swear that twinkle in them was brighter than normal, but so was that ever present melancholy behind the gaze. It always made them feel like there was a huge chasm between you and them no matter how much time they spent with you.

Maybe tonight could be the night you'd finally let them in.

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pile 2

judgement, the magician, two of pentacles, ten of pentacles, three of wands

Every single PAC I do, there's always one pile that's a go-getter or very capable and this time it's pile number two. Pile 2, you're hot shit and you know it as well. I would not be surprised if you had a whole routine dedicated to looking hot. You keep up with the trends, you know what's in and what's on its way out, but more importantly, you know what looks good on you. Your type of beauty is it girl/it person.

But beauty isn't all there is to you, is it? You're smart and capable. Capable enough to lead. And that's what you've been stuck trying to prove to those around you. Incredibly perfectionistic as well. I had already written out the entire pile for you, but then it wasn't good enough. I kept having the urge to rewrite it so here I am. I believe it was your energy that I was picking up on. You don't like leaving things until they meet your standard (I'm even writing everything in proper case instead of just lowercase like I usually do.)

There is a certain amount of resentment you have towards this status of being 'hot' or 'attractive'. You could have been raised in a very beauty-focused household that forced you to open your eyes to the privileges that being conventionally attractive gets you. But there's something so angry about you deep inside. Do you get underestimated often because of your looks? Do people see nothing else of value when they look at you? Pile 2, some of you wonder if this resentment has grown so deep that it's beginning to spread rot inside of you.

There could be one particular person who you know fawns over you and is someone who you have wrapped around your finger. You feel bad because you only hit them up when you need to feel good about yourself. It's not like you've promised them anything more but at the same time, things are vague. Be honest with them pile 2. Their feelings towards you are very puppy-love/ they place you on a pedestal. Do right by them. Don't turn away people who like you for you. You'll turn your fear into a self-fulfilling prophecy otherwise. If it doesn't work out, it's fine. It's not them you're annoyed at anyway. It's at the people who make you feel smaller and refuse to acknowledge your talents.

I typed a lot in the first draft lol but I'm getting that you want a very summarized version of the type of beauty you posses so here it is: it-girl, hailey bieber, office siren, pilates princess, preppy outfits.

other messages: rodrick x regina george, snow on the beach (song)

moodboard + scenario:

They couldn't believe someone like you was real. You were the type of person that seemed to just casts a spell upon people. They had seen with their own eyes how others preened for your approval, how they smile at you and ask if you need anything just to hear a thank you for your lips, how so many would kill to be your friend. It was honestly a status symbol of sorts, to be someone in your circle.

And here you were with them. You had asked them if they were free for lunch. Of course, they were. They didn't tell you about the plans they postponed just to be here with you though.

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pile 3

temperance, ace of pentacles, queen of swords, strength, 8 of swords

you are beautiful. you are. that is what you need to hear first and foremost.

your type of beauty is that of the early 2000s rom-com lead.

you could be feeling particularly tender during this holiday season. i think you've been carrying a lot on your shoulders. you're exhausted, aren't you? some of you just picked this pac just because, to get your mind off of things. and there's no shame in that but you aren't excited for it. the exhaustion is one of the reasons but another reason is that you don't find yourself thinking of your beauty these days. it's not that you think you're ugly or detest your looks, no, it's just that you haven't really had the time or energy to want to perceive .

what dreams have you given up in order to make it in the 'real world' pile 3? it is time to dust off that old book and read it again, pick up your forgotten painting supplies (i also heard carving set for some of you) and just make something; don't call it ugly or a masterpiece, but return to your dreams for just a season. and you don't have to do something productive all the time. if you just want to lie down and watch the tv with a beer in your hand (i'm hearing 'like a loser.' rest is not loser behaviour, pile 3. you know this. your antagonism towards yourself is rooted in something else and entirely misdirected.) that's more than okay. you really to catch up on rest.

billy joel songs could be significant to you.

i wish i had particular rom-coms in my mind to give you an example, but you could have a very monotonous life where it looks perfectly fine from the outside but god is it suffocating on the inside. you know the trope where the lead has the same routine day in and day out until something happens? usually it's a manic pixie dream girl lol. but you do crave some kind of adventure, some kind of relief. but you also 'know' that you're so used to yourself that somehow you'll find a way to make even an adventure underwhelming.

underwhelming. constricting. suffocating.

that's how life has been feeling for you pile 3. and i'm not saying go on some big, huge adventure. if you think you'll find it underwhelming and are anxious about it, then don't do it. but also don't place such heavy expectations on one experience.

just do one small thing to lighten your misery. it'll be hard and it will be annoying and some of you have heard this advice before cause i'm hearing "i don't know what else to tell ya kid", but don't just brush it off. it's boring predictable advice, but it works. an old recipe is boring and predictable but it'll still make you your favourite food.

sure, maybe you have to tweak the amount of salt or spice you add in it to make it match your taste entirely, but there will still be a serving of fresh food waiting to be eaten that wasn't there before.

if you were going to tune in to watch some sport all alone at home, maybe go out to a pub or somewhere where other people are also seeing it. you don't have to talk to anyone. just share the space and go home when it's time. and be safe.

it must have been hard pile 3. thank you for still being here.

now onto your beauty, i think a well-fitted turtleneck would be very flattering on you (with blush if you wear makeup). more than the outgoing rom-com lead, you're more quiet and focused on your inner world. and more than rom-coms, i was getting christmas movies' vibe so winter fashion could look sooo good on you, especially sweaters. you have a very serene-but-tired-and-overworked-beauty to you as well. people do feel bad for you, but i think you're the type of person who's attractive even when they're a bit messy but doesn't realise it. i'm getting this visual of someone falling asleep on a desk, and people around them are admiring how good they look even when they're asleep. french style/ makeup could suit you very well.

other messages: people watching by conan, merry christmas, please don't call by the bleachers; empty-nester/homesickness, rivalry.

moodboard + scenario:

They hadn't expected to see anyone in the break room, not around this time, but there you were, sleeping so soundly without a care for the world. Should I wake them up? they wonder. But they've been looking so exhausted for so long. wouldn't it be rude if I woke them up now? Their feet take them to stand right beside you. You still manage to look so beautiful even when you were exhausted like this. Just as they decided that they didn't have the heart to wake you up, your lashes fluttered against your cheek.

They just stiffened as you sat back in the chair, stretching out and glancing them. "Ah, I must have fallen asleep," you murmur as you rub at your eyes. "What's the time?" the rasp in your scratches a satisfying itch in their ears.

They reply, never once taking their eyes off of you.

Even with the tiredness in your eyes and with your hair sticking in all different directions, you still so mesmerizing.

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hello!! how have you guys been? it took me a while to have energy to make pacs again but here i am ^_^ i hope you guys enjoyed reading this. the scenarios are a bit dramatised obviously but my main focus was just on capturing the concentrated essence of the vibe i was getting for each pile.

mdni; strong mentions of sexual content.

little bit of a different format since i don't have the time to do my usual one. this is my first nsfw pac as well as the first pac of the year since i've been crazy busy with academics. hopefully, i'll be able to be more active soon.

pile 1 ₊⊹

If this topic is triggering for you, please feel free to skip it. This reading will still be here when you're ready to read it.

Quite a few of you have a very difficult relationship with your sexuality. In fact, the phrase "stilted seduction" came to mind. You could have been conditioned to believe that any self-expression even remotely sensual, not even sexual, is almost equivalent to "asking for it."

Most of you have a difficult time imagining you have a sex appeal at all and could have chosen this PAC to get validation that it is not the case. However, I honestly don't feel comfortable diving into the sex appeal of this pile because there's so much resistance and discomfort, that I sense you just want to force through instead of doing the work to deconstruct the shame you feel around sex. If you identify as a woman, you could not feel like a "whole" woman or a "real" woman because you can't access being sensual or seductive. You feel that you don't have the charm your peers easily wield nor can you get the person you have your eyes set on as easily as the others.

There's also a lot of anger and resentment underneath it all due to being unable to express yourself this way. Anger at the people who've instilled this shame in you, anger towards the people who have it easier than you and get what you want, anger and disgust towards yourself even.

Once again, if you identify as a woman, you might have had a phase where you thought it's easier to be thought of as "one of the boys" rather than a genuine romantic interest. And you really leaned into this, because it was the only way of getting attention from the people you liked. Some of you might have had a pick-me phase too. Growing up "ugly" or attracting unwanted attraction could be something you faced that also added to this stunted relationship with desirability.

I know that the PAC is meant to get into your sex appeal, but there is far too much fear and anxiety surrounding this topic and I do not feel comfortable forcing it. I've already tried to work on this pile for weeks but it just isn't happening so I'm going to take that a sign. Even a scenario I channeled was quite sad and from your end, rather than what others think about you. Some of you feel that even if you do get chosen, you're only the consolation prize and your person will always imagine someone else in your stead.

Pile 1s, what you need is a whole lot of healing and kindness towards yourself as well as others. I'm sensing some of you could have been quite nasty or passive aggressive to those close to you during rough patches due to envy or jealousy. You've judged others for being "overly promiscuous", for freely enjoying even pieces of media that depict sensuality/sexuality, but now that you've somewhat found in in yourself to explore it yourself, you fear others will do the same and get defensive in advance.

We all have moments we are not proud of but it is important to forgive and move ahead.

The messages for this pile are quite blunt and I don't feel called to sugarcoat it. Normally, I'd provide suggestions on how to go forward from here but Spirit merely wants attention to be brought to these patterns so that you are aware of it. And to do the work required to overcome this. Some of you have a habit of spiraling into shame & resentment, followed by quick fix of some kind to make yourself feel better. There's a whole lot of denial going on within that needs to be looked into.

Even though this wasn't what I intended for this pile, I still hope it provided some helpful insight for you all.

channeled messages : "it is easier to be competent than sexy."

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pile 2 ₊⊹

It’s giving Higuruma from JJK. Would not be surprised if y'all had dark circles that added to your appeal. Something about your tired expression, or the somber tone could get people going. Sex could be a huge part of your wind-down or stress release routine.

Also, the way you guys refrain from giving in way too easily. Not necessarily playing hard to get, but you don’t mind waiting. It’s like an unaffected mountain of patience and calm while the other person is deep into their desire. Even if you verbally affirm something (like yeah I'll come over to your place at 7) the other person could read it as simply another appointment to you because you don’t react to specially to it. You’re constantly busy and some of you could have pain in your shoulders or back.

I just heard “I could fix that.” The people you attract with your appeal are very eager to please or want to be of use to you in bed. They seek acknowledgement or praise or some evidence to see that they affect you too.

I feel like you come off as apathetic to most people. Because of this, whenever someone sees you passionate about something, whether it's for work or a hobby, they find that incredibly alluring and dare I say, even sexy.

I feel like if someone communicates this to you, you’d be a little amused and tease them. If you aren’t confident in your sexuality now, then perhaps this is later on in your journey, or just your admirer’s obsession (less likely), but I imagine you teasing them like “aw, my good girl/boy doesn’t see how affected I am by them, hm?” while touching them and getting them worked up. I feel like you’d tease them mercilessly through actions or words, before letting them take control as a way of apologizing. You’d whisper into their ear about what they do to you, about your arousal and take pleasure in their reactions.

Your sex appeal is coming through as chill, laid-back and confident. Primarily, you use it as a stress-relief or at least that’s what your partners perceive it to be. Some of your lovers do end up feeling a bit neglected/ not getting as much care or attention as they need, so pay attention to that and try to open up a dialogue.

You could blurt out sexual stuff quite bluntly (with tact ofc) that gets others flustered and you enjoy that reaction. You prefer it aa your method of flirting because it takes less energy and still has quite an effect them. 

They’re very eager to please you. I feel like most of you have arrangements for sex rather than a committed relationship.

Idk if you set the boundaries properly, but communication doesn’t really seem to be going on unless it’s for a booty call. But it’s a 180 during sex, you’re more attentive and all that attention is finally present now. It’s very flattering for other person and they once again want to please you. I feel like you could get head often or people definitely fantasize about giving you head often. 

Going to be honest pile 2, you should communicate with your booty call cause they ain't getting all that from their sex life with you when it comes to the emotional part. Maybe the aftercare isn't quite meeting all their needs or something else. It’s on them to communicate too but I feel like they place you on a pedestal and are a bit intimidated. It is the same if you're in a relationship. They don’t want to seem too difficult “otherwise you’ll stop calling” is what I heard.

Your strengths lie in prolonging the softer moments, long make-out sessions with you where there’s loads of sensual kissing, setting up the atmosphere, edging, etc. A wilder side is unleashed that your admirers are enchanted to see and want to be the only one who gets to see such a side of you.

channeled messages: "i wanna ride," cross-fading

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pile 3 ₊⊹

It's giving forest-recluse-faerie who’s happy with their animals, doesn’t go out into town much and is a bit skeptical of people approaching their, especially with romantic intentions. But a hunter who catches sight of her is bewitched by them.

There’s something very pure about you and I don’t mean it in a virginal sense. Pure of heart. You could be very kind to animals and have lots of compassion for beings or causes that people normally overlook, but when it comes to humans you could view them with a natural distrust and keeping your distance. This fascinates people. Especially someone who’s seen you be so kind to strays for example is a bit confused when you’re standoffish and cold when they approach you.

It’s not as if you’re completely closed off. You have a rich inner world that you have painstakingly cultivated (and brought back to life is what I’m hearing) People in the past have trampled on your heart so now you’re very careful about who you bring into your inner sanctuary. There’s this one specific memory where you show someone something really precious to you and then they sort of dismiss it like “That’s it? That’s what you wanted me here for?” For some of you, they could have also tried to get into your pants right after that which made you really jaded. For the ones you do care about, you share freely with them and others wonder why they can’t get that with you. You might find that people are even more insistent on getting with you ever since you imposed stricter boundaries as they view it as a challenge.

But even when they can’t get past the wall, they can still see the sharp wit and intellect. It’s something most of them struggle to keep up which is why these sort of people don’t usually impress you.

Which leads me to the sexual fantasies— they want you to touch them with wonder. They want you to direct that gaze of curiosity and awe when it comes to them. They want to "train" you. Hear you. They want you to trail your hands all over their body. They dream of you approaching them and then seducing them, like some sort of fairy nymph that just sits don on their lap one day, teasing and playing until they finally can’t bear it anymore.  They're very in awe of your body. Most of the fantasies are just unabashed checking out and exploration your body, being able to touch you and to gaze at you when you’re at your most intimate. Some of them want to watch you masturbate. They want to look at that blissed out look on your face so that they can have something for their spank bank.

channeled messages : "There you are again," hide and seek, roleplay, CNC, impact play, voyeurism, peeping tom roleplay/fantasies.

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i had originally planned to do written scenarios for each pile but i was practically writing smut so i scrapped it. i'll save that for future readings.

i wanted to do one last pac for the year so here it is!!

thank you guys for all the support i've received on this blog throughout this year. i even got the chance to do a one-on-one reading with one of yall and it was such an honour to be chosen as someone's reader for that <3

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pile 1

out of all the piles, the future self’s energy came out most firmly and clearly in this one. until ‘for pile 1’ is pretty directly channelled. high priestess, three of pentacles rev, the world, ten of wands

You already know the answer to a question you've had. You've known for a while what must be done. But you've been putting it off maybe because of uncertainty and fear of how it's all going to turn out. You will have to leave something behind, that much is inevitable. You have outgrown your current environment and sentimentality and fear keeps you attached.

You should go. Now. Leave and take your ideas and energy with you. Leave through the backdoor if you must, but never look back.

Yes, it's work. It's going to be good, hard and rewarding work. You'll enjoy every moment of it and you've forgotten how it feels like, haven't you? The tingle down your spine, the rush in your blood, you've forgotten how it feels to have something you care about, to wake up and be genuinely excited to do what's coming next.

But don't be a liar. We both know the idea has taken spark in the shadowy areas of your mind. You're hesitant to give it life but you can't resist feeding it some dry kindle every now and then. And don't lie, you feel it then. The excitement, the allure of something new.

Either you outgrow the situation and leave on your terms, or the situation will leave you. It is better to leave than to be left in this situation. We both know what has to be done here. And we both know, or at least I know now, that we're capable of handling anything that comes our way.

So run. Run away. Run towards something new. Do what you have to do.

For pile 1, this message is related to either your creativity, some kind of goal or purpose that means a lot to you but you haven't allowed yourself to think about it except for the comfort of "daydreaming" about it. You're too caught up in what you owe others or how it'll appear to others, and your future self wants to tell you that you aren't being selfish. This is simply the way it goes. It's time to spread your wings and leave the nest. Because, if you keep pushing it off, you'll be pushed out of it. And it'll be an easier shift if it happens on your terms. You leaving your old situation is a guarantee. You either leave or you will be made to leave is what your future self wants you to know. Either way, the ending is coming. There is a lot of emphasis on this message.

Because of your indecision (I'm a bit hesitant to use this word, because you don't even acknowledge it's an option you want even to yourself, but the truth is that it's a decision that you've been putting off all the same), you've been suspended in time almost. You haven't been able to progress ahead in a satisfying manner. For a lot of you, this could be staying in an old job out of loyalty to someone/something, and you're being advised to snap out of it. You're blocking your own abundance and prosperity.

For 2026, your focus should be in your health, discipline and personal growth. You have completed a phase in your life, it's time to move onto the next one by nurturing your desires.

Obviously, I'm not telling you to quit your job right this instant or book a one-way ticket to a new country, no, what I am telling you is that you need to sit down and get honest with yourself about your wants and desires. Don't judge them and shut them down, that's not going to make them go away and you'll just hurt yourself more. Introspect. What you want is not as impossible as it seems, and it would be better to get started on being honest with yourself. Be compassionate and let yourself come to peace with what you want without demonizing your desires or wants.

random messages: cutlery, gardening, leaves

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pile 2

(TW: mentions of bullying, please exercise your own discretion) king of cups, eight of wands, the moon, temperance, seven of wands

(lmao, for some of my pile 2s, your future self wants you to go hit the club.)

This could be the pile that identifies with the "old soul" tag, or maybe "old person/retired energy," in case the old soul thing doesn't resonate, and that's completely fine. But don't use that label to box yourself in. I feel like some of you guys have made peace with being "boring" but that's not really true. Perhaps, you're a little bit different compared to the others in your social circle when it comes to your hobbies, interests, topics for discussion and so on, but I can see that most you guys have a lot of interest in really niche topics, and that's honestly the coolest thing in a person ever!! Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

You guys could have maybe dealt with bullying or social alienation because of your authentic self. Maybe your areas of interests weren't "cool" enough back in the day, and you faced a lot of peer pressure. Some of you guys were put into uncomfortable situations and had to do things that you didn't really want to do. And you've had to do a lot of work to come to be at peace with yourself (I'm so proud of you <3).

And I feel like the label of "old soul" emerged as a way of accepting yourself and defining yourself on your own terms, which is very important. But also, it has gotten to a point where you might begin to over-identify with this label in 2026 and inadvertently holds yourself back.

Perhaps you don't try new things because you already decided what you like/dislike and made up your mind about it. Knowing what you want is a good thing, but your future self wants you to go out and try new things. Don't turn your nose up at them. (I'm hearing "don't be a snob" 😭 damn. some of yall's future self isn't holding back) Some of you guys could think you're better than certain people who indulge in activities that you disapprove of. But that's just a defensive mechanism borne from your experiences of previous judgement (and dare I say, a little but of resentment because of all that.)

It reminds me of when Chappel Roan jabbed at the VIPs at one of her performances. ("it's so weird that the VIP thinks they're so way too cool to do this. you're no fun!")

There is an underlying fear of losing your identity and letting your morals/integrity be compromised. This is 100% valid, pile 2!! Like I said, some of you guys could have been forced into doing things that left you feeling really yucky after the fact. But it is nothing that, at this stage of life, strong boundaries cannot prevent.

And because of your previous, you've made sure to protect your peace now. But you're protected your peace a little too hard, Pile 2. You've essentially turned the air around you into a vacuum. Sure, there's no bad stuff, but there's no exciting good stuff either. And that's definitely what you needed for a period of time, but now it's time for things to change.

And the call for change needs to come from within.

Because I can see from the cards that it can be very triggering for you when your friends or the people around you try to push you to do something you've already said no to don't want to do. And there is a difference between maintaining your peace and sticking to your comfort zone.

Your future self wishes they had started to push themselves out of this comfort zone sooner than they actually did, and wants to convey that you're more than capable now to handle things if they go south. You're not the same person you were anymore. Don't let anyone look down on you but don't hold yourself back either.

And if you do decide to push yourself, it will be a little uncomfortable but there is an abundance of good experiences and new exciting things waiting ahead for you.

random messages: ren fair, tea (specifically earl grey tea.)

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pile 3

(TW: mentions of an abusive/ toxic living situation) nine of cups, the hermit, six of swords, seven of swords, ten of wands rev

While the other two piles were about offering advice or suggesting some sort of action here, this pile's future self instead comes with a whole lot of empathy as well as a warning.

This year has the potential to get very emotionally turbulent for you-- you'll feel happy one time and then miserable the next. And there's not going to be a quick way out of it. Your future self's come here to say that you'll probably break your head trying to figure out a way out of your circumstances and consider it a personal failure when you can't get yourself out of that situation, but it's simply not time for a solution yet.

And I'm not saying that it's not time yet because you aren't ready yet, but simply because certain things have to fall into place. There are greater factors at play here than just your willpower and intentions. This could be money for example. Or another example is, someone involved in the situation has to experience an event in their own life later on in the year, that'll change their view on something, which will in turn have a positive butterfly effect on your situation.

For most people in this pile, it is an abusive or toxic living situation. And I've been there myself so let me tell you this: things will get better. But if you've only recently become 18 or only recently started trying to get out: you will have so much optimism and hope in the beginning that will get crushed over and over again. It will hurt. And hearing that things aren't happening, because it isn't the right time yet, could be filling you with rage and contempt.

It is so so so important to be kind and tender with yourself. To keep yourself safe and not be harsh on yourself. To not put pressure on yourself.

You want to get yourself out and fulfill your dreams because nobody else will? That's fine and dandy. But it will take time. You will probably fail more times that you expected to, face disillusionment when it comes to things you once believed in, you will experience unfiltered rage at the world and unfairness of it. All of which are valid.

But you should be careful of letting yourself be swallowed by self-hatred, failure and overwhelming self-pity.

I'm seeing a scene where after lashing out at someone, you still come back to the dining table to eat with them after something didn't work out. At that point, this person could taunt you with something like "coming back and sitting at the dining table after talking a big game." I'm seeing clenched fists in response to that, and this could make you feel really pathetic and incapable of doing things by yourself. But you are not the one failing at being a decent human being here, Pile 3.

There are odds stacked against you, you need to remember that. That is why it is difficult. Because there is an active force that pushes against you. You are not fighting against nothing. Give yourself grace.

And that is so important here, because in 2026, you will be "acting out" in ways you do not necessarily understand. Your emotions will feel volatile and you'll be so reactive. You'll feel very suffocated at times. But this is your way of rebelling and protesting against the limitations others have set for you, and "unburdening" yourself.

However, you need to be careful as there's a high chance that you might lash out at the people who genuinely do care for you as a result.

Give yourself more empathy, let yourself have space to be understood even if it's only within yourself. This is not to say that 2026 is going to be a year only filled with terrible moments, this is just what your future self thought most important to convey. There will definitely be high points where you'll be emotionally fulfilled( and lots of fun to be had in stolen moments I'm hearing, so for some of you something sneaky romance could also happen in the year hehe).

Your future self is sending you a big hug, Pile 3 🫂 they're telling you to hang in there and to not lose hope.

random messages: take your vitamins and drink more water, get a humidifier/ fix your old one.

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While the PAC does say what type of beauty you posses, it's more so delving into your vibe. I had so much fun writing the scenarios and making the mood board, so I hope you have fun reading it as well. Once again, this is a general reading, take what resonated and leave the rest. Please remember that these readings are for entertainment purposes only!

pile 1

three of cups, king of cups, five of cups, temperance

my pile number 1s possess a type of melancholic beauty. there's so much depth to you and people appreciate both your inner and outer beauty. you are so kind. very elegant vibes form this pile.

it's also giving romanticized depression from an outsider's perspective. if people ever made edits of you, it'd be with lana del ray songs. you laugh with others, you now how to make them laugh and how to pop up just when they need you. you know how to be there for each person. other people could be slightly in awe of how effortlessly you connect with people. this wisdom and knowing makes you so beautiful in the eyes of others, especially your admirers pile one. it's a bit off-topic, but someone could find your name very beautiful and wishes they had the right to call you by it over and over again. until they wear that name out ("but that's a lie since i could never get sick of your name")

your emotional depth adds an almost ethereal aspect to your beauty along with your calmness and maturity.

but there's also hidden depths of you, the most important being your sadness. people may catch glimpses of it or hear about you having a hard time, which to you is fine because i think you're past caring about whether people realize it or not, what matters to you is that this sadness is all yours to carry. the reasons for this differ for each one of you-- nobody knows how to be there for you like you are for others and you do not feel like teaching them because you're so tired or for some of you this sadness has become a part of yourself that you carry. you do wish it away at times of course, how could you not? but its heaviness in your life has become a familiar presence that you wouldn't know what to do without.

people wish they knew what it was. some of them could have this fantasy of "saving you."

you've been through your fair share of tragedies, but you have a relaxed air about you. if any of you smoke here then people think you look really hot while doing it (i'm not encouraging that you start or continue smoking. please make responsible and suitable decisions in your life.)

it is not that you are sad all of the time, most of it could be reserved for when you are by yourself. and i think you do make an effort to be there for other people and carry out acts of "casual kindness" when you can without expecting anything in return. to you, it just makes sense but for the people around you it adds to your appeal. you're very wise and grounded. i'm not that well-versed in astrology but you could have a lot of water in your chart.

lowkey if i had to give an example, it's a bit similar to gojo satoru? the chaotic-ness of his personality doesn't apply, but if you know what happened in his backstory with geto, etc. it's really tragic but he never really shares it with anyone. he just is who his students need him to be.

you've unknowingly broken people's hearts pile 1. there have been people who wanted to be to you what you have been to others but were disappointed when they realized you let nobody in. there are many who have admired you.

moodboard + scenario:

The others had long left after having their fill, too tired to go on. Now it was just them and… you. It made their heart want to jump out of their throat. To be in such close contact with you, they wondered if you could hear it with how loud it was beating. They wouldn't be surprised if you did, you always had a knack of knowing things like this even if you never say them out aloud.

You were more relaxed than normal. Your eyes lazily took in your surroundings, and they could swear that twinkle in them was brighter than normal, but so was that ever present melancholy behind the gaze. It always made them feel like there was a huge chasm between you and them no matter how much time they spent with you.

Maybe tonight could be the night you'd finally let them in.

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pile 2

judgement, the magician, two of pentacles, ten of pentacles, three of wands

Every single PAC I do, there's always one pile that's a go-getter or very capable and this time it's pile number two. Pile 2, you're hot shit and you know it as well. I would not be surprised if you had a whole routine dedicated to looking hot. You keep up with the trends, you know what's in and what's on its way out, but more importantly, you know what looks good on you. Your type of beauty is it girl/it person.

But beauty isn't all there is to you, is it? You're smart and capable. Capable enough to lead. And that's what you've been stuck trying to prove to those around you. Incredibly perfectionistic as well. I had already written out the entire pile for you, but then it wasn't good enough. I kept having the urge to rewrite it so here I am. I believe it was your energy that I was picking up on. You don't like leaving things until they meet your standard (I'm even writing everything in proper case instead of just lowercase like I usually do.)

There is a certain amount of resentment you have towards this status of being 'hot' or 'attractive'. You could have been raised in a very beauty-focused household that forced you to open your eyes to the privileges that being conventionally attractive gets you. But there's something so angry about you deep inside. Do you get underestimated often because of your looks? Do people see nothing else of value when they look at you? Pile 2, some of you wonder if this resentment has grown so deep that it's beginning to spread rot inside of you.

There could be one particular person who you know fawns over you and is someone who you have wrapped around your finger. You feel bad because you only hit them up when you need to feel good about yourself. It's not like you've promised them anything more but at the same time, things are vague. Be honest with them pile 2. Their feelings towards you are very puppy-love/ they place you on a pedestal. Do right by them. Don't turn away people who like you for you. You'll turn your fear into a self-fulfilling prophecy otherwise. If it doesn't work out, it's fine. It's not them you're annoyed at anyway. It's at the people who make you feel smaller and refuse to acknowledge your talents.

I typed a lot in the first draft lol but I'm getting that you want a very summarized version of the type of beauty you posses so here it is: it-girl, hailey bieber, office siren, pilates princess, preppy outfits.

other messages: rodrick x regina george, snow on the beach (song)

moodboard + scenario:

They couldn't believe someone like you was real. You were the type of person that seemed to just casts a spell upon people. They had seen with their own eyes how others preened for your approval, how they smile at you and ask if you need anything just to hear a thank you for your lips, how so many would kill to be your friend. It was honestly a status symbol of sorts, to be someone in your circle.

And here you were with them. You had asked them if they were free for lunch. Of course, they were. They didn't tell you about the plans they postponed just to be here with you though.

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pile 3

temperance, ace of pentacles, queen of swords, strength, 8 of swords

you are beautiful. you are. that is what you need to hear first and foremost.

your type of beauty is that of the early 2000s rom-com lead.

you could be feeling particularly tender during this holiday season. i think you've been carrying a lot on your shoulders. you're exhausted, aren't you? some of you just picked this pac just because, to get your mind off of things. and there's no shame in that but you aren't excited for it. the exhaustion is one of the reasons but another reason is that you don't find yourself thinking of your beauty these days. it's not that you think you're ugly or detest your looks, no, it's just that you haven't really had the time or energy to want to perceive .

what dreams have you given up in order to make it in the 'real world' pile 3? it is time to dust off that old book and read it again, pick up your forgotten painting supplies (i also heard carving set for some of you) and just make something; don't call it ugly or a masterpiece, but return to your dreams for just a season. and you don't have to do something productive all the time. if you just want to lie down and watch the tv with a beer in your hand (i'm hearing 'like a loser.' rest is not loser behaviour, pile 3. you know this. your antagonism towards yourself is rooted in something else and entirely misdirected.) that's more than okay. you really to catch up on rest.

billy joel songs could be significant to you.

i wish i had particular rom-coms in my mind to give you an example, but you could have a very monotonous life where it looks perfectly fine from the outside but god is it suffocating on the inside. you know the trope where the lead has the same routine day in and day out until something happens? usually it's a manic pixie dream girl lol. but you do crave some kind of adventure, some kind of relief. but you also 'know' that you're so used to yourself that somehow you'll find a way to make even an adventure underwhelming.

underwhelming. constricting. suffocating.

that's how life has been feeling for you pile 3. and i'm not saying go on some big, huge adventure. if you think you'll find it underwhelming and are anxious about it, then don't do it. but also don't place such heavy expectations on one experience.

just do one small thing to lighten your misery. it'll be hard and it will be annoying and some of you have heard this advice before cause i'm hearing "i don't know what else to tell ya kid", but don't just brush it off. it's boring predictable advice, but it works. an old recipe is boring and predictable but it'll still make you your favourite food.

sure, maybe you have to tweak the amount of salt or spice you add in it to make it match your taste entirely, but there will still be a serving of fresh food waiting to be eaten that wasn't there before.

if you were going to tune in to watch some sport all alone at home, maybe go out to a pub or somewhere where other people are also seeing it. you don't have to talk to anyone. just share the space and go home when it's time. and be safe.

it must have been hard pile 3. thank you for still being here.

now onto your beauty, i think a well-fitted turtleneck would be very flattering on you (with blush if you wear makeup). more than the outgoing rom-com lead, you're more quiet and focused on your inner world. and more than rom-coms, i was getting christmas movies' vibe so winter fashion could look sooo good on you, especially sweaters. you have a very serene-but-tired-and-overworked-beauty to you as well. people do feel bad for you, but i think you're the type of person who's attractive even when they're a bit messy but doesn't realise it. i'm getting this visual of someone falling asleep on a desk, and people around them are admiring how good they look even when they're asleep. french style/ makeup could suit you very well.

other messages: people watching by conan, merry christmas, please don't call by the bleachers; empty-nester/homesickness, rivalry.

moodboard + scenario:

They hadn't expected to see anyone in the break room, not around this time, but there you were, sleeping so soundly without a care for the world. Should I wake them up? they wonder. But they've been looking so exhausted for so long. wouldn't it be rude if I woke them up now? Their feet take them to stand right beside you. You still manage to look so beautiful even when you were exhausted like this. Just as they decided that they didn't have the heart to wake you up, your lashes fluttered against your cheek.

They just stiffened as you sat back in the chair, stretching out and glancing them. "Ah, I must have fallen asleep," you murmur as you rub at your eyes. "What's the time?" the rasp in your scratches a satisfying itch in their ears.

They reply, never once taking their eyes off of you.

Even with the tiredness in your eyes and with your hair sticking in all different directions, you still so mesmerizing.

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hello!! how have you guys been? it took me a while to have energy to make pacs again but here i am ^_^ i hope you guys enjoyed reading this. the scenarios are a bit dramatised obviously but my main focus was just on capturing the concentrated essence of the vibe i was getting for each pile.