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‧₊˚ ⋅ 𑣲pile one ‧₊˚ ⋅

Right off the bat, the message I’m getting is that some of the people who picked this pile struggle with chronic illness, mental health conditions or some other invisible battle. You could worry quite often if you’d ever get the type of partner you yearn for, and sometimes even deny yourself the permisson to dream of the future you want. Well, I’m here to say that please don’t lose all hope. Even when I asked about what gets your fs choked up in love with you, the cards that first flew out just wanted to send a message of quick reassurance that even on the more tougher days that they will not go anywhere and will be a pillar of strength for you. In fact, they’re asking you to be a bit patient with them as they learn how to take care of you and to give them a chance/ don’t give up on them.

They see you as a kind of warrior. Compared to your life, they’ve had a very easy and restful one. I do think this is someone who comes from a stable background and has a happy go lucky attitude to them. To you, you’ll seem like two extreme opposites. It’s not that you’re a cynical or bitter person all the time, but you certainly can’t be a ball of light most of the time like this other person is. Awhh, pile 1, you’ll definitely be drawn to them and their light but you’ll also resign yourself to just being something in their orbit. I don’t even know if you see them romantically when this happens, you could just really like the vibe of this person and be a bit envious of their qualities. And wish “Ah, I wish I could live like that as well.”

(This sort of becomes a source of slight anxiety for them because they worry that you see them as someone who’s too easygoing and not someone dependable enough to consider as a partner.)

This person is a bit goofy + mischievious. They’re the type to make funny faces and teasingly bother you until you smile or loosen up. They’ll feel very happy and triumphant when they make you smile.

You’re a bit clammed up, Pile 1. And I’m not saying that to shame you. It’s just how you’ve adapted to survive through life. There’s this sense of heaviness that’s there with you most of the times that you pretend isn’t there when you don’t want to ruin the mood with other people. This person doesn’t care about that so you‘ll know if someone is your fs when they wholeheartedly accept you even without your mask on.

The thing that gets them all choked about in love with you is… well many things. A whole bunch of things came out like your inner strength, your resilience, your wisdom, your mind… This person just loves the whole of you (weird phrasing but that’s how it came out.) But what gets them choked up the most is your willingness to try again, especially in love and with them. They know how precious your energy is, and that you feel things more deeply than others, that it takes you longer to get up from the ground than others, but you still do. AHJDHJS I’m getting slightly choked up as well, so this person is definitely going to shed a tear or two. You’re so precious in their eyes. I don’t know if you ever faced anything particularly hurtful when you were a kid, but this person's heart would break when you tell them about it and they would be so sad. They would literally wish that they could go back in time and comfort little you.

I’m not even kidding when I say this, but say some kid on the playground bullied you or gave you shit that’s still affecting you in the present day, this person would be more than willing to throw hands 🧍🏽‍♀️ or at least give that person a piece of their mind.

They are so touched when you’re willing to give them a chance even though you’ve been burned before They’re fucking psyched up actually. I feel like you’d be concerned if you’re moving too slow meanwhile this person’s on cloud nine and dancing with their pillow or some shi at home. They don’t care how long it takes. They care that you’re willing at all. They know how many times you’ve gathered yourself up and they just genuinely don’t care about any of the things you’re worrying that they will.

I feel like you’re the type to be touched by reading all this, but you’ll still be doubtful, because I got so many messages for the other piles but for you, it feels like your fs is sort of holding out. “Wait for me to come and show you.” Is what they want to say. They’re more than aware of how guarded you’ll be and how high your walls are (I heard the phrase “especially now” so some of you may be going through sm in real time.)

They want you to focus on cutting people out (?😭), letting yourself cry real good and stay hydrated. That may just be a specific message for one of yall though… I think you’re dealing with some shady people who aren’t treating you well and you still don’t see it.

And don’t worry about your life in the bedroom. I feel like you’ve sort of resigned yourself here as well when it comes to trying things you’re curious about or getting a reciprocal relationship. Don’t worry about it, trust. This person will take all the safeguards to ensure you have a seamless, painless and safe experience. “You don’t even have to do anything if you don’t want to. Just lie down.” And “I’ll take care of the rest.” Also, this person will NOT pressure you for anything. Ever. Nor will they make you feel bad for not wanting to do it or making them “wait too long”. They just genuinely do not give a fuck as long as they get to be near you. This person might want to be really clingy with you but won’t at least in the initial stages because they want to preserve their image. If their friends heard about this, they’d be like “what image?”cause they all know how down bad your fs is for you.

They admire how well you take care of yourself and want to take care of you too. They won’t ever want to stress you out or make things tougher for you.

I hope you enjoyed the reading Pile 1!! Feel free to check out the masterlist in case you want to check out other readings from me. I wish I had a reading like why you’re that bitch (gender neutral ofc) to boost your confidence right now but I do have a what kind of beauty you possess reading so feel free to read that!! I also have 22% off on all my private readings until July in case you want a one-on-one reading xx

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‧₊˚ ⋅ 𑣲pile two ‧₊˚ ⋅

Your future spouse will have a very youthful heart-throb look to them. They could either be younger than you or appear to be younger than their age. Your future spouse is very soft in general. This is someone who believes in kindness and nurturing good things in their life so that they can multiply. They can be a bit naive at ties, but there’s also this element of being very energetic and passionate? They are certainly not passive but not fiery either. More like energetic the way a rushing stream is. This person has boundless patience.

I feel like there’s a very interesting dichotomy to this person’s energy.

Perhaps in their youth, this person certainly could have been fiery and hot-headed but mellows out significantly as they age. Like significantly to the point where it would seem like they have Buddha level of patience. and sometimes this would annoy you lol, like say you guys decide to have children and one day they break a vase or something expensive, you would be annoyed and have to take on the role of the stern parent. This person is so chill about it to the point that you think “does nothing faze this person?” Not to say that they’d be an irresponsible parent. You guys would be a great team actually. This person just has their own ideology, such as never raising their voice, etc. (which you’ll have in common) but if you tell them you need them to show up as a stern person, they’re always more than willing to support you.

Some people in this pile could honestly find their fs a little boring in the beginning. You would have preferred their past version more. Some of you crave that thrill that’s sometimes present in relationships with toxic dynamics, but none of that adrenaline rush is there with this person. I’m almost tempted to write “cheap” rush instead to describe it even though I don’t really want to call it that 😭 I think there will be a moment where it sort of clicks for you that this person is hot. I KNOW THAT SOUNDS SUPERFICIAL but hear me out for a second.

There will be some sort of situation where you’re sort of bracing for this person to react like your exes or other people did in the past (negatively). But instead they act in a completely different way than expected. And then you realise “Oh. This is the sort of person they are.” You’ll just feel really safe and taken care of and there’ll be such an abrupt shift towards how you feel, like, you’ll genuinely feel intense attraction to them in that moment. Like IMMEDIATELY.

I would say that your future spouse is the first one to develop interest in you but they also are super chill and “no pressure” about it. This just baffles some of you. “If you like me, then why aren’t you making a move for it?” But you only feel like that after you’ve developed interest in them. For your future spouse, who’s already had their eyes on you FOR A WHILE, they could have figured out that they aren’t the type of person they usually go for. JKSJEIOEO this is giving me second ml energy in the best way ( because the fact that they’re your fs means that they’re the first lead 🙏🏻🙏🏻) They just genuinely want to take care of you without expecting anyting in return. They’d do nice things for you here and there but won’t progress it any further to not pressurise you.

This is going to frustrate you soooo much, Pile 2. Especially sexually for some yall 😭 You know how you get the cuteness aggression when you see certain people? It’s that but sexual. Some of you just want to aggressively jump this person’s bones.

You’ll be the first one to take an action towards establishing a relationship (either asking them outright about their feelings or just kissing them when the moment feels right) cause they’ll be respecting your space (“too damn much” is what i heard lmao). I feel like something significant will happen in an elevator.

What gets them choked up in love about you and (ironically) gives them cuteness aggression about you is your protectiveness over them. You could think of them as too naive and trusting, which I guess they are but they aren’t completely powerless but they also don’t mind giving in to you. You know those types of husbands that just smile with affection when their wife is scolding them? That’s the type of energy it’s giving me. They love how nurturing you are towards them. In fact, there are times where they might even pretend to be sicker than they actually are to be babied by you. They’re just full of adoration for you in general.

If you have any sort of morning routine, they just silently admire you as you go on about it. They’ll silently think “I can’t believe I wake up to this person every single day. What a blessed life I’m living,” and they’ll be so deadass about it too. If you’re working from home and you suddenly switch to your “boss voice” or “corporate” voice they might find that hot too. They could even come over and kiss you, trying to tease you at times. This is a bit 18+ and also wholesome but another thing that sort of turns them on/ also gets them choked up in love about you is how you aggressively you chase your own pleasure, at least compared to them. In daily life, you may be the type to not get bogged down by the seriousness and the hustle culture of it all and prioritise your own fun. And when it comes to the 18+ stuff, let’s just say you aren’t scared to initiate. This sort of gives them the freedom and permission to also centre pleasure in their life and they’re so grateful to you for making their life better in so many different ways. “I learn so much from you.”

They think you’re the most strongest person they know and admire that about you, but this is also when the rare side of them comes out and they become stern whenever you push yourself too much. Lmao, this is going to be such a shocker for you and you’ll sort of be aroused at the same time.

You’re like a shining star for them. Your light brings them so much clarity and purpose. It could scare them sometimes because of how greedy they’d want to get with you (I feel like you’d be delighted at this admission and tease them about it).

Extra message: this could be the sort of person who struggles to hang up first/ be the first one to leave.

Well, that is all pile 2! I hope you enjoyed your reading! It is my first future spouse reading but I didn’t expect it to be this lengthy ahhh. If you’d like to leave me a tip or even purchase your own reading from me, please click here xx I have 22% on all readings until July hehe.

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‧₊˚ ⋅ 𑣲pile three ‧₊˚ ⋅

Aww pile3s, your future spouse is such an emotional softie to you. This is someone whose heart is very tender (they’d deny it if you ever asked them though). I think they like to think of themselves as someone who is gruff, intimidating (and in case it is a man “macho”). They could have been bullied in their school days for being too soft-spoken or shy, so they’re always conscious of appearing big enough for that to never happen again. I don’t think they’re the most in touch with their emotions- well, I don’t know. I think they try to avoid it but they can’t. I’m getting an image of someone who cries because a movie scene was particularly touching or sad and is sad the entire night, even cuddling with an old soft toy to comfort themseles. This is who they are when they aren’t performing what they think is socially acceptable.

They’re going to be sooo clingy and tender with you. Your relationship with them finally gives them space + permission to be wear their heart on their sleeve. I wouldn’t be surprised if this person acts one way with their friends and then a completely different person with you. Even if you tried telling other people, they might not even believe you.

In the spirit of honesty, your fs might have some toxic tendencies they might not think twice about. Esp for those who are interested in men, they might parrot some of the misogynistic jokes their friends cracked. This will offend you (as it should). But I’m hearing “ I will learn.“ Now, I’m not going to sit here and say that it’s your job to train a man or anyone else to deconstruct their misogyny and you should in NO way take this as a sign to stay around someone who is toxic/misogynistic thinking it could be your future spouse, no.

How you’ll know that it’s your future spouse is that this person’s expression will literally crumble when you express disappointment with them and pull back. They have no pride in this relationship. They don’t mind begging on their knees or going in between yours, whatever gets you looking all happy and content at them. They will like you so much that they’ll set onto do the work to deprogram their toxic mindset all by themself, because they want to be someone worthy of you. “I don’t deserve you.”

I want to emphasise that once again, pls don’t stay with someone who’s showing signs of a toxic mindset/ beliefs/ values just because of this message and think it might be your fs. LEAVEEE esp in this climate 🙏🏻 The message came through to convey that they realise how uncool it is to pretend to be someone they’re not and to just follow others to fit in. The shitty joke they made wouldn’t even be something that they believed in. This will cause them to go through an inner journey.

I mentioned earlier that they have no pride in this relationship and it’s really true when it comes to their clinginess. They’ll be the type to act like you’re the clingy one and tease you about that if you ever initiate affection, but they’re internally really happy about it. I just got an image of a tail wagging… very golden retriever energy. They’ll be pouty, wanting your attention, affection and time. You’re the most important person to them. I feel like this might annoy you sometimes and you set your boundaries. They’re going to be a lil dramatic in the beginning and their feelings will get hurt, but they want you to know that they will absolutely respect it. They just worry it’s a sign of you withdrawing from the relationship and not liking them anymore. You’ll find them very cute. Your opinion of them matters so much to them, Pile 3.

They’re the type to do big gestures or drive all night to come visit you at your house. (The sex life is going to be good. They’ll be eager to please and willing to do anything you like, anything at all.)

What gets your future spouse all choked up in love about you is your loyalty. Your unwavering single-minded focus when it comes to them. I mentioned earlier about them feeling like they don’t deserve you and they feel like it really is true. They feel like you’re better than them in every aspect, something about how you managed the twists and turns and all the curveballs life threw at you. You guys could have had similar backgrounds/ opportunities and they’re really in awe of how you’ve taken whatever you’ve given and basically transformed it into blessings. This person is really excited for you whenever you progress in your career.

They feel like you have so many better options. Some as cool and collected as you (I’m hearing “cool as a cucumber”) deserves so much than a person who can only razzle dazzle you. I feel like most of you will meet this person after the end of a relationship or when you’re in the market for a relationship/ marriage. I can definitely feel some meddling forces so maybe you’ve been set up to go on blind dates either by your friends or family (an aunt specifically for some of you).

I think this person sort of doesn’t go all way or hesitates when it comes to shooting their shot initially, at least not until that they notice that you aren’t looking at anyone else but them. This person puts you on such a pedestal istgg. I feel like you two could come from two different worlds. It’s giving Beth and Rip from Yellowstone.

There is someone who will actively try to get in between your relationship at some point. On paper, they think they are the better match for you and might just bulldoze it and try to court you( wining and dining you.) BUt you wouldn’t be interested in the other person at all. At some point your future spouse will realise that they’re the one you want, the only one you want. And let me tell you, that day they’ll feel like the happiest person in the world. The luckiest one too. That out of all these options, your unwavering heart is only for them. Mitski’s My love mine all mine is coming through. The moment they realise this, they’re going to lock you down AND love you down. (For some of you, I just heard that you make them feel like princess charming)

This person is a completely different person with others. More firm and even ruthless tbh. They’re sort of a down bad puppy only with you. (Eye contact could be something very important for them and something they’ll insist on during sex. “Eyes on me,” could be something they say. They’ll need that feeling of connection looking into your eyes gives for them to finish.) You’ll sort of be oblivious to this side of them in the beginning. You’ll only realise it when the switch-up happens right in front of you. This is probably when someone else is trying to hit on you.

That’s all for the reading!! I hope you enjoyed it Pile 3s!! I have 22% off on all my readings until July in case you want to get a one-on-one reading with me xx

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pile 1 ˚. ✦.˳·˖✶ ⋆.✧̣̇˚.

(judgement, ace of pentacles, queen of pentacles, page of pentacles, page of wands)

there's just something intimidating about you pile one (you may or may not have a resting b-face) but there's also something about you that makes people want to impress you. whatever way you express your dissatisfaction- whether it's the way you curl your lips in distaste or scrunch your eyebrows- it sets people on edge. it makes them nervous but also very eager to please you.

you could come from a well to do family, like a long line or surgeons, etc. (if not, that's the vibes you give) or even if it's not wealth, it feels like you come from a very reputed family.

but regardless of your family, you have built have a very good reputation for yourself amongst your peers. your work ethic is also very good- you put your head down and get to work, and even that makes people's hearts flutter sometimes. you elicit awe and admiration quite easily.

capable. that's the energy i'm getting from this pile. someone capable who wants to work hard, who wants money, who wants status, who wants recognition. majority of the people from this pile are the go-getters, the type to want to work in student body councils or win a lot of trophies (i'm getting more academic/corporate achievement than sporty though).

there's also another section of people who picked this pile who wouldn't necessarily call themselves hard-working, they'd prefer to call themselves lazy even but regardless of how you label yourself, you just breeze through your work anyway. in the eyes of others, it looks effortless. the people around you take one look at you and just know you're going to achieve great things with your career

regardless of all this admiration, i don't think you're friends with many people. there may only be a few in your inner circle. there's something about other people wanting to be a part of your personal life so bad. i'm seeing this image someone who randomly posts a Instagram story of them surfing and the people viewing it are so shocked ("pile two surfs? i never knew that about them. that's so cool!") they're intrigued by you and want to know you better but you don't let people that close easily. you might just have really strict work-life boundaries and are very particular about who in your life gets to see how much about you.

and because of who you are, what you've accomplished and how you carry yourself, your approval means something to the people around you, especially if it's something you don't dole out to just anyone.

your approval; that's what gets their heart fluttering-- a nod from you when they show you what they've done, a pat on the back, a smile on your lips as you give praise, even if it's off-handed, it gives them something to feel good about for the rest of the day.

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pile 2 ˚. ✦.˳·˖✶ ⋆.✧̣̇˚.

(chariot, 8 of pentacles , ace of cups, seven of swords, ten of pentacles) (oh my god 😭 who are you peopleeee. i would not be surprised if multiple people were crushing on this pile.)

pile 2, you're popular and you definitely know it to some extent too. this pile is a bit similar to pile 1 in some ways but still vastly different you could have lot of admirers and people who want to get close to you and i do see you engaging with these people, because you do enjoy the attention (nothing wrong with that), but i also get the feeling you're very controlling and picky over your image and how you come off to people. even while trying to channel the messages for this pile, the energy feels a bit reserved and doesn't want to give me too much.

there's one particular thing you could be known for, some sort of craft you've worked hard at or you're really talented at. this could be something like dance or music but that's where most of your popularity comes from. you have a good network of friends and people who you can pass time with.

i'm ngl, lowkey getting some player energy from this pile but not necessarily in the bad way. it's just some of you are aware of effect you have, and you have fun teasing people, toying with them, making them blush. oh, pile 2 you like making people's hearts flutter, you do it on purpose. you like knowing that you have the power to make people flustered.

what makes people's heart flutter is the rush they get when your eyes meet, the flirtatious lilt in your voice, maybe a smirk on your lips as you tease them in a very nonchalant manner, when you say something and playfully tell them that it's a secret only the two of you will know, when you make them feel like they are the sole focus of your attention. heart are fluttering left and right because of you.

i don't know if this pile will resonate with a lot of people or if the things mentioned here are too specific, but bottom line is that there's a very flirtatious and seductive vibe to your energy. you guys might be bored the majority of the time but man, when you're interested in someone, you tease and play with them until you get a reaction. even if you're not like this currently, you have great potential at charming people my pile twos.

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pile 3 ˚ . ✦.˳·˖✶ ⋆.✧̣̇˚.

( 6 of cups, the empress, nine of pentacles, eight of pentacles, temperance rev)

pile 3, are you really uncomfortable with being perceived by any chance? i had the most difficult time channeling the energy of the people who chose this pile out of all three piles. i think you keep to yourself for most of the time but there's also this adorable energy around you, like that of a cat that just puts its head down and sleeps whenever it gets the chance to.

you could not like attention and maybe most of your days, you put your head down and focus on getting through. that's not to say you have a sad life. maybe you're not where you want to be yet, but you do have hobbies, things you enjoy and to pass the time with.

there's something casually cool about you. i cannot say what it is exactly since it's different for each of the people who pick this pile, but something about the way someone gets their drink from the vending machine? for someone, it's the way they hop over a gate. you have these tiny particular habits and methods of doing things that catch some people's attention without even knowing it.

i think it's your affection that makes people's hearts flutter.

this is giving me the energy of that one type of male lead/character (i'm just talking about the vibe, this could apply to you regardless of your gender) in anime that slacks off all the time but will randomly say something observant or serious that will have your heart skipping a beat. it's very endearing, i feel like you're very laid-back but still very straightforward and blunt with your affection. you'll say something simple but it'll be so earnest and the most romantic thing ever in the moment; it would exactly the thing the other person would happen to need to hear.

and it's not even intentional for most of you, it just comes naturally.

AHHH pile 3s, i get the feeling most of you don't think very highly about your work or aren't very comfortable with yourself but you should know that you're inherently a very chill and cool person. you aren't nearly as embarrassing as you think you are. be proud of your existence please!! and take up more space!!!

what makes people's hearts flutter around you aren't big gestures or big speeches, but it's just simply you in the rawest form possible. maybe it's you holding a cold soda can to someone's cheek and murmuring something that was just on your mind; a silly joke, a comment about a look on their face. it's your nonchalant affection that arrives so silently yet reassuringly steady every time. it's the way you unknowingly make the weight of the world lighter for others, even if just for a second.

this pile gives me maomao vibes? i haven't seen ad yet, just clips and edits but the way she just puts her head down and dgaf about anything except posion/her own thing and she's just inherently endearing and people adore her??? that's your vibe pile 3!!! also this is the second time anime has been referenced, so maybe that's a sign for some of yall

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pile 1 ✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧

(TW: mentions of bullying, please exercise your own discretion.) seven of wands, queen of swords rev, nine of swords

oh pile one, when love finds you, you'll hiss at its hand the way a stray cat does when someone finally shows it some kindness after experiencing years of living alone on the streets.

people have been cruel to you by way of words and there are still cuts on your soul from that. i'm hearing death by a thousand cuts by taylor swift in my head, more specifically the line 'papercut stings from my paper thin plans.' maybe you made plans with loved ones (friends, family, lovers), went out of your way to do nice things for them and truly treasured them, but then had the gut-wrenching realization that it was not mutual. they could have mocked you for being so sensitive and taking things too seriously. ("oh that? don't tell me you actually thought i was being serious?"). some of you may have been victims of bullying in the past.

so when true, unconditional and kind love finds you, you will not be able to stomach it.

there's a deep level of mistrust and anxiety towards words of sweetness coming from anyone. but when love finds you again, you want do still want its words to be honeyed but true; not a coating of sugar covering rancid intentions.

you could still be beating yourself up for being swayed by other people's words and charms very easily in the past. please stop that. you cannot bully yourself into being better and being stronger. you live and you learn. you cannot be cruel to yourself for falling prey people who were actively trying to mislead you/ cause harm.

when love finds you again, you want its words, true and honest, to wrap you up and hold you in its warmth. to not need to worry about whether it's a ploy to get your trust only to break it again. you want a love so kind that it erases the pain from your past.

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pile 2 ✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧

five of pentacles, seven of wands, knight of pentacles

someone dear to you could have betrayed your trust when it comes to money/finances/assets. for some of you, you do not even wish to acknowledge it or talk about it. 'it happened, i lived. it was miserable but i lived, and i'll never let that happen to me again.' is the type of energy i get from this pile. you could think that there's no point crying over spilled milk.

but that betrayal cut deep. so when love finds you again, you want someone who'll stand right by your side, especially if you go through a tough period like that again (some of you could have even been homeless for a while.)

the people who chose this pile do not necessarily want a flashy kind of love, with dates at the trendiest of places or elaborate gifts/ trips every month. you really want is someone to rely on, a shoulder to lean and cry on and someone who doesn't stab you in the back.

the type of scenario i'm seeing is someone having a breakdown in their dining room trying to balance their checkbook, but your person comes without you even calling for them, squeezes your shoulder, sits down next to you and starts helping you with it.

i feel like there's an emphasis on helping you with it rather than just doing it for you. you could be a very independent person, or maybe you just don't trust someone else to handle things for you again. you want a partner in the literal sense of the word.

(some of you could be thinking 'even if it's someone who doesn't contribute to helping me get back to a good place, i just want someone who won't make it worse. otherwise, i might as well just be alone, right?' and i just want to tell you that please hope for more. you deserve to be loved and taken care of. someone not harming you is just the barest of bare minimum. expect more from your loved ones)

what you really what is someone who'll tell you to hold your head high, put their reassuring hand to your back and guide you. they'll do the scut work with you, they'll make it easier for you to go through the murky waters and not complain about it.

i have a feeling that if someone like that were to actually appear, you would just stare at them for a few moments-- shocked and emotional, but grateful that you get to experience a love like this.

when love finds you again, you wish for it to be steady and unwavering, to hold your hand tight and not let go even once even as it knows that difficult times are ahead. to silently hold an umbrella over your head as it begins raining. to be as comforting as hot cocoa on a cold day. to stay. you want love to be loyal, kind and to stay.

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pile 3 ✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧

(TW: mentions of sexual content. please exercise your own discretion.) ten of cups, page of swords, ten of swords

you want to find the love you've been dreaming of, to get your happy ending, to find the one. you're sick of meeting people who aren't your forever person.

you, out of all three piles, dream of domestic bliss the most. a happy home, a happy family with pets and/or kids. but with the way things have been going, you've become mentally resistant to this dream after so many failed tries and ,if you're aware of it, you hate that. because you never wants to be the type of person who doesn't like love or runs away from love, not after you've spent so long yearning for it.

this could be the pile that daydreams about a soft and romantic love.

the type of love where you're in the kitchen, baking something, and your partner comes behind you, wraps their arms around your waist and kisses your neck as they mutter something that makes your heart skip a beat.

you want someone who won't shut down your ideas, and wants to do fun (and tbh chaotic) stuff with you. you want to go on adventures with this person. (like the way the old couple from Up did when they were young.)

and also really good sex where by the end of it, you're exhausted and completely sated; after which, you lie in your lover's embrace, mindlessly drawing patterns on their skin (they could also do the same for you) with some pillowtalk.

you could also really want to travel to other places with this person and make a lot of memories.

when love finds you again, you wish for it to be in the form of a person in whom you see home. a home for your love, for your joy and smiles. a home that will accept all of it, nurture it and multiply it tenfold. whether it be now, a year later or even decades down the line, you wish to be held in its loving embrace. one could even say you wish to be held by it throughout the ages. you want a love that will transmute the bad days into something easier; a love that will stay forever soft and young as you and your lover grow old and develop wrinkles on your faces (from laughing and having so much joy in your lives.)

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✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄ pile 1 ⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧

seven of swords, nine of cups, five of cups

for my pile 1s, this is someone who's a bit cocky and mischievous. if this is someone at work, this is someone who either comes from a cushy background and can afford to fool around/not take their job very seriously. same if it's at some place of study, they might slack around a lot but when it comes to grades they somehow manage to pull through. they could be really annoying to work with in group settings though 😭 i think they're really good at weaseling out of work and they talk in such a way that people who are polite/have a hard time enforcing their boundaries just go along with it. i do not think they're inherently a bad person, they just don't want to work very hard on something they don't deem worthy of all that energy.

this could be someone who's very accomplished in one area though. suppose this is at college, maybe their academics are okay but they excel at sports, have trophies etc. this is someone with a decent amount of clout and arrogance too.

but pile one, I do not feel like you've noticed them checking you out or care about it. you may have been going through a rough time in life and could be all over the place. your focus could just be on getting through the day, getting your tasks done so that you can spend time with the people / spend time on what you actually care about. (a bit similar to your person's energy in the sense you want to spend most of your energy on what you care about but i don't think you're as much of a slacker as them.)

why do they find you attractive? / what caught their interest?

eight of wands, death and the fool

this person gives me a bit of a player energy?? not completely, but like i said there's a certain cockiness and they're used to people they find attractive finding them attractive too. so they could just be on a streak of bagging whoever they want and looking for a new person. so your looks could definitely be their type but also your status. you seem 'cool enough' for them. there could be some field or area where you shine in and they're very attracted to that successful energy. they could have also seen you go through a rebirth, maybe you weren't always this good at what you do or maybe they just never paid proper attention. but they're very impressed with you—they could have seen you deal with a hard and stressful situation and give it your all; and even though you were exhausted, you could have still been satisfied with the work done. this hardworking attitude could be very intriguing to them since they're not that lol.

they're looking for a new romantic experience/ fling and they could be interested in pursuing you. they could also think you're inexperienced or a bit naive when it comes to romantic relationships and could think you'll be easy to woo/ easily impressed. you could have a very innocent energy about you (doe-like beauty, etc.)

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✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄ pile 2 ⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧

five of swords, queen of swords, nine of wands, four of wands

this person could be on the debate team or something like that, student council maybe. (it also gives dr. zayne vibes from love and deepspace??) when it comes to their position/duties, they're very confident in discharging them and they could have a bit of a reputation for both being good at it and being a bit cold. they're very good with their words and giving orders. they aren't the type to abuse their authority.

but when it comes to personal matters, it's the opposite. they are very reserved and shy. they aren't insecure per say but they keep to themselves and the people they know already. their way of meeting new people is because of their position/their job. i feel like other people always make an effort to get to know this person so your person is a bit clueless/ awkward when it comes to approaching someone themselves.

they'll need a friend to give them a push, otherwise i don't really see them making a move or saying anything. i think they're a bit anxious in general but most people would be very surprised to know that about them. it feels like this person does public speaking a lot or is in charge of talking to a lot of people, but they always get very anxious right before doing it. they could have a close friend or someone who knows them well who is always giving them a pep talk right before they go onto the stage. but the moment they're on the stage, they become a different person and it looks so effortless to the people observing.

why do they find you attractive? / what caught their interest?

the fool, king of cups, the hanged man, the chariot

you're accomplished in your own right, pile two. you could have actually worked with this person once or twice. for some reason, stagework is popping into my head. compared to them, you're very calm, optimistic and bubbly and they find that refreshing. even if you don't think of yourself like that, that's how they perceive you and they want to be around that energy more. they also think you're very in control of your emotions and emotionally intelligent.

there has been some sort of incident, either something where they were involved, a conversation that they overheard or they heard about later where you brought a brand new perspective to some problem they would have never thought of. this is really cute, pile 2. this person is attracted to you because of your capabilites, your mind and how you interact with other people since they find it very admirable. they may be in awe of how effortlessly it comes to you (which is ironic since most people would think it comes effortlessly to this person as well). there's a lot of admiration for your skillset too.

you could be the type to get snacks or drinks for everyone in the group after a intense session of working/studying and offer them words of motivation.

your person definitely has a little crush on you 🤭

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✧⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄ pile 3 ⋄⋆⋅⋆⋄✧

six of wands, the chariot, eight of pentacles

this is someone who is in a position of authority over you, or even if it's a peer, it's someone who is highly regarded/well accomplished and has a lot of respect. i do not think you know this person very well but you could have heard of them. you might have heard other people discussing about them and off-handedly made a comment but that's about all the interaction you've had with them. from your point of view, this is someone you don't know much about outside of the place you see each other at. this is someone who keeps their head down and just focuses on their work. or maybe you guys just don't run in the same circles. they could have joined the workplace/ place of study in the middle but managed to keep up with the workload quite easily. could be the boss's favoured protegee or right-hand person. someone who receives a lot of work from authority figures.

why do they find you attractive? / what caught their interest?

hermit, seven of swords, the emperor

you remind this person of their past self or some aspect of themselves they're not in touch with anymore. this person could fantasize about being dominated by you lol. they could also see in you some sort of sadness or pain that they also carry and feel that you are a kindred spirit.

i think the first time this person started being attracted to you was when they were having a grey day, possibly eating lunch, and then they just noticed you being mischievous—playing a prank on your friend or pulling their leg and you made them crack a smile.

since then they've been keeping an eye on you and they've increasingly found you attractive. but there's also a duality to you that they find insanely hot. you could have a different 'work' persona that's all serious or you're withdrawn with people who aren't your friends, and that makes them want to crack your shell and have you reveal your true self to them.

they definitely daydream about you.

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pile 1 ☆。*。☆。

queen on wands, three of swords, five of pentacles rev, the fool, ten of wands, temperance, hermit rev, eight of pentacles, seven of cups

i'm really getting eldest daughter energy from this pile, or even if you don't have any siblings i feel like you've had to bear a lot of responsibility for managing the moods and emotions of other people (likely to be friends of family members.) your next glow-up is all about emancipation. it must have been hard for you pile 1s. i think you've been carrying this burden for so long that it doesn't even make you angry or sad on most days. you just feel numb. keyword being most days. i think you might have breakdowns once it all gets too much.

i'm going to be honest here, the glow up here is most likely kickstarted by another meltdown. you know one of those meltdowns where you're just laughing because you're just so fucking done? i think you're going to be pushed so far that you'll just snap and reach a level of apathy for the people who've been dragging you down. this could be toxic parents or a friend circle whose environment has been always toxic but it was initially a relationship borne out of love which is why you've held onto it for so long, just like you held onto the now few and far in between good memories to remind yourself why it was worth fighting for.

i see some of you laughing maniacally, scoffing and then just leaving the situation or the the people to deal with each other. you're leaving to nurture yourself pile 1. the unhinged energy is so strong here. i feel like you'd make fire jokes about your situation while talking about it to your friends (or at least you feel like they're funny but your friends are just seriously concerned.)

there is going to be heartbreak over the fact that these people won't change. it's not the first time you've realized this pile one. this is something you've had to realize a million little times along the way until it finally hits and stays. but it is this hurt that propels you to change things. you cannot bear to stay in this murky situation anymore. you don't like how in its worst moments it has pushed you to do things and say things that you would never otherwise do. perhaps you've snapped at unrelated people who were only looking out for you.

the point here is that you've had enough. some of you might want revenge too because your heart is so full of spite. i think you very abruptly ghost these people who were in a way leeching off you. you're rethinking your beliefs and dreams. i'm seeing an image of a person pulling out a very old metal box and opening it on their bedroom floor. and it's full of posters, or pictures and things they used to want. you're unburying your dreams pile one.

i think for a lot of you, your glow up is going to come from reprogramming your limited beliefs about life and particularly money. you're going to force yourself out of isolation and stop waiting for things to be perfect. you're going to start doing the work you need to do to get perfect while still being imperfect and that's honestly so huge for you. it's going to be hard at first, but the wins will add up over time. soon, you can see all the wonderful possibilities for your life within your reach and know that you're capable of making it happen for yourself. and in the beginning, even if it's mostly of spite over courage, you're going to walk towards your dreams with wobbly footsteps, gritted teeth and the glare of a harsh sun on your skin. some of you are going to throw yourself into your career to avoid thinking about your pain. and while this is unhealthy in the long run, for now it works and will build a future where you can breathe in peace.

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pile 2 ☆。*。☆。

two of pentacles, five of swords, eight of cups, ten of pentacles, hierophant, magician

for some of you, your glow-up is leaving your deadbeat husband/partner 💀 you guys could have been the sole breadwinner when you didn't want to be but your partner refused to help you out. but even if it isn't a relationship, your glow-up starts after you leave something. this could be a job at some company that you really don't like but on some days it's more bearable so you hesitate to leave. (disclaimer: you know your situation the best, please think everything through and do not make decisions rashly just because of a tarot reading on the internet. do what's best for you.)

that being said, i feel like most of you aren't confident in your ability to make the best decision for yourself. you guys could be the type to ask for signs but then when the signs appear you could still be unsure and ask for more signs. ("wait, i asked to for a green x to appear, but instead it was blue. so it doesn't count. let me ask again.") you need to be okay with making the wrong decision and end up losing out on something as a consequence of that decision. ironically, that's what will lead you to making the right decisions for yourself.

i need you to realize that just because you're staying in a place of inaction and postponing your decision does not mean you're not making one. you're still making a choice to change nothing. one by one, so many little "inconveniences" creeped into your life, which is honestly a really roundabout way of saying people could be pushing their responsibilities onto you and ignoring your boundaries. and you could really hate yourself for letting it happen and consider yourself a pushover. maybe you even speak in a very roundabout and polite way everyday just to avoid conflict and it's getting so exhausting.

i'm seeing one final cruel act, one final unkind sentence, one final mocking smile which ends up being the straw that breaks the camel's back. i honestly think something that seems so unfair in the moment might happen to you. eg: you get fired from your job or you find out your partner has been cheating on you and it forces you to leave. and i'm so sorry if that happens pile 2 but it will turn out to be for the better. (i know, i know. it's so easy for me to say that but don't shoot the messenger here please.) because if that hadn't happened, you would have been stuck in that situation for likely a much longer time.

the vibe of this pile is honestly reminding me of those movies where the main character in a big city loses their soul-sucking corporate job, goes back to their hometown, hates it initially/is ashamed of "failing" but rediscovers what truly matters. i'm not saying that is literally what's going to happen but that's just the vibe i'm geting. i'm also hearing bad bunny's dtmf in my head.

(Debí tirar más fotos de cuando te tuve

Debí darte más beso' y abrazo' las vece' que pude.)

(I should have taken more photos of when I had you.

I should've given you more kisses and hugs whenever I could.)

i think what all this is leading upto is the rediscovery of joy of community and family, how burdens are easier to carry when someone's making you laugh about the tiniest things even when everything seems bleak, about how when you can't even get out of bed there's someone who will cook you lunch and nurse you to better health. there has been love waiting outside your window all this time while you've been searching for it inside of a desolate mansion. it may not be perfect and it may be louder than you'd like it to be sometimes, but it would fight and die for you, even if you've forgotten about it. you are loved and wanted. and somewhere, at some point, there's going to be love that's been waiting for you to run back into its arms and has never stopped loving you.

some of you could not have the smoothest experience with these people, for example if it's family, their love could have come with a bunch of rules you needed to follow. you felt like you were never allowed to be your true self, and even then, you could have doubted whether you could be loved and accepted for it. you could have dreamt of wings and flying far away from this place and maybe that's why returning here would be so soul-crushing. i do not mean to invalidate your feelings or experiences, so if this doesn't apply to you ignore it, but this could really be an eye-opening experience where you're met with more warmth and understanding than you'd expect. inconvenience is often the price of community but i think being surrounded by this community is what you need to deal with the grief of losing a version of yourself.

p.s: to leave or to have something not work out is not a sign of a personal failing. you aren't meant to stay forever in every room you walk into.

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pile 3 ☆。*。☆。

four of wands, four of swords rev, king of pentacles, king of swords, high priestess, the chariot, the devil, ace of pentacles

omgg, love is in the air for this pile. what's going to kickstart a glow up for yall is reaching the next phase of your relationship with your person of interest. so finally becoming each other's boyfriend/girlfriend/ partner or maybe even getting a proposal. the latter is less likely though and is because i also smell a love triangle in the air.

this is the only pile where i used a second deck to pull clarifying cards and used a deck i associate romance with and the energy here is so fun.

i'm going to be real with you pile 3s, some of you have been burned in matters of love before and i think you've already had a bit of a glow-up or at least gone through some healing. and i see at least two people flocking towards you and trying to get your interest. i do not think you'll be in a hurry to commit- you'll enjoy what they each have to offer (and im not saying you're cheating on anybody, this is just like going on dates while you're still single). and while on the outside you look so confident and so charming, on the inside there's still anxiety and insecurity. there could also be issues with trust- you could worry that while these potential partners are fun to be with, they might be turned off by what your true self is and lose interest. because of that you'll try to avoid opening up and even try stonewalling a bit but this just backfires because now they want to get to know you even more.

you could be very insistent on being financially independent( as you should be!! proud of you <3) and taking care of yourself. but one of your suitors could genuinely enjoy spoiling you and isn't stingy with their resources. now while this isn't going to make you dependent on them all of a sudden, this does heal something in you/makes you realize you were worthy of being cared for in this way all along.

even before actually getting into relationship, you're going to be having so much fun here man. i'm seeing some really good, simulating and enriching conversations. you're going to enjoy yourself so much pile 3. you'll feel so good in your body and identity, and it feels good to be desired.

gonna be honest, there's some fun sex here on the cards too so please use protection if you don't want any unwanted surprises lol.

whatever's happening in your love life is really energizing you and motivating you to take the next step in something, say starting your own business for example. if something does come out of your time with these suitors, you'll be grateful for it but even if it doesn't, you'll be fine. you've become so confident in your sense of self that not much can shake it. you enjoy your own company and being left to soak in it is a treat, not a punishment. after enjoying and resting for a while, you'll feel ready to move onto enriching your life on a even more deeper level. but most likely, you'll be doing this with a loving partner by your side who'll want nothing more than to build a life where the two of you will be happy and content. and this will be something you can draw strength from when life gets challenging.

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