#bruha

Counting seeds, making starts.

Ok so I never post. But I've reached the full point of fed up with several things regarding faith. I honestly don't care about who I lose but I implore you to at least listen.

First some sad background. I am Mexican American. My father is Mexican my mother is a whole lots white ( Germans who lost their name, Irish who starved under the British, Scottish, French and Dutch). My mother was a missionary and I was a bastard born out of an even further bastardizeation of Christianity (look up The Family or The Children of God). Once my mother moved back from Mexico with me her conditioning from being raised in the deep south kicked in. She hated what I was. I wasn't allowed out in the sun because I could tan, I wasn't allowed to roll my Rs or learn Spanish to the point where I was beaten if I even babbled. It's taken so many years of my life to recover from that trauma and find who I am. I will never not be proud of my haritage or how far I've come in learning about ALL the cultures that brought me here today.

Now, coming from that I'm going to say that I am sick of the policing that has come to be a weird staple in the veneration of my Mother, Santa Muerte. When I was a drug addict in my twenties I found her and she guided me through. When I lost my adoptive father and then MANY friends to drugs she helped me bare it when I had no one. She has called to me through my three suicide attempts and ODs. She called to me just as Loki has called to me since I was a child.

I mention Loki because They and She represent two side of my family. My Latino and European family and tradition. I will be damn before I let anyone tell me who or what I can pray to, or let anyone else be told for that matter BECAUSE IT'S NOT YOUR CALL. You all have become so caught up in some fight for justice that you don't stop to appraise your own actions. If my white friends come to me and ask to learn about Her I WILL teach them, just I would ANYONE ELSE. Because at the end of the day people... we're all just humans trying to get by praying and honoring invisible sky people we can't prove exist other than our own personal experience. If it offers peace to another damn right I'll teach you and you can pray to whatever you want.

Point is: STOP POLICING. IT MAKES YOU NO BETTER THAN THE BIGGOTS WHO DICTATED WHO AND HOW TO WORSHIP FOR DECADES.

Not to mention it only leads to further loss of tradition and knowledge. Most was assimilated, or lost because you couldn't write it down.

You think what you practice is "real" polytheism to begin with? My peeps... there's a whole lot less human sacrifice nowadays. Not to mention a whole lot more science. We don't sacrifice babies to fix the weather.