#malkavian

Sephira Hawthorne

Clan: Malkavian

Gen: 11th

Age when embraced: 22

Big 3: Virgo Sun, Scorpio Moon, Libra Rising.

Personality: SMILER, YAY!girl, Ms. Yippee!, upbeat, positive, LOVERGURLLL, down for whatever, nonchanlant until someone else’s emotions influence her to snap ei: if there’s a lot of anger in the room she starts feeling it crazy style and it overwhelms her, goes with the flow but like just said if that flow is angry or sad or whatever she’s with it despite if it’s bad for her or not, feeler before thinker, intuition masked as confidence and thoughtful, PERFECTIONIST, wants to be divinely and righteously accomplished and driven aka wants to be a leader not a follower despite her disposition, wants to be anyone but herself especially those who inspire or evoke a sense of order.

How her clans bane manifests: #1 dissociater, worlds most honest liar, pretends to be ventrue is not ventrue, OBSESSIVE, overthinker award of the year, loves a cheeky little blood bond and drinking from people she wants to be, does she love you or just want to wear your skin, hardly knows her own self aka is the worlds mirror to others whether they like that or not. OCD. Not a huge fan of the malk web/prophecy thing but occasionally something bleeds through she usually does take much stock in it though just like oh huh that’s crazy well on with me life :) !

Looks: extreme baby face, soft brown shoulder length hair, big soft brown doe eyes but then you look a little deeper and you’re oof something WRONG with that girl, lowkey pretty privilege because she’s crazy and it’s so obvious when you actually think about but most people pass her over as naive/innocent/cute, #1 cutie pie, big huge signature award winning cheesy gummy grin that’s like endearing because it’s so her but also it’s almost painfully big and gummy like wow her happiness just blasts out her face and she couldn’t even hide it even if she tried, charming until it’s not, mole on right cheek.

Clothes/Style: business/business casual, masculine leaning but she makes it cute rather than intimidating, black pinstripe slacks, white dress shirt, matching vest, boot and kitten heel lover, keeps her nails nice, would almost be office siren but she’s not trying to seduce anyone just like that early 2000s women’s cubicle work place look.

Backstory before embrace that matters: high achiever in school, lots of expectations on her from family, was walking into a life she didn’t want to live, extremely unhappy but wouldn’t share this with a soul, dreamer a bit ditzy/naive when it came to things that weren’t school work, was turned by a malkavian who went to her college night classes who became obsessed with her, met her sire in her one just for her performance art class, going to college for law., sire lovebombs her, CONVINCES HER THEYRE LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT SOUL MATES, makes her feel so seen and loved and she’s never had anyone do this before so she lover girl falls head over heels, gets turned, gets ABANDONED, sire/daddy issues, always looking for someone to fill that void like desperately especially in an organized manner that brings her crazy chaotic life into order which is why she’s high attracted to clans such as Ventrue or banu haqim.

Hobbies: can’t be without her headphones, music lover, dancer, loves to get fucked up in the clurb, lowkey party girl in her off time, loves sensory stimulation, sometimes likes to overload her senses to find a place that drowns out her crazy malk web thoughts, loves to eat human food and throw it up for the thrill, loves to spy/collect useless information, journals, like, a lot, like crazy fucking nonesensical line after line that helps her get her crazy out of her so she can maintain her quite/stoic/fake Ventrue act.

Haven: small apartment, organized horder, collector of things that are stimulating to her mind, piles on piles of journals that she lowkey needs to destroy but also they probably wouldn’t make much sense anyways to anyone else, obsessively goes through her house often and stacks and restacks and relooks and regoes and makes sure everything is in its perfect place even though she has too much. Bitch you live like this?

At the end of the day, she is just as much evil as any vampire no matter how much she doesn’t seem it or doesn’t believe it in herself or likes to pretend she isn’t. It’s devasting to her when the beast comes out. Guilt/Shame cycle on repeat until she can get out of her head about it, but also if someone else has suggested the evil thing and she feels like really attached to them she would do it without question or hesitation because she’s so damn devoted to those in her inner circle, it’s like she could never think a person she looks up to could be evil she has the craziest level of rose colored glasses which kind of leaves her open for manipulation. Needs to grow some self care like girl put yourself first for once.

Loves to use auspex just to see the world in such a view it’s a sensory treat. Loves to obfuscate and disappear just when you need her. Potentially has drank from a Ventrue and learned some of their powers/makes her powers seem like she’s using their powers. Uses dominate like a Ventrue, uses dominate/dementation to fool people into seeing her as she wants them to. Big pretender!! Fake girl fake life. Most least open person alive yet seems like an over-sharer and open book because of how they’re honest on some occasions to a fault but only when it suits her. Lie by omitting lover.

How the world sees her: wow what an abandonable girl, she’s so throw away able vs Jesus Christ what is wrong with you vs Girl stand up.

Sephira in ‘love’ (obsessive infatuation): sadomasochistic, mutual self destruction, perpetuates the cycle of abuse her sire does to her, doesn’t know how to be herself or love must become YOU. Wants to wear your skin ;).

Or

Tender flesh.