#breathingtechniques

i stare at a song unwritten and

try to force myself to

feel what is

required

of me for the

art i wish to make but

my insides tense and remain un-

-yielding.

letting my guard down is something i have forgotten to remember how to do.

panic attacks and guitars in my

ears while i pour the

bourbon and it

burns

on the way down

for reasons unrelated

to the alcohol in my throat. i

ache.

of all the places to be a girl, it had to be in a boy.

i picture myself round and

soft with curves

and features

alien

to me while

trying not to look

down at my squareness and

angles.

try as i might, i always picture myself with wings. i feel them like i feel my breasts—there beside me, there in another world.

i dream of wax and wings and

salty spray and

unbridled

joy

and terror

and inevitable

loss and human gods who are

fallible.

if i fly and fall, will i wake up in heaven? will my wings still be there?

oh father, i can feel the

water falling

over my

head.

one day,

i am gonna

grow wings. a chemical

reaction.

oh, hi!

Meditation, in general, is really easy!

You have to lay down in a comfortable position, or if you want, you can sit on the ground or in a yoga position that you like.You can put some music on, light up some candles, and set up a mood for you to relax in.

Concentrate on your breathing; I usually do 4 seconds in, 4 seconds out, and repeat.

After a while, you will enter a relaxing state, and your mind will automatically shift to think and visualize other things. In a deep state of meditation, you can feel your body go numb in a good way.