#bpd dating

my guy, you think me trying to meet god early over an ex is bad, your opinion of me would absolutely deteriorate once you find out he left due to my hypersexuality and sh addiction. this is our first day talking to each other and you somehow managed to get me talking about my deepest darkest secrets, at least buy me a meal first.

So we did our favorite thing and went to the zoo:

one of my ideas is for demon!rengoku to watch akaza choose koyuki over him and willingly losing even though it was rengoku who got him to process his emotions rather than just channeling them into fighting. the vibe is less celebratory like brick by brick by say now and more grief like touchy subject by peach prc.

was this idea motivated by me watching 2 out of my 3 exes move on and get into new relationships which resulted in a very long bpd episode i'm still in? absolutely

I told him I still have a crush on him

He said we dont have couple compatibility because he makes me pissed off often.

He said he saw himself getting mean in his head whenever I asked for reassurance so he stopped the relationship. He said it was on him. He said hes too harsh for my sensitivity. He needs someone who stimulates his brain and doesnt do small talk.

Nighttime makes it worse. Being alone makes it worse. Talking to them makes it worse. Not talking to them makes it worse.

Thinking about them again and my heart feels like a black hole now when it used to feel like the hottest star.