#bpd relationship

my guy, you think me trying to meet god early over an ex is bad, your opinion of me would absolutely deteriorate once you find out he left due to my hypersexuality and sh addiction. this is our first day talking to each other and you somehow managed to get me talking about my deepest darkest secrets, at least buy me a meal first.

one of my ideas is for demon!rengoku to watch akaza choose koyuki over him and willingly losing even though it was rengoku who got him to process his emotions rather than just channeling them into fighting. the vibe is less celebratory like brick by brick by say now and more grief like touchy subject by peach prc.

was this idea motivated by me watching 2 out of my 3 exes move on and get into new relationships which resulted in a very long bpd episode i'm still in? absolutely

A little over a week ago, I finally really once and for all, cut my super-toxic on again/off again BPD gf/ex gf out of my life.

And honestly that's one of the best gifts I could've given myself.

I offered her everything I knew to help her; support, love, my home (as a safe haven away from her abusive living situation), access to recources, assistance getting to those resources, etc.

And she just... yeah

You can't help anybody who doesn't want to help themselves.

I did everything I know to do.

And even sent her information about said resources again, for the like 5th time.

So... I have a clear conscious. If nothing else.

I did really care about her (I do). And wanted us to be together (we both did, supposedly). In some romanticized, idealized reality (we both spun) that I finally realized could never actually exist.

Until she gets better.

And I do hope she gets better. For herself.

But... she's not my problem anymore.