#audhd vent

People often talk about pain of golden child syndrome but not the pain of the “challenging” one. The “lazy” one. The one who’s so useless no one ever thinks they’re trying their best. The stupid one. The one hated by their sibling for having a basket so unreliable all their parents’ eggs had to go to “the better one”. The difficult one. The mentally ill one. The one who wishes they could be in the golden child’s shoes for one day just to know how it feels to sit down and successfully complete a piece of homework without wanting to die.

haha ok!!

really funny family!!!!

I am SO MAD, so GENUINELY upset that Netflix didn't continue Lockwood & Co. SO UPSET

I started rewatching it (have read the entire series 5+ times at this point), and they put SO MUCH TIME into it. The set? Amazing. So many details NAILED, most of the dialogue is straight from the book, the office having the spiral metal staircase and being attached to the kitchen, all the ghost wards and masks on the walls :(((

Autistic “bottom-up thinking” refers to a cognitive style often associated with autism, where an individual processes information starting from the most basic sensory or raw details and building up to more complex understanding. This is contrasted with “top-down thinking,” which typically involves starting with a general idea or framework and filling in the details.

In bottom-up thinking, an autistic person may focus intensely on specific details or sensory input—such as sounds, textures, or individual components of a situation—before forming a broader understanding of the whole. This approach can be particularly helpful in tasks requiring precision or attention to detail, but it may also make it challenging to quickly grasp abstract concepts or apply prior knowledge to new situations without fully analyzing the smaller elements first.

For example, in social interactions, an autistic person might process specific facial expressions, tones of voice, and individual words before interpreting the overall emotional context of a conversation, rather than intuitively picking up on the general mood of the exchange from the start.

But then I see that a lot of people have friendships that last years, even decades sometimes.

I know the problem is me, I am able to see that. Why don't people like me? Am I weird? Am I annoying? Am I rude?

What's wrong with me? this is who I am. Should I change my own personality, maybe my mood?

Sometimes, I think friends are one of the hardest things in this world.

I know the problem might be me, maybe I should look at myself and see that it shouldn't matter if people like me, if I'm weird or annoying (well, the rude part should change, if it's true.)