My will to live is dwindling fellas

🫀8lur5otong’s intro🫀

This blog has no dni but I block freely. DMs and asks open!

⚠️CW⚠️:

This is a jiraiblr, yanblr and shedblr account

I reblog gore and SH art

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Read my stances before interacting with me. I might be in your dni.

if I ever say “goodbye. I’m gonna die here’s my reasons why and here’s what I’m gonna do” I give everyone full permission right now to spam my DMs and inbox with suicide helplines and beg me not to die. I know right now that don’t wanna be lost to depression. I know ill regret dying. Don’t let me die.

stances:

pro-

para, recovery, contradictory labels, xenogender, mogai

neu-

fiction/shipping (pro leaning), transid

anti-

bestiality, youth age gap, corpse desecration, forced recovery, harassment, censorship, psychiatry, xenosatanism, hypoharmful

My stances labels:

radinclus (post radinclus), fleur, no-act, madpunk, peacefic

🏳️: Do you like your paraphilia(s)'s flag(s)? What would you change about it?

Objectum- 6/10. The circle is good cuz u can put the objects u like inside. The colours are kinda ugly.

Necrophilia- design wise 10/10 but idk if it was made by a pro contact person. So I use the one on the right instead, the no act flag

Teratoromantic / teratosexual - 10/10. It’s just pretty

🎼: Do you associate any song(s) with your paraphilia(s)?

for my experience with being hyperromantic, necrophilic, yandere and mentally ill, any songs about not being I able to let go of someone, not after death, ever.

“I'll love you until you die You make me laugh 'til I cry Can you swear on all your life? That you'll be the exception, be the exception

The stars are all burning out You get me so high, I don't wanna come down Tell me you'll stick around That you'll be the exception, be the exception”

(climax by scene queen)

But I'll still love you even after we decay When our bodies start to wither And there's bugs inside our brains And I'll still want you when we'rе six feet in the ground When our bones arе cold and rotten Promise I'll still be around

(decay by nessa barett)

It’s kind of depressing how I’m immune to homophobia because I’ve pavlovd myself into a homophobia kink. I’ve called myself disgusting sinful and prayed for forgiveness for “succumbing to homosexual tendencies” so many times that now I’d bust on command if someone said “you’re disgusting for this, you know that? How are you enjoying this when you know god is watching? How much of a fucking faggot are you?” in bed.

Look at the bug that climbed on me today :33

YIPPEEEE

That was me btw I sent the bug. I asked it to tell you you’re cool and it traveled all the way from Singapore to France

for the questions, what inspired u to make a jiraiblr account?

for the ‘butterflies are symbols of dreams’, what was the last time you actually dreamed?

and for the statements, CUBISM!!! YOU ARE A WORK OF ART, FLAWS AND ALL!!!11!!1

Seeing people get flamed for romanticising or glorifying or normalising or whatever BS people come up with to hate on someone for existing as a mentally ill person.

Last night actually, I had a dream that I was creating a happy home paradise home for a rich lady in animal crossing who paid me to make the worst possible living environment for her husband and kids while she went to the club all day.

you too, Evan! Don’t let anyone bring you down because you’re incredibly based