#akuze

I don't know about usual tourist getup buuuuuut I couldn't resist

Yes that is a Thresher Maw hat.

you got away with a few scratches and a scary reputation.

Dr. Chambers: Commander, you may have a complex of some kind.

Guilt: what is your OC guilty about? How do they handle their guilt? Do they try to avoid guilt, or do they accept it?

Allie feels extremely guilty at how she behaved toward her Mom in the last years of her life. She was just a teenager, and her mom was very reserved, very demanding, and Allie was definitely deep into teenage rebellion. She was extremely shitty and resentful, the sort of stuff that would have absolutely worked itself out if the slaver raid had never happened. But even after all the therapy, all the processing she does after Mindoir, the hardest thing for her to get past by far is the fact that she believes her mother (who was really a great and loving parent) died feeling that her only child hated her. I don't think she ever does get past this guilt, actually. I think she accepts that it will always be with her.

Failure: what's your OC'a greatest failure? Have they been able to move past it? Does anyone else know about it?

So Akuze is funny because to my knowledge we never really hear the details of exactly WHY Shepard was the only survivor, and why that's not like... obviously not a positive, that her most notable accomplishment is a squad wipe lmao.

I have this headcanon about Akuze that the reason Shepard is the Sole Survivor is that she had good judgment, made the right calls, but no one listened to her.

It was her first command, over marines that didn't particularly respect her (I have a headcanon that her 2nd in command frequently undermined her, which bleeds into her early interactions with Kaidan)

She was young, with underdeveloped leadership skills, and this was supposed to be an extremely simple textbook mission. When the thresher maws showed up, it was total chaos and she wasn't able to get anyone to follow any orders (except Toombs, who was basically the only one who had tried to give her a chance).

So when Alliance HQ takes a look at the reports, they realize ok here's a phenomenal soldier, excellent judgment, incredible resilience, but poor leadership. How about we put her through N7 training, play to her strengths (shes an infiltrator) and she can develop leadership in smaller squads.

25#

Log 47,

Senior Operative Lawson

The amount of scar tissue on Shepard's back and arms is astounding. Nearly her entire upper back and shoulders are marred by wounds sustained on Akuze. Despite the abundance of burn scars however, it seems there were no attempts at skin grafts of clone tissue to replace them. I looked into her medical file and found the recommendation by her doctor for the treatment was refused multiple times. She intentionally left them there.

It‘s a long way getting over something like Akuze, and it‘s no one-way-street.