through all these years, through everything

I'm 37

Born in the US

I've been to 37/50 US states and 18 countries, and have lived on 3 continents

I'm very ADHD and have a billion hobbies and interests but especially love drawing and photography (and lately, writing)

I am an ICU nurse

I started playing Mass Effect in February 2011 and I'm still not remotely over it. I've played video games my entire life but this trilogy is the one that has a fucking perma chokehold on me.

I'm always open to asks and requests, anonymous or not!! (but I also reserve the right to politely decline)

my comics

my art

my fics

my shepard

my takes

my bullshit

my dark perverted asarification by @tempestrune 🖤😈🖤

Hello!! I'm not ignoring your question about why Kaidan I'm just consumed daily and nightly by my gift exchange fic!!!

Hmm in ME1 I think she's closest to Anderson of course, but if we're going with Normandy crew I'd say Ashley. I've said this before but she relates a lot to Ashley as a fellow sole survivor and mentors her

ME2 absolutely Miranda. Not at first, they definitely clash in the beginning. But basically the second they start actually getting to know each other they realize very quickly how incredibly similar they are in a lot of ways. And I think they both are really lonely and need a real friend. Miri is Allie's only non Alliance friend 🥺❤️ she's very special to Allie!!!

ME3 has to be James. Is anyone surprised? Those 6 months in lockdown I like to think Allie was tormenting him with malicious flirtation out of sheer boredom and insecurity, and he's just there like... ummmmm 🫪

Then they get on the ship and she's back in charge feeling good back to 1000% business mode, has zero patience for bullshit, he cracks a joke and she's like ok no more fun and games quit fucking around Lieutenant. and he's like what is HAPPENING right now??

(and aside from that they also just have a lovely close relationship and she's a mentor to him. That particular bit is just front of mind bc of what I'm writing lol)

Horizon scene rewrite from the blooper reel:

like. they literally could do that. biotic sex must be crazy fr

It feels so ME1 coded 🥺 first verse, Kaidan laying in his little bunk thinking of Shepard in their cabin 🥺

Is it naive to make plans

That seem so far away?

There's a reason I feel this way.

You're sleeping alone,

I'm awake.

When you dream of me tonight,

Am I close to where you are?

AND:

This could mean everything...

Or nothing at all.

You take what is real,

I'll give you my all.

And then there's this bit, for before Ilos:

I think, let's not wait.

Let's love right now,

Let's love right now .

And finally, foreshadowing the tragedy of their relationship:

Oh, here where we lie,

Outstretched, you wonder why we don't belong?

You deserve much more,

And I'll give until I'm all gone.

Forever know your face,

And ever take your place here by my side,

Like a ghost into the night.

The poisoned apple to my bite,

I'll be the shadow at your door,

I'll be the moth into your light,

You deserve much more.