#adhd mind

I swear I have new hyper fixation every single week, and the one with the most times so far is TADC and I found old drawings, I think I drew Lizzie once, I might draw Marissa (Va of Gangle) with Gangle and Amanda (Va of Ragatha) with Ragatha. Idk my mind is weird

She appears after a long day in bright lights, too tight crowds, loud tourists and arms heavy with books, and food for later, and other pleasures I can’t find at home.

I close my eyes and it takes her a few minutes for her to come knocking at my mind and soul. She greets me with the usual heaviness in my lungs and a flying soul.

Sometimes I feel frustrated with her disappearance.

Why are you ignoring me? I scream and cry into the night. What have I been doing wrong?

It doesn’t matter, it’s after 9.

“Don’t trust your thoughts about your life during the night.” The advice they give to people who are “Sad”

I wipe the tears and sleep it off. The next sun-up, I don’t even remember why my bed is covered in tear-wet tissues.

Sometimes I forget her existence and am content with what happens and my own feelings. Sometimes she surprises me, my hands and mind busier than they have been in months, years.

I think it’s totally possible that upon finding out about shivs pregnancy, Matsson will disregard her. Maybe even see her a weak and refuse her a seat. If this is so I think Tom told Matsson directly. 

I think the “he killed a waiter at my wedding” card will be played against Kendall and if it doesn’t, some other excuse will be used to get him out of the seat. Drug usage/bad father figure/obsessed with becoming his father, anything negative.

Tom has the poteional to become US CEO, because throughout this whole season, he has been conniving and plain evil. Something that I believe a lot of viewers didn’t expect from him initially. With all the “work, he’s been doing, especially missing Logan’s funeral. I believe he’s plotting behind everyone’s back. 

Roman has to seek mental and medical treatment.

Does anybody else do or have these???

Zoning out hard enough that you repeat sounds you hear? Like you hear a car engine and literally say “Brrrrrrrrooooom” (I’m literally the worst for this!)

The constant need for music to be playing, or at least have headphones on my head to have the option to listen to it

Random spurts of energy that result in walking quickly around the house or clean your entire room at three in the morning

Can’t keep routines for the life of you, it’s either already implanted in your daily life or will never happen again (attempting meditation in the morning or working out)

Getting too excited and stimming by clapping a lot or slapping somebody, normally a sibling. Usually paired with squealing or laughing very very loudly

Somebody saying to ‘be quiet’ and feeling like you’re the worst person to ever exist then shutting up for the rest of the evening

Being completely overwhelmed and your brain completely shutting down, sending you to your happy place to actively avoid the problem you need to solve

Either not being hungry all day or starving because you’re hyper focusing on the fact you haven’t eaten in hours

Migraines from not drinking enough water then chugging too much when you remember

Hobbies involving hyper focusing and purchasing hundreds of dollars worth of stuff for it, just to get bored and let the stuff sit in the back of your closet

NAMES AND FACES! Being awful at matching names and faces then feeling completely awful about it when you forget their name!!!