#accomodation

Hey everyone, hanging my head in shame as I post this icl... (not that theres anything wrong with posting this- i just personally feel bad asking ppl for help LOL)

As some of my mutuals have been in the know of my previous years on here, i grew up in an awful household that no kid deserved to grow up in. I am now moved out into my other parent's and although it is not as bad, the situation is still emotionally draining and isnt the healthiest space.

I was not kept on in my winter job which absoloutely broke my heart because my ultimate plan was to move out into college accomodation. Having to financially soley rely on myself to sort out accomodation, I am reaching out to absoloutely anyone who would be willing to donate in any support. Liking, sharing, reblogging- whatever, it will 100% help because I understand everyone has their own shit to deal with <3

Through putting money towards my dog's cancer treatment and the bills, my money is declining and what college I can go to is very much on the fence due to my finances and accomodation.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this, any any any support is appreciated so much, thank you <3

Oh, I see they are really helping huh?

"Why is that person using arm floaties? they're not drowning..."

I see that you're not drowning, you're doing good so I'm gonna take the arm floaties away from you. Wait, why are you drowning again? You were fine one second ago, you must be faking it.

"Can I please have some arm floaties?"

"But you haven't entered the pool yet."

"Yeah but I can't swim, I know that I can't swim, so some arm floaties would really help me not to drown."

"You're asking for arm floaties without even trying to swim, you're just lazy and you want more help than the others have, the others are doing just fine..."

"I don't need to get into the watter to know that I can't swim. You're telling me I can't have arm floaties unless I'm actively drowning? You won't give them to me even though I warned you I will drown?"

The way people don't get you can't do the things they do, at least without costing you so much.

The way the doors of shops or buildings used to fly open at the slightest touch and now they seems to weight a hundred tons.

The way my mother in law asked me if I wanted orange juice and when I said yes she put two oranges and a old manual juicer. I was too ashamed to admit how much it would cost me to do it this way. So I did it, fighting the tears and then couldn't use my arm for a week.

The way I can't get out of my apartment sometimes because even if there is a lift, there's also stairs between my apartment door and the lift and between the lift and the building door. Why make a lift at all if it's not even accessible because of the stairs? (I can't move out. I have neither the money nor the spoons.)

The way the new building the local bookshop moved into makes things so much harder for me than the old one. There was so much unused stairs that I could sit and rest for as long as I needed. Now in the new building the stairs are so narrow you can't think of sitting on them, you'll just block the way. And there's no chair or bench anywhere in this 4 stories building. You just can't sit and rest there.

The way the city is getting rid of public benches and putting in their stead blocks of concrete with metal spikes on them to dissuade homeless people to sleep on them, which is wrong on its own, but also impacts disabled people. There's less and less places where to sit and rest during a walk through the city.

It's people laughing when I can't open a bottle of soda.

It's people gossiping behind my back, saying "oh they are a junky" because I takes so many meds, including the ones for the pain, but not only for that.

It's me being too ashamed to be disabled at a relatively young age and having an invisible disability. It's me being too ashamed to ask for accommodations. It's me being too ashamed to ask for a seat in the bus when all of them are already taken. It's the society making me ashamed of myself.

If you’re not disabled, but would like to help get more information, it would be highly appreciated if you could re-blog, and if you wanted to tag some disabled friends that would be great, too. Even better actually!

(under the cut: further elaboration on what this would include, some sample questions, and the questionnaire and info sheet)