I need my weird alone time or I will explode

if i dont respond to a message from you i can basically guarantee its not because i dislike you. im just getting attacked by imps and shit all the time genuinely.

if you are on mobile good news! you can just move your phone around and it is like you are driving maisy car around the real world!

go my smees

now that my smee euphoria has mostly dissipated I will attempt to explain this cryptic post. so in Disney channel original movie descendants 5: wicked wonderland they realized they needed a scary girl again and so they brought out captain hook's daughter hazel. and also her friends? human pets? the smees who are always referred to in the collective ("the smees") and sometimes say their own names like pokemon ("smeeee!") she treats them like a mix between lackeys and misbehaving dogs ("smees! go!") also the actors playing the smees are meant to be teenagers I think but are visibly late 20s possibly early 30s. this, combined with the sort of fever dream feeling of watching a movie that is mostly a series of amvs cobbled together with a fig leaf of plot, rendered me and my spouse completely hysterical about the smees. we were just sitting on the couch dissolving into genuine tears of laughter whenever the smees arrived on screen, which was not infrequently because this movie also had like 12 characters it was trying to squeeze into every scene. I'm trying to explain this but realizing that the fleeting beauty of smees maybe cannot be captured and I just have to cherish the moments we had together. gone... my smees...

i want to paint i want to spin yarn i want to do pottery and bookbinding and soapmaking and needlefelting and embroidery and breadmaking and biscuit decorating and and and

oh and quilting and wood carving and gardening and making jewellery and play an instrument and dance and sing in a choir and flower arranging and! so many ways to make art and so little time!!

it has always been a dream of mine to relax

it’s just not possible

Dealing with burnout is sooooooooooooooo easy all you need to do is operate at 40% indefinitely and be kind of mad at yourself the whole time.