Okay so a friend of mine was getting rid of some books and she offered up a book called The Jasmine Throne by Tasha Suri
I had never heard of it, so I looked it up, and discovered that it was a fantasy book written by an Indian author which heavily draws from South Asia for its worldbuilding
Needless to say, as an Indian, my interest was piqued, so I told my friend I would indeed like to have it
When I picked it up from her, she mentioned that it wasn't all that great of a book but that she really liked the worldbuilding, and so I went into it with pretty low expectations
What I didn't consider was that my friend is white.
To be fair, I'm not saying she doesn't have a point. Maybe this isn't the most beautiful prose or most intricate plot I've ever read
To be perfectly honest, I don't really care
You see, to her, the cool worldbuilding that she liked was just that: worldbuilding. (No hate to her whatsoever I adore her)
But this is my culture. I didn't even know how much it meant to me to see my culture in my favorite genre of book until it was right in front of me
I couldn't get enough of it
At every chance I got, I was reading
I was in the middle of a vacation and all I wanted to do was keep reading
And then
This happened (mild spoilers for the book):
And I was like ",,, oh??"
I read it again
Then I kept reading
And then a few pages later, this:
OH??????
I just kind of sat there and I processed what I'd just read
And then I took pictures
And then I read it again
And again
And again and again and again
And now I'm just sitting here
I can't
I can't handle this
I'm just sitting here, in the middle of a hotel room, unable to read another page of this book or look away or do anything at all other than stare in wonder
Because it's GAY
I can't handle this
I don't know what to do
I want to cry
I want to scream
I want to curl up into a ball
I want to track down the author and,,, I don't know? Hug her? Kiss her? Thank her? Ask for her autograph? Stand there grinning like an idiot? Offer her my services as a court jester? Kneel at her feet and swear fealty? Those last two probably go hand in hand tbh
Regardless, it doesn't matter what I want to do
Because I can't do anything at all
It's not just South Asian fantasy
It's GAY South Asian fantasy
This,,,
This means so much to me
Thank you, Tasha Suri.
From the bottom of my heart,
Thank you.

















