Shadow work with entities + my experiences
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I thought I’d discuss with you all about my journey in regards to shadow work. Mainly because I was having this mental discussion with myself one day and that was simply me realizing how…interesting it is that if you chose to work with entities while doing shadow work, each one seems to have their own style on helping you. Sometimes it’s slightly different but other times as far as I’ve noticed it’s done differently by each entity.
Now, if you seen my shadow work journey video, I explained all that went on roughly upon my journey. But, like I said before. It got my really interested in explaining to you all how it is to work with entities such as spirits, guides deities and more along your shadow work path. I work with several and I feel like I can now offer quite a lot of insight and how profound it is. Shall you want to work with deity for your own journey or guide, this may prove interesting to you as well. I’ll go on through different sections on each entity I worked with and how they did shadow work with me in case you are curious and already work with one.
Now. First off…I’m going to bring up the infernals. I address them as the infernal divine than demons. But sometimes I’ll switch it up depending on who it is I’m referring to for certain reasons. However, I want you all to know, if you choose to work with any one of them…They are phenomenal with shadow work.
I would also mention how chthonic entities are also great to work with when it comes to shadow work and without a doubt, deities are great with doing shadow work with if you wish to work with one, or if you are already a devotee of one.
My first initial introduction and initiation to shadow work was from Amaymon when I was little. I say he was the first experience I had when it came to shadow work because of all that he put me through initially. I don’t think he’s quite beginner friendly but if something needs to be done, and pushed through he really helps in regards to that. I also have a video I did about my experiences of him on here if your curious. However, Amaymon for me when we did shadow work, was very… blunt, straight and direct. At times it felt aggressive but not n a super violent way.
At first, he broke down walls that were built to get to the core of a specific problem or wound that needed to be worked on and tended to. For me it was glass panels that shattered with ease. Then would come more…analyzing, coming face to face with it and taking a journey through it to understand where it came from and why it existed. And that is something I think is note worthy with all of them. When you do shadow work with any entity and you work in specific areas, you follow that path and go on a journey with it to understand why it’s part of your shadow.
At times, the work we did together triggered a lot of anger in me. He really pushed my boundaries so I could have genuine boundaries. To help me realize i have a back bone and that I need to use it.
Roughly speaking… His way of helping me through shadow work was tearing down walls that would become too strong before it was too late. To work and face the problem or wound at hand instead of putting it on the back burner of my psyche and ignoring it. Like trying to throw away something you don’t like but he roughly grabs it and throws it down in front of you and says. “Deal with it” in a low authoritive tone in your face. If your running away from something, he’ll make sure you face it one way or another. Shadow work with him was always filled with anger, frustration and the need to yell for me. And it got the point I could stand my ground when he tested me without faltering as much. Then our work become gentle and slow. Like when he helped me to slowly take steps back away from an edge within my inner astral plane, the edge in which held a strong significant of when I once wanted to delete my self. He helped me to slowly process the reason as to why, while helping me to retreat safely back to ground with him, each step signified me taking back my own strength and power. A new found sense of self once we ended our session.
Shadow work with Lucifer was interesting to say the least… He was gentle with it. It truly felt like he shinned light in the darkest parts and corners of mental scape that I didn’t realize was there. But the only thing was… It happened randomly. When me and him did shadow work it happened so randomly. But it was…orderly? The best way i can put it would be… the fact I would get triggered about something. And he would take that, make it a portal and bring us both into it, to explore it. Like a little worm hole, a little opening of inviting.
So when I got triggered and this happened, he would question me why I’m feeling the way I was. And he didn’t quite want me to answer like… “Oh well, i don’t know. It’s nothing.” He expected me to answer straightforward. Without section thought. To let whatever comes out to come out. Almost as if to not give myself time to think but to allow my body or self to just speak in a flow. So I would tell him why. And he would question that. It would be like this for the entire session. Him questioning me nonstop after each answer I gave him. And through this, we would walk and explore the area the portal created. At times, when I became stuck and didn’t give a straight answer. My own inner demon would appear and torment me while he somewhat disappeared. And each and every time my own demon would appear that in it self was a journey of self realization and awareness. A Lesson was being played and so I had to learn it. Which is kinda funny to think about… He represents light and also the absent of it. Which in a funny way… makes sense as to why he often disappeared briefly during the moments in which my own demons would show.
It didn’t end until I faced them one way or another. And we would often have reviews after each session. To revising what happened, and what I learned and what I needed to understand and how to process it. There was some times in which our session was…slower paced. He would often talk me through things as my surroundings shifted and things were brought to my attention as others shifted from sight that was laced with memories. It felt more like when you are building and rearranging in a sims game. He also seems to reinforce self care.
I feel like my shadow work with him happened in such a way that…I didn’t know it was happening until I genuinely wanted to do shadow work with him. And I say this because of when we first met and how it unfolded. It not only felt like a test, to shake the ground but… it felt like more was at play now that I truly think about it. Regardless, In my own experience it feels intense and like a lot to take in at first before there is a gentle wave of seeing the after math of a huge storm passing by. And then we would look at the said after math and all that it destroyed. What still stands and what still needs to be broken down. Even questioning why something is still standing when it shouldn’t be.
But not in your typical way. (At least for me). While interacting with him more directly than before I was very intimated but I also feel like I was trying my best to really show that I can do this work with a strong will with what ever happens and is thrown my way…despite being a bit scared. So, shadow work with him at first was very nerve wrecking when I don’t truly feel like it needed to be, it was just how I was being and feeling about it all.
There was intense moments that made me very frustrated when we did things and explored different tones. It felt like through this way, a lot of things were being brought to my attention that otherwise would had never been. I often view myself as being quite self aware but he made me more aware of certain aspects that I first over looked. And how it made me upset with myself because I had over looked it and it could had been so simple and so easily forgotten. But It seems that was the key. That was the point. And that was what I had to process and realize as a lesson in it self.
There were times in which he did express more of a softer side as well, especially when I often tried doing shadow work and healing focused on my heart center and this is when I really appreciated his patience and was more willing to allow his help more for how heavy my heart felt during the time of such a session.
I feel like my way of trying to describe his method of shadow work is a bit more based on experience than it is rather as a set method compared to those I’ve mentioned already. One thing for certain I can say is how doing shadow work within the void with him is wonderful, but definitely not sun shine and rainbows. But it’s wonderful in the sense of truly exploring the darkest aspects that may be scary to truly confront. I feel like he is more safer in a odd sense to truly explore more that is within the dark. Most likely because he comes across as being slightly more death related to me in a chthonic tone.
I haven’t personally heard a lot of people who have been open about their experiences with Shadow work and Loki. But without a doubt he’s amazing with Shadow work. I feel like the work we did together was very challenging. But in a way of helping me to realize more so, what I should be doing afterwards. I had originally asked him to help me do shadow work with my ancestors and that was super insightful and amazing. But the information I uncovered wasn’t so much. But at the same time it was much needed for me to better understand myself and my path.
When things got really hard and I ended up shutting down. I often have a harder time of hearing and connecting to any one of my team, even if they are trying to help me. And when I was doing a heavy amount of shadow work it also brought me to this space again. However something I noticed with him in particular which I find very interesting… Was the fact he was able to get past my barriers more easily than the others have during an episode like this. Which shocked me and amazed me.
He also used characters from fandoms I enjoy to help me process and work through a lot of my shadow aspects. So he really does implement and show how you can still have fun while still doing work. And this is just one of this methods (I’m sure) that seemed to help and worked well. We would do roleplaying also with my comfort characters to process and work through my wounds and conflicts. Especially in regards to painful memories.
And similar to Lucifer, he also reinforces the idea of self care and tending to yourself.
I wanted to mention that I have done a little bit of shadow work with Belial but I don’t feel like I have enough to truly tell you how it has been like I have with the others mentioned in this video. However the most I can say is that for the time frame and moments we did do shadow work, he helped me to realize how much I’ve been digging myself a deeper hole, especially in regards to not realizing or appreciating all that I’ve done already and been through. And in one particular instance, he asked me when will my healing be enough for me and me only? And it somewhat made me almost flip my lid with frustration and anger because it seemed and felt like I wasn’t doing enough or doing things wrong and the only thing that I was doing wrong was simply not allowing myself to process and rest after a long journey of shadow work. Which was how i was keeping myself stuck in one spot for the longest time.
Until next time my starlights, I will see you all later.
