โ๏ธ:ย their thoughtlessness can leave you stranded in the trenches. theyโll start a war for you, but they might forget to check if youโre still standing.
โ๏ธ:ย their stubbornness is a brick wall. they would rather let a relationship crumble than admit they were wrong or change their routine.
โ๏ธ:ย they can treat a sacred promise like a suggestion. their mood shifts, and suddenly the "you" they loved yesterday is someone they donโt recognize today.
โ๏ธ:ย they are masters of weaponized vulnerability. theyโll make you the villain of their story just to avoid taking accountability for their own emotions.
โ๏ธ:ย they can turn your trauma into a "background prop" for their own drama. if the spotlight isn't on them, they simply stop paying attention.
โ๏ธ:ย their criticism can act like slow-acting poison. theyโll "fix" you until thereโs nothing left of the person you actually are.
โ๏ธ:ย their indecision is a slow torture. theyโll keep you suspended in "maybe" forever because theyโre too afraid to be the "bad guy" who says no.
โ๏ธ:ย theyโll find your deepest insecurity and archive it not to heal it, but to use it as a weapon the moment they feel even slightly betrayed.
โ๏ธ:ย theyโll use a joke to dodge a serious moment. when you need them to be present, theyโre already halfway out the door chasing a new "vibe."
โ๏ธ:ย they can be emotionally transactional. if you don't fit into their long-term "success plan," they can turn cold enough to freeze your soul.
โ๏ธ:ย they love "humanity" but can be incredibly detached from humans. they can make you feel like a stranger in your own relationship.
โ๏ธ:ย their escapism is a form of ghosting. theyโll hide behind lies or "confusion" just to avoid the harsh light of reality, leaving you to deal with the mess alone.
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Find someone whose demons resonate with your own "dark" side, the part of you that you're too afraid to express openly for fear of being misunderstood.
Art: Brรผnnhilde, LXV, Sir Christopher Le Brun PPRA (b. 1951)
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We know that it is the people who do not know enough about their own shadow and their own dark side who are most likely to fall victims to evil influences.
If one knows the evil possibilities within oneself, then one develops a kind of second sight or capacity for getting a whiff of the same thing in other people. A jealous woman who has realized her own jealousy will always recognize jealousy in the eyes of another woman. The only way, therefore, not to walk through the world like an innocent well-brought-up fool, protected by father and mother from the evils of this world, and therefore cheated and lied to and stolen from at every corner, is to go down into the depths of one's own evil, which enables one usually to develop the instinctual recognition of corresponding elements in other people.
Marie-Louise Von Franz, Individuation in Fairy Tales
{Centre of Applied Jungian Studies}
When you heal, it can trigger some people because you are embodying a way of being that goes against their limiting beliefs. They see it as not being okay because their consciousness has not yet been able to accept a certain love-based belief. They wonder, โHow can you love and accept yourself like that? It is unacceptable!โ because they have not reached your level of self-acceptance yet. Not to say that their shadow self might take over and might want to destroy the point of acceptance that you now possess and own. Protect yourself by staying in your own energy and by neutralizing all external influences and energies that do not belong to you. Reinforce your beliefs and heal your energy so much that others who try to make you feel as they are feeling about themselves can no longer affect you.
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"You believe you are unworthy, but I know you are so much more. Sometimes the world doesn't need a white knight, sometimes it needs something darker, so you have two choices: you could either become the destroyer of this world, or you could be its savior." - Dr. Fate (Black Adam 2022)
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Pile One๐ค
The backbone of your shadow relates to manipulation and the desperation to be known and seen, even if it means being acknowledged for notorious deeds. You're savvy when it comes to being charismatic and having your way with others, as well as getting on another person's good side. You have this cheeekiness about you that's both your strength and your downfall, it's charming and useful for networking but is also a gateway for making enemies that don't find your wittiness to be amusing or convincing. You could see another person's trust as something that you should take, from finding their weaknesses and exploiting them through soft lies or willingly dousing the person with what it is that they seek, even if it's you, in particular, because I'm seeing a lot of puppetry/pinnochio themes, you could be the type to be a couple of steps ahead of people that want to manipulate you by allowing them to think that they have power over you, but it ends up being you with most of the control in the situation. On the other side of your shadow, is acceptance that everyone will not like you and it's not your responsibility to win over their approval and letting go of thinking that everything needs force. Coexisting with your shadow, is understanding that recognition is yours by not overcompensating and and overexposing yourself to multiple people and causes. Allowing things about yourself and your life to remain a taboo, is what makes you harmonize with your shadow side while still being able to shine.ย Why the world needs this, is because you teach others that lust or desire for something that someone has, isn't a valid admission or reason to give away your trust. I feel like this has a lot to do with independence, and valuing self-importance, with not just the people that learn from you, but also yourself. You could be likely to come across someone who's prone to reconciling with another person out of longing or to acquire something about them that they feel that they don't have within themselves (confidence, love, strength, etc), feeling that they need to look or be a certain way to be attractive (maybe even cling to something that they consider an enhancement that they need), or any other situation that relates to seeking power that they feel that they don't have. Your shadow mostly teaches others to find their own strengths so that they don't feel like power is something that they need to consume or force out of a person through manipulation, but I also get that the benefit of being around your shadow relates to beauty as wellโit enlightens a person to know that feeling inadequate about their looks doesn't mean to do more, there's a physical appeal in what they keep as a mystery or the unparalleled allure that comes from remaining unfiltered.
Pile Two๐ค
I'm getting that the people who are drawn to this pile are highly in tune and developed with what the traits of their shadow side are, you guys could be rebels and skeptics instead of blindly conforming to anything, but besides having your own thoughts and beliefs, there could be something different about you that you can't exactly pinpoint on why you don't feel like you can relate to anyone in this world or what makes people likely to alienate you in some way, I feel like at some point in your life, you thought that mimicking your surroundings instead of expressing the authentic parts about yourself would make you feel more included or at home, but it never really changed anything in regards to how people treat you besides making you feel even more alone inside. This could be something that you struggled with before growing more confident with yourself, but your message about your shadow, is that the only thing about it that's holding you back, is the way that you choose to go about accepting it. Your message reminds me of the movie Megamind. Don't allow your loneliness or another person's poor reaction to you, interpret your differences as a weapon. Being unique or misunderstood shouldn't conclude you as someone who's an enemy to the world or someone to be feared. Furthermore, just because you're different, doesn't mean that you don't have anything useful to contribute to the world. Change is the only constant, and what's more useful to change than something new and what isn't common? Accepting yourself doesn't mean reducing yourself to what other people call you, nor does it reflect on how much you appear to not care on the outside. It takes grit to walk freely without anyone's validation, but don't let the hardness from your surroundings, harden you inside, or make you believe that just because the world isn't showing you care for your feelings, that you aren't deserving to express and receive sensitivity. Why the world needs your shadow side, is because that there's a truth that needs to be exposed within humanityโthere isn't anything normal about it. You help others take a step closer to loving and appreciating who they are by helping them let go of trying to get others to normalize the things that aren't, and to instead, just normalize their selves. Co-existing doesn't come from fighting all of the time, or trying to get people to agree with you, co-existing starts with just being.
Pile Three๐ค
(specifically 1:36)
What I'm picking up about your shadow side, is that it relates to possessiveness and smothering. You guys could be very powerful visionaries because of how much they're derived from pent up emotions that you could have been taught to keep in or a lot to do with love that wasn't reciprocated, the ace of cups isn't in your spread, but I'm just getting this image of this huge cup being overfilled your feelings and dreams. When I think of the people in the pile, I think of Georgia from the show 'Ginny and Georgia' on Netflix. You guys have a huge heart, and you mean well, but how you direct and show your love can be depicted with the worst parts of your shadow, it doesn't mean that you're a bad person at all, this is just about not particularly making the best choices when you react emotionally. What makes your shadow side combust, is not having any boundaries with the real world and what you envision for yourself, in a way that makes you inconsiderate, but also prone to heartbreak, like you could treat others as if this is just your world and they're the props. This could also look like not having boundaries with others or trying absorb another person's space. I keep picking up these specific scenarios, or should I say messages? To be careful with assuming that your love language should be something that another person should accept. I'm seeing someone growing up to be a parent, who loves their child to pieces, but shows it in a way that's self absorbed and suffocates the child in the end by wanting to give them a life that you didn't have but you don't realize that you're restricting them from their growth or identity. I'm also seeing someone having a specific dream about their life that they want for themselves, but are wanting specific people to fill in roles without realizing that everyone has free will and it's their right to have it. These themes are about making other people your happiness and in some way, robbing them of their right to make decisions in however way that this applies to your life, this isn't at all to say that this makes you bad, to make you aware. Similarly to pile one, your shadow side is needed for both the world and yourself, your message is also like life and death. You could have had a lot of endings, and are having trouble letting people or things go because of fear over it possibly being literal, as if your life ends if you can't have this specific person or achieve these specific goals, or that the only way to continue on is by living through another person, but it's not true. I feel that the cup I was thinking about earlier is actually supposed to symbolize the fountain of youth, you are the source for what makes your life lively, it isn't to be measured by the things that don't work out, create more dreams, goals, interests, but most importantly, see the next day as a reason not to attach to whoever or whatever isn't meeting you half way.
I had a feeling I should post a shadow work pile today, so here it is โค๏ธ
pile 1 - 2 - 3
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You seem to be too competitive and too guarded. You might've grown up in a place where you had to fight to be recognized? Imposter syndrome I'm hearing. Maybe for some of you, you feel like you have to keep overachieving to not disappoint anyone or probably not to disappoint yourself. Some of you might be a leader too. You put up walls because you think everyone's after you? You also might have commitment issues romantically. You see everything as competition. I think this is a problem when you argue with someone? Like you always have to be right of some sort otherwise you feel like a total loser even though there's no winning or losing in relationships. For some of you, you also might be indecisive. You get overwhelmed easily because your mind runs everywhere at the possibility of every choice that's why it takes you such a long time to decide. There might also be some situations where you compromised your personal values and sense of self for the sake of others. Maybe why you also can't move forward. Maybe you take the "eyes on the prize." motto too seriously too, that you prioritize your fast, masculine energy too much and forget to balance yourself in alignment and connect with your grounding, feminine energy.
I think that when you're sure about someone, they just kind of walk away from you? It's like you get yourself in a lot of toxic relationships most likely which gives you the indecision to stay or to go. This is what the compromising your personal values is for, you get stuck on whether you release or let go. You might stay because you still see the good in them or their past self, or maybe you stay because you've already let them in your walls and it pains you greatly to let them out especially if you've shown them your sensitive side only reserved for the special people you hold. You have difficulty letting go of attachments and or habits because it's in your bubble of comfort. How other people reflect it is that, once you've let them in, they take advantage of you. They take advantage of your vulnerability and your peace. You're like a guarded person on the outside and so sweet and mushy on the inside. To the very few people who see that, they know they've reached your sweetness, get used to it and forget your stone cold exterior. These people spread rumors and gossip about you. Lots of jealousy I'm hearing. Which gives the cycle of you putting up walls again. Actually, your conscious eye might not know of the evil eye around you? You attract people who like to focus their energy on conflict and bring you along with it. You are hella exhausted of it. You have an idea or two on who these people are but I'm thinking you try to deny it.
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10 of pentacles
LISTEN TO YOUR INTUITION! I saw 11:11 just now. I have a feeling you have great premonition or intuition, pile 1, so you should listen to it. Leave whatever attachments you have behind and this aggressive need to put up walls. There's nothing wrong with boundaries but this is not the healthy type of boundary. It's not your fault for trusting someone but rather their fault for taking advantage of you. Listen to your heart, okay? I'm sensing you also need to protect your plans and manifestation? If you tell people what you desire, they might also manifest that you fail in some shape or form. Cleanse your aura too. This is also a crucial time for your success? This is like a step forward to elevate your vibration. As of right now, you are stuck with people who want to bring you down. It's crucial for you right now to cut cords and listen to your heart. For some of you, you already did so fucking congrats about that! I'm proud of you! If not? I'm proud of you either way. You might also get a new love interest right after this? Or someone genuine will come out and confess to you who's been a secret admirer for a while. On the other hand, it might be about coworkers and financial success too.
additional messages: 77, 1111, balance feminine and masculine energy, salt bath, light work, "you can do this, c'mon and stand up!", financial success, time to say goodbye, do a monthly reading, looking for true love
6 of cups reversed, King of Wands, Sun in reversed
You can't let go of the past. You're stuck and you can't forgive. You keep asking yourself, "why? why? why?" and I also think that you're in denial. You may also have lost touch with your inner child. I feel like you're experiencing a burnt out period right now and just refuse to accept it. In the past you may have been a streak and now that you've hit a down low, you're wondering if you're ever going to reach that path again. You might've been experiencing this period for about 6 months now. You guys aren't grounded at all. You may need to work on your root chakra as that can cause misalignment with the rest of your chakras. Some of you might be Scorpio Suns, others Leo Mercury and Cancer Sun. You need innovation, somehow. You feel as if you can't do it and fall back in your pace again and that's what stopping you. You have these passionate, creative ideas but you lose touch in your reality so much that you don't do them at all. For some of you, you might be too busy to even have fun? It's all just about work and work and work, I think your inner child is sad by this fact. There's nothing wrong with letting yourself loose, pile 2. Don't take life too seriously :)
This causes you to lack communication with your family. There's tension within your home and it's disrupting your body's balance. You might also keep finding yourself getting caught up in dramas of other people, toxic love triangles, etc. Might've recently happened this past week, particularly these past 4 days where you got into a drama with your father or mother maybe? Or some male figure. For some of you, there's just no stability or peace right now. Your rent might be late and you're trying to find jobs to get by, someone might be sick and you have bills to pay, or either you're graduating but don't want to move from where you are right now because it's unfamiliar and scary. You also close yourself off from everyone right now because of you feel embarassed of how you feel and repress them. You feel emotions intensely and don't know very well how to deal with them, so you hide.
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page of swords
Let yourself go! Love yourself! Self-love isn't just all about the physical routine but the internal too. You have to deal with your turmoil of emotions otherwise you're gonna break and even be more toxic to the people around you. I'm sensing that your loved ones genuinely care, but because of your trust issues you bite their hand off. Before trying to love someone else, you should have faith and love with yourself. Loving yourself unconditionally may be hard in the beginning but to live in happiness and harmony, you have no other choice. Let your feelings out, ffs. You have to let the dam go to properly rebuild the tunnel. No, it's not embarassing nor will it change how strong you are. No need to put up a pretense, letting yourself feel despite being afraid is plenty strong. HELL, even as you're hanging off a thread right now is strength in itself. This transition is important because if you fall then you'll just become a butterfly. There are no room for failures because there is no such thing in evolution of the mind and soul.
You're not believing in your power, thus you're trying to control everything around you. This makes you hit a stagnant energy. You're trying to control soo many things. You might even be controlling to the relationships around you without realizing a lot of it. It's like everything around you is changing, but internally you're still stuck and can't move forward. You feel like you've lost your crown. This might be because of an argument with your father? Your father may be trying to control you? Something about your identity and sexuality? On the other hand, some of you are lacking control. You just let everyone around you try to control you. Some of you might struggle with discipline and independency. This is some intense energy in here. There's a tightness in my chest, you guys also ignore your true emotions? Or you're not understanding at all. You guys feel confined and such and need a new beginning. You're afraid to take a leap of faith, afraid that it'll destroy everything. You also might have problems with your boss. Pile 3, you're so afraid, really fucking afraid. Everything is just falling apart but you don't want change, you don't want to fall, you don't want to do anything. A lot of you guys are also struggling with addiction. You might be experiencing a pretty controlling significant other right now? Or you're that significant other. You self-sabotage hella lot.
I just heard a pretty big KARMA. Guys, you really need to discipline yourself. Saturn's going to hit you hard this month. You better start acting now or you're putting yourself as well as other people around you in even more hurt. I really feel like this has a lot to do with your career, with the Saturn energy and all. Your boss/workplace is not treating you well and you really want to leave but fear of change is holding you back. It could also be about money? This job or just you generally might also think you're better than everyone and just keep looking down on people. This affects genuine relationships because you don't think they're worthy of you because of social status.
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THE TIME IS NOW WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?! Whatever you're delaying, do it. Just do it. You need to jump that leap of faith, you need to take action right now. Everything falls apart for a reason so you can build it back with a stabler foundation. Whatever horrible attachments and habits you have, you need to change them. Whatever you're scared to unlearn, unlearn. You're letting your shadow side get the best of you. For some of you, STOP BEING DELUSIONAL. You have a pretty big ego and it's getting in the way of your spirituality. Spirituality is all about finding the truth about yourself whether it's in the harshest ways or whatnot. We should always strive for the true balance of the shadow and light. You shouldn't be thinking that it's only the light side you want to experience. You have to do your work.
