Spellbound Draws

Married the love of my life at 50.

Got my Class A CDL at 59.

You've got time.

if you just want nudity, there's a lot of great websites available for studying anatomy or pinups. pinup photo/art archive websites, line of action, looots of great photo reference archives sold on gumroad or whatever of indie models compiling great nude photo collections of various ages and body types, or even using nude model paintings as reference, or nude sculptures.

but unfortunately, if you want references for PORN, you're gonna have to look at PORN.

Maybe you hear a suggestion you didn't consent to, or a third party interrupts, or literally anything at all happens that makes you need to take pause.

For example, I had a friend who one time dropped me and played a game called "and Secret won't come back up until I and only I say so" as a power play move in a switch fight/resistance challenge with my wife. I was legit so deep down there that when my wife tried to snap me out she couldn't, I just could not do anything until he said so, I was that controlled in that moment. Now, in theory if something happened and I had to I COULD come back out but in that moment I had enough trust in the situation I could choose to let this play out and it genuinely felt like all the control left my body. It was great.

Until then, I'd been guided to complete stillness and thought it was a "rule" to keep myself from scratching an itch, moving an uncomfortable part of my body, or just stimming/fidgeting as needed.

Now, I give myself perpetual permission to move as much as needed while remaining deep in trance.