Something special

Autodestruction always came to me naturally.

Sometimes we are our worst enemies. In that case, how can I love myself?

Why does nobody hear me?

It’s amazing how I can smile, laugh and cry and feel so empty at the same time.

The bitterness of my heart comes out every night.

And I’ll force myself to stay awake ’couse I don’t wanna see you again.

It's really hard to live in a reality where no one loves you.

There are some painful things and sometimes they make us sleepless.

Why do I always reach for someone, when they don't want me to reach for them?

Maybe I keep myself from crying, but my heart is breaking still.

Sometimes we all just wait for something that won't happen.

I didn't notice I cry. Becouse I'm tired. Tired of everything, tired of the world that makes me drawn.

It's like poison, eating me from the inside.

Maybe someday someone's hand will fit mine, couse I wanna feel whole again.

How can I celebrate the new year full of pain again?