staring into space.

so i’m gonna get my body cryogenically frozen wake me up in the summer of 2019

Open heart surgery without anesthesia. Holy fuck. You know I watched Iron Man for the first time when I was like 14, probably? And it never dawned on me until very recently. He was awake for that. He was aware that some guy he didn’t know had his hand INSIDE his chest. He was aware that he had A HOLE ON HIS CHEST. His heart was literally exposed to everything. “Non consensual body modification,” I’ve seen that tag in fics applied to Tony, but like I didn’t really think about it? ‘Cause I’ve always seen it as a part of him; from the comics and the first few movies, but… HOLY SHIT. HOOOOOLY SHIT. As if him thinking Rhodey was dead, being kidnapped by terrorists, being waterboarded and tortured, seeing Yinsen die wasn’t enough… there’s this. Just… seeing this gif is like… HE. WAS. AWAKE. THROUGH. THE. WHOLE. THING. jesus. Jesus Christ…