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oh, Toge would gladly wear a suit (i just don't have a grasp on drawing them LOL) !! he would only wear one with patterns/uncommon colors, though, because he still needs to be showy :9

Declining Sun - Pasi Tammi , 2023.

Finnish , b. 1971 -

I hope you don’t mind that Im only answering this part of your question, but it was a lot to reflect on and unpack.

I think the best way I can describe it is like…. You know how when you do a puzzle, and most people start with the border and work their way inwards?

I think that most people are just the border of a puzzle.

I can look at a crowd and kind of guess whose finished picture is a landscape, or a bunch of balloons, or a classical painting. The colours and shapes give an impression that makes everybody a tiny bit different.

But then like… a LOT of people are puzzles of, say, a field of white flowers. And I can only see the border, so I have to think of like… which borders have more flowers or more grass, more grass or more sky, etc, and whatever is in the middle isn’t even put together yet.

But if someone’s border has, say, something fluorescent yellow in the top left- that makes them easier to differentiate from all the other field-of-white-flowers puzzles. I can remember that. And then later if the bottom half of the puzzle is covered, I can still see the big spot of neon yellow at the top, and remember that no other field-of-white-flowers have that.

And then like…. The more I see them, or the more unique features the have like tattoos or scars or birthmarks or whatever, unique proportions or deformities or injuries or gaits- the more pieces are filled in. So I can retain more parts of the picture in my head

So now instead of just being another border of a puzzle of a field of white flowers, YOU are a windmill in a field of white flowers, or a castle in á valley of white flowers, or a mix of white and red flowers.

And if I see someone often enough for long enough, I get so many pieces in their ten-thousand-piece puzzle that even with a few gaps, I still know exactly who they are, and can still pick them out of a crowd. Because I’ve filled in enough of the picture to know what it is

Like

Like. These aren’t literal. I can SEE your whole face in front of me. I could draw your portrait while I looked at you.

But until I’ve been in consistent contact with you over several years, the first two sketches are how you exist in my head

And from what I’ve heard from other people with face blindness, it’s not even the same for everyone

The current research holds that it’s due to an atypical Fusiform Gyrus, which is a little structure in the back of the brain that, in “normal” folks, lights up specifically in response to human faces.

So. Basically. Face Blindness is what we call it when folks do not have the additional, specifically face-detecting hardware in their brain, and have to rely on the Object-Recognition hardware.

kitties in watercolours from January, which I wasn't able to properly scan until now :')

Thinking about Psi and Zeta in Emily's ( @deinocheirus ) Dragon setting A King of Worms....

Dragon thoughts ahead:

Zeta ("Zenith")

Zenith lives in a small city which has adopted her as a sort of cult icon. She never leaves, and mostly she lays around sleeping. Hobbies include eating livestock and getting into 'philosophical debates' with random people who come to talk to her. The town sells her eggs, and her mere presence generates a lot of tourism revenue, though visitors are required to sign a waiver. People can pay to watch her eat cows and sheep and sometimes, on special occasions, dead exotic animals obtained from Zoos. She doesn't eat pigs, (she thinks they're filthy) or goats (because they're ugly and stupid.)

Like canonical Zeta, she only speaks with the snake-like head on the end of her tail.

Psi ("Sweetpea")

Sweetpea was a problem dragon who became interested in humans the same way a child becomes fascinated watching ants go about their lives. He liked them a lot, but never quite realized that they were intelligent (or dangerous) creatures, thinking about them as a funny, interesting sort of animal. He became increasingly bold, encouraged by people leaving out food for him or playing with him, but proved to be a nuisance when he started eating dogs, cats, and chickens out of people's backyards.

Eventually, a Dragon-catcher was called in to deal with him. The particular people contacted filmed the event for a "Cops"-like reality TV show focusing on a team with a tamed dragon dealing with problem cases like his. The tamed dragon, gravely overestimating how dangerous he actually was based on his (kinda freaky) appearance, and ended up ripping off the top of his head. This WAS caught on camera. This did NOT kill him.

Watching him flop around with his face missing made some people feel a little bad. Instead of mercy killing him or letting him fend for himself, he was collected and taken to a shelter, where he was nursed back to health. However, because of the help he received and how severe his injury is, he ended up internalizing that he needs help in order to eat now, meaning he ended up healing in such a way that rendered him ACTUALLY incapable of feeding himself.

The incident left him with pretty bad amnesia, and the mass of 'worms' that sprouted from the initial wound eventually solidified into the three snakes that now make up his face. They all seem to remember different things and have different opinions, but none remembered his old name, so people just started calling him Sweetpea.

Bonus: his head before it was ripped in half