alone and together is all that we'll ever be

No gay has all 5:

me: i mean it’s like i dont even know, u know? like obviously i want the defeat of the enemy. it remains my objective. but what if i come to a point someday - it’s not now, let’s be clear- where the enemy is defeated and im left chasing shadows? if victory does not suit me? but it must, it must

I will never shy away from the word goon. goon is the only way to describe a particular type of henchman, lackey, or thug. look at these guys. they're goons.

do it while the ground falls out from under you; do it while everything you loved goes up in smoke; do it while the dream of your future is still burning embers around you; build anew on the hot ashes of everything you worked for; keep going, keep loving, keep living, even as all you want is to turn back (there is no turning back; it is gone already); do it through grief, which feels like fear in the body

The tag I have seen most often on this post is "I needed to hear this," and I am so, so grateful to have said something that was needed. These words came out of the depths of my own grief, and I am so grateful to have made this small connection with others in the midst of it. Grief is isolating and indescribable, but none of us are alone.

maladaptive suicidal ideation: "i'm going to kill myself"