Oh, Sing Sweet Nightingale

evil cass arc david keeps calling slade to ask about cass and getting sent to voicemail. inbox full of how ya doin buddy it's me dave. hey how's my little firecracker. getting enough to eat or what. lord knows she won't tell you. made that mistake before. heh. has she shown you the neck thing she was always great at that. barely had to teach it to her she had it down pat. better than i ever did it i'll tell ya. betcha even a guy like you could learn a thing or two. she's the real deal believe me. god i miss my girl. you get it right. yeah i know you do. you don't gotta tell me. anyway. can't wait for the next mission. call me anytime you've got my number. day or night i mean it. i'm ready to go. locked and loaded. all that. talk to you soon my friend. again it's dave. maybe you don't have it saved in there. but hey i understand when you're in the life like we are. covert ops. gotta do what you gotta do. alright. keep in touch now

Honestly it boils down to reparenting yourself & rewiring your own neuronal pathways & telling yourself a firm “stop” when you notice your mind slipping down negative loopholes & being present in the moment & enjoying being mid task rather than waiting for it to end & not thinking of inertia as your baseline and natural way of living

So tempting to keep embarking on the same self destructive cycle over & over & over again . But at some point you have to put ur foot down w ur own behaviors & be the thing that truly saves u