i wish i was a camera / i wish i was a postcard

the only thing we know for sure is that matt was in love with owen

i should be working but i love how divided and varied the real person theories are about matt and jay. some people are convinced matt is the gay one in eternal unrequited love for jay who is mutually obsessed with him back but still heterosexual. some people think matt is completely straight and just has a unique thing wrong with him. some people are dead convinced jay is bisexual and the reasons he and matt aren't together vary from "matt is straight" to "he's too passive to make a move and has been waiting 20 years for matt to say something". some people are certain they're both straight and just have a special relationship. and maybe it's all of these things on some level. maybe it's none of them. maybe they're both kinsey 1.5s but are comfortable never acting on it. maybe they fucked once in 2009 and it almost ruined everything so they put it behind them but to this day they still fantasise about being married to each other but are scared of disturbing the status quo. maybe they feel only the inklings of romantic love towards each other and channeled it all into the 3 episodes of the monkey and the bird cartoon they made 5 years ago and now they're completely normal.