jazmine

it's well made, well shot, well directed, the music is interesting, the costumes are both thoughtful and subtly period accurate, the sex scenes are intentional and, again, accurate to what hooking up when you're like 18 actually feels like...the actors are of course attractive but they look like real people. the characters are varied and well fleshed out, the acting is really, really strong

so many shows and films shoot and then slot in whatever music kind of fits or could be licenced in the budget after time, but you can tell that the scenes in hr were shot with that specific music in mind. and the same intentional approach runs through the whole thing

and the guy is so nice, so kind to his face, but it goes downhill fast, maybe he has a big mouth, maybe he blabbed, maybe he called him that word in passing that held just a little more weight than it does when he says it to straight guys (and it hurts but brandon doesn’t want to judge, can’t judge, cuz he’s said the same to others, it’s just how locker rooms are, except what if they weren’t? what if he could make one that didn’t? But he can’t get that far ahead of himself, he can’t delude himself any more) but it doesn’t matter what happens, really, because the fact of the matter is that the guy doesn’t love him back and the guy told people and those people are refusing to pass to him and refusing to change near him and refusing to be civil to him

so brandon is sent to the ahl that summer and that beautiful, dark eyed, perceptive, intelligent goalie goes to new york and sometimes when brandon is feeling down, he kicks himself even harder by looking him up and seeing his perfect marriage and perfect life and perfect everything

and eventually it fades. brandon meets the woman of his dreams who doesn’t care that he’s still attracted to men and they have beautiful children and he plays hockey and he watches scott hunter come out because of course he watches new york win a cup and he coaches in ottawa and he gets to finally make a locker room where cruelty isn’t the norm, where the men inside rally together to protect each other when the outside world is trying to rip them down, where they survive their super star center being humiliated and outed and they come out even stronger

"holy fucking shit, roz, that's so funny. H-E-double hockey sticks, oh my fucking god. who taught you that?!" cliff yells, barreling toward him.

New people at work when introduced to him go "oh, like Shane Hollander" and he BEAMS at that and says "Yep!"

Has a picture of Shane on his desk and the same new people think its a joke until an old timer who probably met Shane at a bring your kid to work day clued them in

Would not let Yuna touch the college fund they set up for Shane until he was out of his rookie contract. What if Shane changed his mind about hockey? What if he got injured and needed a good education? Only conceeded when his son was a multi-millionaire

Only time he has ever gone to HR was when someone stole the baby Shane picture off his desk after he got famous. That's his baby!!! Give it back!!! There were so many memos and all staff emails that it did get returned one night, but a picture of it circulated online so now David only has PR photos at work

His lawyer is an old college friend who he catches up with at least once a year and who reviews the Hollander's will and life insurance policy each year with specific instructions to look after Shane. This annual tradition continues to this day. The lawyer buddy is going to be there for that grown celebrity professional sportsman no matter what

Was so excited when Shane started The Cottage project, and helped him with everything, including liaising with the builders etc. Was delighted to have the first a joint project with his son since school (he helped with art/science/show and tell)

Is really bad with technology but the nice young people at the office help (is not fully cognizant of the fact half the office is in love with him but does correctly suspect the other half want to marry his son)

Always knew he wanted to be a dad, and was devastated when it seemed like that wasn't going to happen, but didn't want to put that on Yuna who was already struggling with it

Sent congratulation cards and presents to all his buddies when they had kids anf was genuinely happy for then but it also killed him a bit. Unfortunately the conversation around men struggling because they wanted kids was not happening in the 80s/early 90s so he kept quiet (and passed that trait on to Shane)

Thought Shane was perfect from the moment he was born, and still thinks that. Can't concieve of why Shane thought he could let them down, he's literally always been Yuna and David's perfect baby

David gave himself a cramp laughing about it. Yuna was at first horrified but then also amused.

The entire Boston roster piling behind Marly as he types, trying to decide what to say that could save them because their captain has been possessed by the spirit or a soviet military trainer with knife shoes and if they are forced to make double bagskates again they will either puke or die or both.