I've Still Got It (but no one wants to see it)

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Like. Swans are gigantic, territorial, feather-clad balls of muscle and hatred. Also, magic is expensive and complicated and makes you grow an ugly little goatee - although maybe that’s just my uncle. Why would you even bother? Like, poison is right there. 

Of course, unfortunately, my uncle has always subscribed to the philosophy of ‘why be evil if you can’t be dramatic about it?’.

Also...these panels

Hey Amy!!!

Oh, if I recall correctly, it's never been explicitly stated in BBC Sherlock; I think context clues point to him possibly being abused (at least emotionally) in his past, and possibly his low self esteem making him believe he isn't WORTH saving / helping. Context clues point to him always being the responsible one while his sister wasn't, which then followed him to his chosen career as both a doctor AND a soldier (both dedicated to "helping people" in the basest sense) and making rank of a captain AND being proclaimed as a "very good" doctor? Well, then, yeah, it's understandable why he feels he has to be able to handle things on his own.

And it's also how many of us read John's character, so I think that idea is also primarily fanon, but has a lot of good reason to exist as "fact".

I personally think it's a combination of all the above, plus his own trauma / PTSD from the war and losing a lot of people under his watch, so I think that he genuinely may have a bit of a saviour complex in that sense.

One of the things l love so much about BBC John is just how complex of a character he is, and how Martin portrays his character on screen. A LOT of those context clues I mentioned are STRICTLY by the way Martin portrays John, and quite frankly, it's brilliant.

Sorry I'm not much help other than this, Lovely!

chiefwinnernacho replied: I like this take of John being neurodivergent too. He seems like a straight laced, typical guy who worked very hard for his career and is of course dealing with a lot of grief and PTSD. And he may be baffled by Sherlocks behavior at time but it probably feels freeing too. Seeing this brilliant wacky man making his own way and ignoring a lot of society's rules and seeing how Sherlock derives joy from the puzzles, not the fame or thanks people give him. It was freeing for John in a way. He could let his guard down a bit.

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OH!! I have NO idea why I never clocked that John could possibly be neurodivergent as well and is masking a LOT (as a fellow masker, LOL) but yeah, that makes a lot of sense: John only follows a lot of the social norms BECAUSE he was forced to growing up and then in the military, (whereas I think with Sherlock, his brand of brilliance was encouraged by his parents and brother), but yes, he's hyper-aware of societal norms and tries hard to conform to them (like his sexuality as well). AND I think he can use his PTSD as a cover for his reluctance to accept that he is possibly neurodivergent.

“do you think i can fit the whole thing in my mouth sherlock”

“j-oh…n…”

“i think i can but it’s going to be messy”

“skldjfhhhhh”

“I’m trying to stop you from bleeding out, as per usual.”

“Don’t seem to be doing that good of a job.”

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