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โyour highness, crown princess chaeyeon. it is an honor to serve you.โ she whispered, cautiously stepping forward with a fleeting bow of her head, her muscles instinctively tenses beneath her garments. she tentatively settles her ebony gaze upon the princess, as she does everything in her power to silence the anxiety bubbling venomous within.
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hours after the crowning and chaeyeon sits in her room, drowning in a disquiet that flays her nerves all over. reruns of childhood playback in static filter, white noise, and disassembled voices. sheโd dreamed of greatness a long time ago (when she could afford to be ruthlessly ambitious, her stakes in a game of life marginally low when she viewed all but herself as expendable), of power and control and respect that came along with it. she never would have imagined the stab of guilt fashioning itself like a butcherโs knife, hacking away at her insides. grief is a terrible weight to carryโas is the crown resting prettily on her head. it is insatiable; a hungry, wretched thing that now chains her with new shackles inside a prison she can never escape from. her body is an island, marred and abandoned, in a storm of violence and bloodshed.ย
in front of her is a mirror and in it, she can hardly recognize the face that looks back at her. a shell of a woman: exhaustion; a smudge of faint purple under her eyes (insomnia is a disease of the mind and chaeyeon, a victim of epic proportions, has succumbed); her mouth can no longer smile, pressed thin and a bloodless pink. it is her eyes that terrify her most โ reflectionless windows to a soul beginning to disintegrate. in her hand, she clutches a hairpin; so tightly, the edges of inlaid gems cut into her skin, drawing blood. (it is not enough.) the pain is familiar. an odd sort of anchoring that severs something inside of her. she is party to the beginnings of a molt. (perhaps, it is wishful thinking to believe a shedding of her skin would make her anew.)ย
from deep within her drawer, she removes a roll of bandages. pristine white and brand new. down her fingers, a trickle of blood flows free. chaeyeon makes no move to clean it, not even when a knock brings her attention to her doors opening and the rhythmic sound of measured footsteps drawing closer.ย the head maid greets her and she does not rise to reciprocate. through her reflection, she lays eyes on the petite figure behind her โ a shade of familiarity bent at the knees; its face shrouded in mystery. she pulls a name from the bowels of violent memories and on her lips now rests a sliver for a smile.
she dismisses the head maid with nothing more than a gracious nod. it is only when the door shuts behind her that chaeyeon rises to her feet. as quiet as the night, her silk robes dragging across the floor. by the time she reaches hyunhee, chaeyeonโs hand is drenched in blood.ย
โhwa hyunhee,โ she tests the weight of this ghostโs name on her tongue. it tastes just as bitter and citrusy sweet as it did all those years ago. โyou may rise.โ a pause, as distinctive as it is cutting. her voice is a sirenโs lilt, hauntingly soft and deceptively kind. โlook at me.โ
๐ข๐ญ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐ซ๐๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ข๐ง๐ฌ๐ญ๐ข๐๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ๐, ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐ก๐๐๐ซ๐ญ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐๐๐๐ง๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฉ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐จ๐ง๐๐ข๐ง๐๐ฌ ๐จ๐ ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐ซ๐ข๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฌ๐๐๐จ๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐ฉ๐ซ๐ข๐ง๐๐๐ฌ๐ฌ ๐ฌ๐ฉ๐๐๐ค๐ฌ ๐ก๐๐ซ ๐ง๐๐ฆ๐ โ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ . her straightened spine quivers under the weight of a sudden, ice-forged shiver. it's easy to get lost in fear when one doesn't know what to expect for whatever comes and hyunhee knows far too well that she could never anticipate crown princess chaeyeon when it came to her next moves.
at the command, she rises to her feet; slowly and cautiously. dainty hands come to graciously fold in front of her lap and her head cants forward in a courteous bow but then the princess speaks once more.
look at me.
how can i? hyunhee wished to ask, but wisely remained tight-lipped. servants like her weren't supposed to look upon their master's faces, it was simply unheard ofโ one could even say doing so would be challenging them and that was far more dangerous. still, an order was an order. reluctantly, she lifted her eyes and let her ebony gaze upon the beauteous crown princess in all her glory.
the masked handmaiden she was, observed the crown princess chaeyeon; her features looked stiffened as if they were molded by dour sobriety. but what piqued her attention the most was the all too familiar, vacant look in her eyes. how many times had she witnessed the same gaze these past years?
look at me.
are you looking at me too?
suddenly, holding the woman's gaze becomes too arduous for her. with her intentions to shift her eyes upon the floor instead, she lowered her gaze only to caught the sight of bleeding red.
blood; her mind whispers into the stifling silence. the princess' hand was imbrued with the sanguine fluid; the floor stained the longer it drips and the sight of it had hyunhee outstretched hers timidly, though halted midways out of sudden hesitance but eventually pushed forward in order to gently furl lithe fingers around the palm of the princess' small hand, holding it with the utmost care and caution she could muster as she carefully inspect the princess's injuries.
somehow, this feels familiar.
then, she remembered. once upon a time go, a younger them were in this position before, their roles reversed; her with the bleeding hand and princess chaeyeon being the one to hold it carefully with hers.
the memory fades, and she is instantly brought back to the present. ignoring the sudden throb she felt against the scars on her hands, hyunhee simply focused her riveted attention onto the princess's injuries.
"your highness," she calls timidly, mustering her courage to look at crown princess chaeyeon in her eyes once more. "if its alright, please let me allow me to treat your injuries."














