Deep Breaths

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So previously I posted about coping skills for paranoia and I want to continue posting along those lines. A lot of us use viddya as a distraction, but often times that can ramp us up rather than calm us down. So here are some IOS games you can play in bed to wind down!

Tsuki Adventures

Tsuki is a great game I’ve found. You’re a lovely bunny who’s moved from their office job onto a carrot farm. You can interact with villagers (who show up depending on time of day), shop at the local mart with carrots from your farm, and read Tsuki’s diaries enteries to see what he’s been up to while you’re away.

It’s a really casual idle game, so there isn’t a TON to actively do, but it’s really very nice, calm, has lovely artwork, and you get the feeling of helping someone without the pressure of Tsuki’s needs draining because– well, he doesn’t have them. He isn’t a pet, after all.

#SelfCare

A really soothing game with a decent bit to do. It’s catered for the specific purpose of focusing on feeling worthy, and that it’s totally okay if you can’t always get out of bed. Some of the ‘games’ include tarot card readings, breathing exercises, a candle, and petting a cat. I like to play this one late at night.

Neko Atsume

Another idle game! It’s a sort of cat collector! Put out food and toys and wait for the cats to show up to munch and play! They’ll give you gifts of fish when they leave, which you can use to buy even more and better toys for them. Certain cats are attracted to certain toys. It’s really fun seeing the individual personalities of them!

Animal crossing; Pocket Camp

A classic that many of you may have heard of. It really helps you feel a little less lonely. You can help the animals out by giving them fruit and fish you collect on your journeys, while upgrading your own campsite! There’s a ton to actively do, and it’s really fun to play.

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Paranoid at night?

Here are coping skills I’ve found

Play a TV or a YouTube video on your phone. Background noise of people talking helps. I listen to Good Mythical Morning.

I know you may love horror shows, but it isn’t worth it.

Have a friend? Call them. Stay on the phone overnight. Mobile sleepover.

Or legit sleepover.

Dark bother you? Live near city lights? Put some closed blinds on your window and leave the curtains partially open. Enough light may filter in to look like dawn.

It’s okay to leave the lights on sometimes.

Pets help. Not a dog if you can’t leave your house at night.

It’s totally okay to check closets, under the bed, behind the shower curtain, etc. If it helps, do it.

!!!See-through shower curtains!!!

Star is fifteen!!!! She is a child!!!! She is not an adult!!!

Yes, what she did was shitty, and she KNOWS what she did is shitty. She doesn’t realize (or doesn’t want to) that she still has feelings for Marco at this point. She admits that she should have told Tom, but doesn’t flat out lie to him and admit the kiss meant nothing. She clearly feels incredibly guilty about the situation in her own way.

But she is still fifteen. She’s a child, and she can’t be held to the same moral expectations as an adult. She’s still founding her moral beliefs and half of this show literally regards around her discovering what’s right and wrong. Chances are, unlike most of us, Star hasn’t been exposed to what exactly cheating is. She doesn’t have a framework for identifying her actions or feelings regarding them (though she seems to be aware her actions could have at least been better). She’s always been a bit socially oblivious, and I don’t think this is any different.

I have trust issues, that’s always been pretty obvious. With the wonderful cocktail of intrusive thoughts, PTSD, and Excruciating paranoia, it’s very rare for me to be comfortable around another person.

So when I’m curled up in someone’s arms and have no thoughts about them brutally murdering me, let me tell you, it’s the best thing ever.

Me: no