samantha

I believe in God but I choose not to follow him because I don’t like my appearance and I don’t want to hear no crap about how you are made in God’s image. Some people have everything looks, money, & are still depressed. Me on the other hand, I guess I am just lucky for having some of the things I have. My appearance is my number one insecurity if I could get plastic surgery to change it; I definitely would.

Attractive people approach other attractive people. I never get approached or hit on. I am turning 30 this year, never even had a kiss from a man and I am a virgin. I rather be by myself if people don’t treat me the way I want. Do any of you relate? To not being super attractive

I have trillions of cash all the time and forever effortlessly. I have clear skin forever. I am a size extra small forever. I always get what I want as long as it makes me happy. My life is full of fun adventures and incredible experiences. I always do and get everything I want that makes me happy. I never suffer and I never punish. Life always gets better for me everyday in every way. I am living the most wealthiest fun life and lifestyle that I have always desired. All my desires always come true. I always live my best life and have the best time of my life all the time. I am always extremely important and matter all the time. I am always a billion steps ahead and better than everyone in everything. I am the most smartest and most intelligent person on the planet forever. Every attractive successful man always likes me the way I want especially the ones I am interested in and they always treat me the way I desire.

My life sucks. This is not a life I want. I am stuck home the whole day and feel like I am running crazy. I barely go out, it’s like I am living no life. I am 29 years old. I was in and out of mental hospitals/therapy. I am disabled and don’t drive because of my health condition. I wish I can go out more often and do things i enjoy. I am in my parents house like a prisoner. My mom doesn’t drive only my dad and I don’t want to bother him too much because he is old. I just started back therapy and to be honest it’s okay but it sucks too because I have had so much therapy already. I just want to live a life that makes me happy where I can do everything I enjoy. I live in Florida by the way. I hope things change and I eventually live a life that I desire.

I am currently overweight and it would mean the world to me if I got down to my ideal weight and remained that way permanently. I don’t want to be fat and I hope I lose all this unwanted weight forever.

Sometimes I wonder if God really loves me because I had people say I am ugly and not appealing especially men. There was this white guy with muscles who I thought was really attractive and he told me I am ugly and fat. I have had people be mean to me my whole life and bully me. It hurts my feelings. I was in and out of mental hospitals.