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(Here be essays.) This is my fandom blog for Bare: A Pop Opera, Fraternity by Andy Mientus, Babel; or, the Necessity of Violence (an Arcane History of the Oxford Translators' Revolution) by R.F. Kuang and various other academia gothic.
Hi yes hello it’s me the local wizard, and I- Ok well “evil” feels like a strong word but yes, that’s me. Anyway, I need your help. I know I stole away the kingdoms 12 princesses, that’s my bad. Listen, I didn’t think this through. It didn’t occur to me that having a dozen angry young women from early teen to early 20s and giving them giant powerful wings would be a bad idea.
I know I’m the one who cast the curse but it can still only be broken with true love. I’m begging you, somebody, please come and fall in love with these girls and make them leave, I can’t take it anymore, it sucks so bad. I can’t keep getting viciously bullied by one of the largest living species of waterfowl anymore. I’ve tried running away but they can fly so they just find me. I’m getting nothing done.
I’ll pay you, I’ll grant you wishes, I don’t care, please just come and fall in love with the mean angry women who live in my yard and hate me so bad
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Because this looked like fun. But Erik keeps butting into my headcanons
💕 How did they both realize “oh wait, this is actually love”?
Christine after Raoul passes out at her father's grave, Raoul after a scolding from Philippe about the tabloid rumors.
🌹 Who fell harder & who fell first?
Raoul on both counts.
🫂 What’s their favorite way to hold each other when words aren’t enough?
canonically, HANDS. i am seeing a pattern in the ships that i ship
🔥 What’s the pettiest thing they’ve ever argued about?
Their constant arguments are so petty that serious matters become petty just because it's those two arguing about it.
💋 Who says “I love you” first & how?
Christine, after a lot of prompting.
🌙 Who’s the little spoon & who pretends they hate it but secretly loves it?
Raoul.
💍 Would they ever get married? What would the proposal look like?
Self-imposed fake dating followed by We Survived A Hostage Situation elopement. This is canon.
🧸 Who still has the very first gift the other ever gave them?
Well it wasn't a gift, Christine already owned the scarf. I'm actually not sure that she still has it, even if all the fanfictions say she does.
😈 Who is more likely to start chaos “for the vine” & who films it?
It's like 1890, you mean like a French vineyard...? daguerreotype??
🎶 What’s their song - the one that makes them both tear up / grin like idiots?
Little Lotte but Erik has some foothold in the memory of that song now too so like I...doubt that they can really do a Kitchen Table Polyamory so it's more like that's Their Song whether they like it or not.
☕ Who’s the morning person & how do they lure the night owl out of bed?
Raoul, but Erik already does “lure the night owl (Christine) out of bed” if you know what I mean...
🛡️ Who jumps in front of danger for the other without thinking?
Raoul and Christine do this for each other all the time. Erik gets a designated disability space to not do that, but also someone has to do the thinking and it's not those other two.
😳 What’s the most embarrassing thing they’ve walked in on the other doing?
I try to stick with book canon but Dominic Noble saying his favorite part in Final Lair is Raoul's grossed-out expression while Erik and Christine are kissing, is stuck in my head.
💔 What’s the one fight that almost ended them?
One way or another, Erik.
🩹 How do they comfort each other after nightmares?
Scandinavian fairy tales and maybe a voyage abroad.
👀 Who gets jealous more easily & how obvious are they about it?
Raoul's monogamous, Christine's got compersion and expects compersion from others. They're doomed.
🍳 Who cooks & who sets off the smoke alarm trying to help?
Christine foraged and went scrumping for food when she grew up in poverty, Raoul probably grew up with a butler. I think Erik is the only one who knows how to actually make a real meal, as in with ingredients and fire.
🧳 If they had to run away together tomorrow, where would they go?
The arctic circle, apparently.
😏 Who is bolder in public (hand-holding, kisses, etc.)?
Christine. She'd put the palm of her hand over a viscount's mouth, she is shameless. Honorable, but shameless.
🌧️ Who steals whose hoodies when it rains?
Erik would steal everyone's hoodies and then go underground away from the rain anyway, out of spite.
🎂 How do they celebrate each other’s birthdays?
I'm pretty sure that somebody in the course of the story had a birthday and it was treated as so unnotable? Can't remember a specific passage, it's just the vibe I get that there should've been a birthday somewhere here between things happening.
🖤 What’s the darkest “we’ll never tell anyone” thing they’ve done together?
Apparently — (jazz-hands at entire book)
💌 Who leaves little love notes & where do they hide them?
Both. Not hidden. Erik is seething. Just let Erik join the 19th-century group chat.
🛌 Who hogs the blanket & who ends up freezing dramatically?
Christine because she grew up poor, Raoul because he does everything dramatically he's not really that cold.
😴 Who falls asleep first & who watches them with heart-eyes?
Hashtag me #switchshipper ...It’s a gothic novel, they pass out all the time and wake up to see the other’s face. Take your anemia meds, Raoul. Size up that corset, Christine.
🚪 Who’s more likely to say “we’re not leaving this room today”?
Erik. He's not in the ship that I'm trying to answer these questions for, he's just always here.
🌸 What nickname do they have for each other that would mortify them if others heard?
They are shameless about nicknames.
🎤 Who sings in the shower & who secretly records it for blackmail?
Blackmail won't work, everyone's voices are splendid.
Although it would be funny if you had Erik and Christine being Angels Of Music while Raoul's speaking voice sounds like this reedy nasal nails-on-a-chalkboard voice but he looks sooo hot when he's not saying anything.
💞 How do they act when one of them is sick?
Coddling.
🩸 Who would literally kill for the other & who would help hide the body?
I don't think any of them would hide the body.
🌅 Do they go on sunrise / stargazing dates? Which one do they love more?
Christine and Raoul grew up watching the aurora borealis, so that wins over any other possible date that anybody else could have.
😤 Who apologizes first after a fight, even if they weren’t wrong?
Raoul, but he is never not in the wrong when he does apologize—bless his heart!
🧩 What tiny habit of the other do they find unbearably adorable?
Everything.
🎪 Who plans elaborate surprise dates & who just wants to stay in?
Raoul and Christine, respectively.
👑 In their relationship, who’s the king / queen & who’s the knight / advisor?
They're both knights. Their reigns, rules, and advisories are disastrous. Let them just be knights.
🌪️ What’s the most chaotic thing they’ve done together on pure impulse?
That “let’s be engaged without getting married” thing they planned for a month and then Raoul made it too real after like 8 days.
💤 Who has the weirdest sleep-talking lines that the other quotes constantly?
Christine and Raoul, respectively.
🧡 What color reminds each of them of the other?
All colors.
🕰️ If they could go back in time, what moment would they relive together?
They're awfully fond of that first meeting as though going door-to-door asking for folktales wasn't fun, but I do think they have the makings of a reincarnation romance.
😶 Who’s terrified of saying “meet my parents” & why?
Both their parents are dead, but Raoul’s actually afraid of dead people while Christine sorta just takes it in stride... hashtag her Goth Queen
🍷 Who gets tipsy first & starts spilling embarrassing love confessions?
Raoul, but he would do that sober.
🌿 Do they want kids/pets/plants together? What do they name them?
I don't think they think that far ahead.
🪞 Who takes longer getting ready & who hypes the other up in the mirror?
Erik and Erik. Why is he always here?
💥 What’s the biggest risk one of them took for the other that the partner didn’t find out about until much later?
They're characters in a novel, and I mean that it's very absurdly obvious that they are novel fiction characters...because they seem to have this telepathic link or selective omniscience that makes the plot convenient. They'll risk everything and know instantly.
🧣 Who steals the other’s scarf / gloves “on accident” every winter?
I think both have a high tolerance for the cold.
🌌 What’s their “we made it through hell” memory they’ll tell their grandkids?
(jazz-hands at entire book)
😘 Who kisses the other first thing in the morning, morning breath & all?
Raoul.
🩰 Slow dancing in the kitchen at 3 a.m. - who starts it?
Christine.
⚓ If one of them had to leave forever, what would they leave behind for the other?
Memories, but the music box shaped like a monkey at the cymbals is another option. It's Erik's. Why is he always here.
💫 Ten years from now, what random Tuesday are they spending together?
There’s so many fanfictions about Christine living at the Chagny estate or they travel abroad and Raoul pays for everything, but... I think the novel implies that the viscount and his lady-love completely vanished from public record? Like they ran off to the north pole and I guess they both got eaten by a polar bear, or they retired in Svalbard or that same small village outside Uppsala living blessedly boring lives as anonymous sheep-herders or whatever
💕 How did they both realize “oh wait, this is actually love”?
Peter at first sight, Jason when Ivy described to him what that's like and then he was like “ohh... so that's what it — uh oh.”
🌹 Who fell harder & who fell first?
Jason first and harder, but he has no emotional intelligence or communication skills so it's like that unheard-tree-in-the-woods ass philosophy question.
🫂 What’s their favorite way to hold each other when words aren’t enough?
HANDS
🔥 What’s the pettiest thing they’ve ever argued about?
Whether Romeo & Juliet is a love story or a tragedy, but that was a layered argument about something much more serious.
💋 Who says “I love you” first & how?
Peter outside the nightclub.
🌙 Who’s the little spoon & who pretends they hate it but secretly loves it?
hashtag me #switchshipper
💍 Would they ever get married? What would the proposal look like?
“That is not going to be legal in our lifetime,” Jason McConnell said in 1998. The only reason he was right was because he shortened his lifetime, which is cheating to make himself right about pessimistic things! Never kill yourself, because the rest of us have to play out the whole thing. Get outta that grave, loser, we're putting you in future-fic AU
...Peter would set up a scavenger hunt.
🧸 Who still has the very first gift the other ever gave them?
At some schools, academic accomplishmemts get commemorated with enamel pins, and a mid-20th century custom used to be that the significant other of the person who won it wears that pin.
Peter wears Jason's pin, but it's somewhere hidden or it has deniability (“it keeps my uniform necktie in place” he says, but not as well as the tie clip that he also has.)
😈 Who is more likely to start chaos “for the vine” & who films it?
Lucas and Tanya. They're not in this ship, they'd just do that when Peter and Jason wouldn't.
🎶 What’s their song - the one that makes them both tear up / grin like idiots?
There has not been a more thoroughly discussed yet heavily debated subject in a fandom since what to do about the Book Of Tobit at the Council of Nicea.
I still think it's “Hear It From You” by the Gin Blossoms because Nadia watched the Empire Records movie like 30 times on VHS.
That one song got stuck in Jason's head and he used it as a hype-up/lock-in sort of personal theme song to give Peter an unambiguously gay kiss for the first time.
☕ Who’s the morning person & how do they lure the night owl out of bed?
Jason, pulls Peter's ankles over the edge of the bed, pulls wrists until he's sitting up and groanwhining about getting five more minutes of sleep, hugs and face-snuggles and kisses until he's awake.
🛡️ Who jumps in front of danger for the other without thinking?
Jason in some stagings after Matt raises his voice at Peter.
😳 What’s the most embarrassing thing they’ve walked in on the other doing?
They are shameless with each other.
💔 What’s the one fight that almost ended them?
Whether Romeo & Juliet is a love story or a tragedy, but that was a layered argument about something much more—
🩹 How do they comfort each other after nightmares?
I have no idea but it definitely happens a lot.
👀 Who gets jealous more easily & how obvious are they about it?
Peter easily gets jealous but it's more like a mild suspicion he can talk himself down from and it doesn't show; Jason easily gets jealous and it's like punch-the-wall compose-a-sonnet-about-this-agony day-at-the-school-clinic-for-the-stress-ulcer
🍳 Who cooks & who sets off the smoke alarm trying to help?
I think they're both good at cooking but Peter is more intuitive while Jason follows recipes.
🧳 If they had to run away together tomorrow, where would they go?
If only we knew!
😏 Who is bolder in public (hand-holding, kisses, etc.)?
Ironically, Jason — because there's deniability in a jock playing Gay Chicken with his very Catholic roommate, so like, the handholding and kisses have to be secret but he will buttslap in the hallway.
🌧️ Who steals whose hoodies when it rains?
They use umbrellas, but Peter steals Jason's hoodies if only to wear Jason's hoodies.
🎂 How do they celebrate each other’s birthdays?
Peter bakes a cupcake to put a candle in, Jason plays Jeremih’s Birthday Sex song and then does it. I don't know what he did before 2009 when Jeremih’s Birthday Sex song didn't exist.
🖤 What’s the darkest “we’ll never tell anyone” thing they’ve done together?
be gay
💌 Who leaves little love notes & where do they hide them?
Too easily compromised, I doubt they'd risk it.
🛌 Who hogs the blanket & who ends up freezing dramatically?
hashtag me #switchshipper on this too
😴 Who falls asleep first & who watches them with heart-eyes?
#switch !
🚪 Who’s more likely to say “we’re not leaving this room today”?
They'd have to eventually, I don't think either of them will say that.
🌸 What nickname do they have for each other that would mortify them if others heard?
Their names, but with (homoerotic tone indicator) like that was said a weeeee bit too meaningfully thete
🎤 Who sings in the shower & who secretly records it for blackmail?
Peter, but I think he has a nice voice so blackmail won't work.
💞 How do they act when one of them is sick?
Peter's calculated with how to make monitored sick person feel better, Jason's more like: orange juice, chicken soup, comfort movie
🩸 Who would literally kill for the other & who would help hide the body?
Jason and Peter respectively, so it might actually be interesting if the situation got them the other way around.
🌅 Do they go on sunrise / stargazing dates? Which one do they love more?
Peter likes stargazing, Jason now has anxiety about it...Thanks, Matthew.
😤 Who apologizes first after a fight, even if they weren’t wrong?
Neither. Reconciliation is pretty authentic and mutual.
🧩 What tiny habit of the other do they find unbearably adorable?
Everything.
🎪 Who plans elaborate surprise dates & who just wants to stay in?
Born for elaborate romantic surprises, forced to habitually Catholic School after graduation.
👑 In their relationship, who’s the king / queen & who’s the knight / advisor?
#SWITCHSHIPPINH
🌪️ What’s the most chaotic thing they’ve done together on pure impulse?
Auditions. I think this has mostly been my repeating canon by now.
💤 Who has the weirdest sleep-talking lines that the other quotes constantly?
Peter, and Jason.
🧡 What color reminds each of them of the other?
All colors somehow.
🕰️ If they could go back in time, what moment would they relive together?
Hey, I read that time-loop fanfiction...
😶 Who’s terrified of saying “meet my parents” & why?
Jason, because Peter already met his parents and they both know what those parents are like.
🍷 Who gets tipsy first & starts spilling embarrassing love confessions?
Pe— this was a canon event!
🌿 Do they want kids/pets/plants together? What do they name them?
Peter wants a pet beagle.
🪞 Who takes longer getting ready & who hypes the other up in the mirror?
Peter for both.
💥 What’s the biggest risk one of them took for the other that the partner didn’t find out about until much later?
I think I read that book-report assignment fanfiction too... But really though there is probably no risk too big that Jason wouldn't do it. Except maybe coming out to Claire.
🧣 Who steals the other’s scarf / gloves “on accident” every winter?
Jason.
🌌 What’s their “we made it through hell” memory they’ll tell their grandkids?
It would be nice if they did get through senior year!
😘 Who kisses the other first thing in the morning, morning breath & all?
That's pretty mutual.
🩰 Slow dancing in the kitchen at 3 a.m. - who starts it?
Peter.
⚓ If one of them had to leave forever, what would they leave behind for the other?
That answer to this is detailed in the No Voice song.
💫 Ten years from now, what random Tuesday are they spending together?
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on radical hope as persistence and survival and necessity. on being earth loving earth.
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a lil practice of mature Vic for an AU
imagine if he survived the arctic and got back home to Ernest kinda disabled, exhausted, and depressed, lost all of his ambitions after all of those horros, now he just wants peace and reach out his brother (left by everyone in the famliy but it's an idea for another post)
If youre a closeted person somewhere out there thinking "I want to transition but it would be less progressive/unique/countercultural for me to be that gender instead of this one" please know that you are a real person not a character in a narrative and cant live your life based on what is good media representation. You are real you can only be yourself and theres no moral weight to any identity over another
Liberal transphobes enjoy positioning trans identities as regressive compared to cis queerness or like non-transitioning transness or anything else they can leverage to make transphobia look progressive and I think its easy to absorb that message subconciously. But in real life we just are what we are and no ranking of validity can change the fact that you have an identity that is NOT chosen and is just your unchangeable truth. Not only should you not have to live a life dictated by what is most countercultural to identify as or whatever but also: being trans is extremely countercultural and feminist and leftist to begin with and theyre only trying to convince you otherwise bc theyre bigots
"Why cant you be a feminine man society hates feminine men 🥺" and "all the butch lesbians are becoming men we need u 🥺" = stay in the closet for the noble purpose of being an abstract representation point in my new york times opinion column. You wont actually be a gnc cis person youll be a closeted trans person who uses the wrong words but I need you to do that because i hate you
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I think the battle is long since lost on what the “-coded” suffix means, but I (old movie guy specifically invested in queer coding) seem to be unable to let go of how annoying I find the fuzzy popular use of the term. This is probably a flaw in my character.
Coding is intentional, it’s a way of communicating indirectly with the audience through a shared language of signs. That’s why it’s called coding, because it’s communicating in code. It isn’t when a thing reminds you of another thing.
From running these polls over the past few months I have learned that the Cats fandom is fairly large, and is in fact one of the only musical fandoms powerful enough to brawl with the Starkid fandom and feasibly come out on top.
I can assure you that the Cats voting bloc is not composed of ironic voters, but true bonafide fans. For that matter, I actually can't think of a single musical in my polls that gets very far solely on ironic votes.
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When my dad came to visit, one year on from my Nana’s passing, he complained about times where he’s either had to sit in what was her armchair, or in my Granda’s, saying “one leans completely this way and the other leans completely the other way!”
The way their armchairs are worn is because they used to sit leaning towards each other. The cushions slant towards the space between their two chairs.
Where’s that post about “how do you even write a poem about this because it’s all so vividly right there that it’s pointless even doing more with it”.
