Living Dad Joke

Apparently she has feelings for my fucking best friend. I swear to God, you couldn't make this stuff up. I just want this pain to go away. Just make it go away.

I know this pain will fade in time, but fucking hell it hurts. I feel drained.

So, my fiancée left me. And I am writing this here because I don't want to bum out my sister and my friends about it, but I really need to put these thoughts I'm having somewhere in the world because life is shit right now and I really don't know how I'm gonna go through this. Every single object in our house reminds me of her. These walls are still imbued in our laughter and happiness and it's so fucking crazy that she ended this thing that we had in such an inexplicable way, without giving a clear explanation that I am having a hard time coping with this new reality. I miss her, guys. I never thought I could miss someone this much. It's like I'm drowning and simultaneously bleeding out from the gaping hole in my chest. I feel like falling in an endless pit and I feel alone even if I am surrounded by people who love me and support me and who immediately rallied around me when they heard about what happened because every single one of them knows she was my world, my moon and stars, my everything. I fell in love with her from the very first moment our eyes met, eight years ago and I think I always will. I don't know how not to love her and it's driving me crazy. Every time I see something she'd like, every time someone mentions something about movies, every time something happens to me I just wanna grab my phone and text her or call her but I can't. I can't because she left and even though I told her that we deserve more than this, that we deserve a second chance, that I love her and this will never change, I also know that she needs space. If she decides to come back to me she has to want it for real. If she doesn't... Well... I'll have to learn how to live without the love of my life, I'll have to learn to love her from afar, to keep her forever in my heart but not in my life. God I'm so tired of being the mature one. I'm so tired of being the bigger person. I just want her back, guys. I need her. I need her hugs and the touch of her skin, I need those little kitten noises she used to do when I woke her up in the morning, I need the lazy Saturdays when we woke up late and cuddled, I need her to tell me everything is fine when there's a thunderstorm because she knows I'm scared of thunders. I need her back, guys. I just need her back. Just tell me it was all a bad dream. Just a stupid bad dream.

I wanted to share with the D&D enthusiasts in the Pitch Perfect fandom that I started a new campaign. My friend had previously created a tiefling character called Flynn Perfect (just to use the pickup line "Hi, I'm Flynn. Mr. Perfect for you." LOL) so I jumped in and created his adoptive brother. A 7'3" tall half-orc pansexual bard-barian called Pitch. Yes. My character's name is Pitch Perfect and he's a bard. 😂

On a separate note, since I haven't been a teacher for almost a year, felt the need to change my name. Hiya, folks.