I'll be brave, I'll be brave

there are so many things I want to say about cassie mckay i love her so dearly. she's depressed, emotionally repressed, and going ten million miles an hour at all times. she can't cry. she wants to be loved so badly but she refuses to let her defenses down enough for someone to see the real her. she's lonely. she's wracked with guilt. she wants things she thinks she's not allowed. she's so love starved she won't let anyone hug her but hugs javadi without a second thought. and yet she thinks everything is entirely fine because she's functioning.

lost track of time writing and only just now resurfaced. wow. i kind of love writing

people make jokes about how people who weren’t allowed to watch spongebob as a kid are always talking about how they weren’t allowed to watch spongebob but as one of the aforementioned people who wasn’t allowed to watch spongebob my insight on the matter is: you would not BELIEVE the amount of times spongebob comes up in normal adult conversations. i don’t often think about him of my own accord but people reference him and i have to say. what? and they say. it’s from spongebob?? and i say. oh i never watched spongebob. and they say why? and i say. i wasn’t allowed to. and then a few weeks later it happens again

Having your interests mocked as a kid and general low self esteem will have you insulting the things you like even when they're generally considered very good. Because you like it, and historically when you like something it's stupid and not worth anyone's time. So you will say nonsense like "I recommend this book/game/film, but it's okay if you hate it, it sucks, I really enjoyed it but that's because I'm an idiot" and you are recommending them the Citizen fucking Kane of that particular media type. And importantly: you need to stop doing this it is killing you

i love queerplatonic relationships where one of them is aroace and the other isn't. i love when the allo character has a crush that fades over time. i love when they don't care what they are to each other as long as they're together. i love when romance is an option that they don't choose. i love when both aros and allos feel fulfilled without romance or sex.

@itsdappleagain @jackie-shitposts

how many people do you think use speech to text to write fanfiction like how many people in this world are sitting alone in their living room vividly reciting the nastiest sex scenes with perfect diction

i bring a sort of “you should maybe interrogate your so-called ‘preferences’ to make sure they’re not literal textbook examples of severe unconscious bias” vibe that my woke gay friends dont really like

when you get crazy enough about The Character you'd think the situations you imagine them in would get more elaborate and lore intensive. but no. imagining my wizard pacing around huffily being slightly peeved at a mild inconvenience. I don’t even know what the inconvenience IS. and it's giving me enough joy to power a city for a month