Neil can't help the anxiety spike triggered by trauma and years of hiding, so when he usually hides behind Kevin and Kevin will take the spotlight without arguing understanding of Neil's reaction. It's always discreet with them, but if Kevin is not there, Neil tends to hide behind Matt.

It takes Matt a few times to understand what's going on, but after a few incidents of Neil suddenly stopping talking and moving to Matt's side, he starts to spot the cameras and realise what's going on too. But he isn't like Kevin, just accepting his role as a human shield. No, Matt starts smiling at whichever camera Neil is running away from and sticks his tongue out. Every time.

It goes low-key viral and it's one of the first things to pop up if you google Matt.

Years later, after Kevin and Matt graduate, Neil gets the feeling someone is filming him again and his first instinct is to hide. There is a really weird moment when Neil realises Matt's not there but instead of using another person as a shield, Neil looks directly at the fan's camera, smiles and sticks his tongue out in Matt's honour.

A few days later, Matt sends him a screenshot of that moment with the message "haha, miss you buddy".

It becomes their thing and they both do it whenever they spot a camera they shouldn't. Neil isn't sure when it happened but he slowly stops feeling the anxiety and is eager whenever he spots a camera because he gets the chance to do it again and knows he'll see Matt a few days later doing the same thing.

Nicky: Neil how tf did you convinced them to do it??

Neil: I asked

Nicky: let's say Andrew agreed because you asked. How did you convince Matt to risk his life like that?

Neil, smiling: Dan asked

but he lived and he was given rainbows and evening breezes and fathers and fireworks and open roads and friends

and he is learning how to cook and ride a motorcycle and how to play without violence and what fruits he likes

and he has a dog and that he will teach French to because he is allowed to speak French

and he has never been anything more then Jean Moreau but he is finally learning who Jean Moreau is and he no longer has to endure all of the evil things in the nest he has to endure love he doesnt know what to do with and friends that want him to be happy

and it is so different from everything he knows his coach is more like a father and the beautiful boy learning French does not see him as a brother and he will not be hurt because someone is angry at him and ibuprofen is for headaches and not for almost dying

And everything is so unlike the nest and the Ravens and riko and the master and there is only one Jean who knows this

There is one Jean that survived

There is one Jean that escaped