#dan wilds

- Renee has a list of every man who Allison and Dan have gone on bad dates with or harassed them, because even if she won’t ever do anything to them (because Dan and Allison want to fight their own battles, because no matter how bad she is at turning the other cheek she still feels the need to try) the list means she could

- Dan stole their coffee table from a frat party freshman year and—while still quite drunk—decided that she should paint it so that no one recognized it if they came looking. She got a disgusting muddy green spray paint and only managed to cover half of it. She accidentally used Allison’s sheet as a dropcloth instead of her own and it caused an actual physical fight that Renee had to step in the middle of. The next day at practice Reggie tried to make fun of them for the “catfight” and Allison punched him in the face and spent all of practice laughing with Dan, because like hell was the fissure between them going to leave the walls of that room. Once a month or so, they get a new can of spray paint and redecorate the table. It’s always ugly, and they never once consider replacing it.

- Renee got a couple of scary looking ceramic figurines at a thrift store that Allison swears are cursed, and the first time they re-painted the table after getting them, Dan painted them as well because “it feels like they’re watching us.” They all refer to the figurines as ‘the creatures’

- The first semester, Renee gets most of her sleep before the others get back from parties and during the day when they’re at class, and sustains herself with ungodly amounts of the shittiest store-brand coffee she can find. By second semester, it’s become clear that this isn’t sustainable, and the first time she gives in and tries to sleep through the night she wakes up screaming—not in fear, but in rage, hands scrabbling for the knives that are tucked away with her things. The next day Allison hits her with a ‘screaming that much did not warrant you trying to kill yourself of sleep deprivation for half a year’ and Renee can’t tell if it’s disdainful or kind, and Dan has an extra mug of the herbal tea one of her sisters sends her in the mail every month waiting on the counter

- Freshman year is all fighting, except in the moments when it’s not. Dan and Allison are inclined to use their words; Renee has long since trained her fists to be her first attack, and it’s only Stephanie Walker’s voice in the back of her head and her own refusal to let Natalie Shields rear her head that solidifies Renee’s place as the “peaceful” one among the rest of the team.

- They all learn how to strike each other where it hurts—Allison can deal with her family being brought up but she recoils if you target her own past, the girl who couldn’t control anything but her own body, who Allison works so hard not to be. Dan isn’t ashamed of her past but she is afraid of the future, afraid that all of her work won’t amount to anything. Renee’s past is something she’s dealt with enough not to let it hurt and her future is not a concern; her weakness is the present, the idea that even the sweetest face and demeanor can’t wipe away all the fucked up things inside.

Dan Wilds: Power by Little Mix

You’re the man but I got the, I got the, I got the power

You make rain but I make it, I make it, I make it shower

You should know I’m the one who’s in control

I’ll let you come take the wheel long as you don’t forget

Who got the power

Kevin Day: Gold Forever by The Wanted

Butterflies, butterflies we were meant to fly

You and I you and I colours in the sky

We could rule the world some day some how

But we’ll never be as bright as we are now

We’re standing in a light that won’t fade

Tomorrows coming but this won’t change

Cause some days stay gold forever

Andrew Minyard: Who’s Laughing Now by Jessie J

Oh so you think you know me now?

Have you forgotten how you would make me feel when you dragged my spirit down?

But thank you for the pain

It made me raise my game

And I’m still rising, I’m still rising, yeah

So make your jokes, go for broke, blow your smoke, you’re not alone

But who’s laughing now?

Matt Boyd: Everybody in Love by JLS

Cause every minute is like an hour

Every hours like a day

Every day lasts forever

But what else am I gonna do?

I’d wait forever and a day for you

I’d wait up (wait up), I can’t eat, I can’t sleep what else could it be?

Missing you so deep

Long as I’m where you’re going to

I’d wait forever and a day for you

Aaron Minyard: About you know by the Sugababes

Give me tonight and I’ll show you

I know everything changes and I don’t care where it takes us

Cause I know how I feel about you

Can we bring yesterday back around?

Cause I know how I feel about you now

I was dumb, I was wrong, I let you down

But I know how I feel about you now

Seth Gordon: Can We Dance by The Vamps

I talk a lot of shit when I'm drinking, baby

I'm known to go a little too fast

Don't mind all my friends I know they're all crazy

But they're the only friends that I have

I know I don't know you

But I'd like to skip the small talk and romance, girl

That's all I have to say so, baby, can we dance?

Allison Reynolds: Fight For This Love by Cheryl Cole

Whenever you feel like you’re falling apart

Let’s just go back, back, back, back, back to the start

Oh anything that’s worth having is sure enough worth fighting for

Quitting’s out of the question

When it’s tough gotta fight some more

Oh we gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love

Nicky Hemmick: Live While We’re Young by One Direction

Yeah we’ll be doing what we do

Just pretending that we’re cool, so tonight

Let’s go, crazy, crazy, crazy til we see the sun

I know we only met but let’s pretend it’s love

And never, never, never, stop for anyone

Tonight let’s get some

And live while we’re young

Renee Walker: Burn by Ellie Goulding

When the lights started out, they don’t know what they heard

Strike the match, play it out, giving love to the world

We’ll be raising our hands shining up at the sky

Cause we got that fire, fire, fire

Yeah we got that, fire, fire, fire

And we’re gonna let it burn, burn, burn, burn, burn

Neil Josten: Troublemaker by Olly Murs

Trouble, troublemaker yeah that’s your middle name

Oh, oh I know your no good but you’re stuck in my brain

And I wanna know why does it feel so good but hurt so bad?

Woah my mind keeps saying run as fast you can

I say I’m done but then you pull me back