doll,

˗ˏˋ ꒰ hey there :) I'm royal! call me whatever else, though.

˗ˏˋ ꒰ please always use lowercase when referring to me. she/they pronouns.

˗ˏˋ ꒰ I like Sleep Token, Poppy, crystals, sewing, baking, and lots of other stuff.

˗ˏˋ ꒰ this blog will mainly be used for me to scream into the void about how much my family sucks(a lot), my mental health issues(anxiety and crushing feelings of overwhelm and stress), positives in my life, and sometimes some neutral or mundane things.

˗ˏˋ ꒰ this isn't a writing blog, but I may leave behind a few short pieces that are self insert and self indulgent. oneshots. fics n other stuff are on my writing blog(but it’s on hiatus, I’m spiraling!)

"it doesn't bite!" that does not change the fact that I am shaking and filled with so much anxiety I will not be able to sleep knowing it is or was in my space I'M SORRY I LIKE BUGS JUST NOT WHEN I'M TRYING TO SLEEP

idk whhhyyyy I could save the time and put it in english

but idk

average day lowkey streetwear-ish alt with loose/baggy jeans, band tees, beat up converse, old ass doc marten boots

romantic goth vampire as fuck with a red and black corset, white maxi skirt or black crushed velvet with either a white Victorian child shirt or black longsleeve with platform boots, Mary Jane’s, or 8053 docs

avant grade hippie-core with a grey cropped tank top, purple mesh top with a design that looks like a cool grandma’s rug, denim maxi skirt made from old jeans with pretty brown patches and stitching, 8053 docs or doc boots

goth adjacent grey and black striped crop sweater with the big sleeves and off shoulder, white maxi skirt, black wide legged jeans, or black skirt with any shoes mentioned above

punk concert rat with a red pennywise sleeveless band tee, black sports bra, either black shorts or wide legged blue jean cargo shorts with doc boots

trashy theater kid with anything for pants or skirt as mentioned above, any of my highschool theater production hoodies, headband exposing my forehead or old star clips from a show where I played Sky the Girl Scout keeping my hair out of my face and any shoes I can find

I. I reblog Ghost stuff sometimes. TØP stuff sometimes. that’s the furthest I go into any other fandom though lmfao

I’m also becoming a Sleep Token whump writer?? nobody seems too upset tho

II x III - finish that

IIIssel full game of chase

IIIssel full game of chase rev. roles

IIssel gut wrenching dependence - aftermath of Vessel confessing to II what he’s done for Sleep

II going insane over III

II whumping himself over Vessel

II being normal. fluff? doing laundry or something

II x IV baking

III x espera

Vessel x Espera but it’s fresh arrival in Arcadia

Vessel doing Muse watching

I would do result of him doing Muse watching in detail but i want to save it for the fic idkk maybe I will.

Vessel giving III a room below private session

III breaking down in the woods over the other vessels

IV grieving the past IVs that he’s only heard of - their actions resulted in his treatment now and he wonders what was so wrong with them

it's their thoughts and feelings about each other. not necessarily romantic, or at least not all the time.

but it's all consuming. they want to be each other's everything. they don't want anything to remain in the other except themselves. they're desperate, clinging, needing each other on levels beyond the body and conscious thought.

over here I’m like “yes nonsexual predator/prey because III like the thrill of hunting someone to see the panic in their eyes when he tackles them and loves feeling stalked and in fear and Vessel likes feeling the comfort he used to find in abuse and also like to hurt those around him physically as a form of emotional relief”