♱⸝⸝ Rot ⸝⸝𓉸

── ˖𐕣 Rot

⌖𓏻 18 ─ it/he ˖

⌖𓏻 BPD ─ DID ˖

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he saw me talking about him and my love for him

should I be scared and concerned?

oh my fucking god words cannot express how much I love him, my feelings for him surpass anything I understand.

my chest hurts thinking about him it's not even funny, my head starts spinning and I get warm.

ts genuinely sending me into a mental breakdown

I keep remembering things I've trusted people with, things I am so ashamed about myself I want to kms over it. I got shamed in a server for these things, people I trusted with the most disgusting parts of myself told an entire server

it's not my fault I'm like this, it's not my fault I think those things, I don't want to, it's not like I asked for it

I'm genuinely just going to kill myself. I would have said why I was upset eventually but no I had to be fucking pressured into it.

yeah well here's your bait!! because I know damn well you'll send people after me!!! just like people have done to me before

I love when people prove me right!

"just communicate" yeah because that's worked so well for me, actually, for us, so well in the past!!! hasn't it!!!

couldn't just fucking say sorry, no you had to go and throw my mistakes in my face. you had to go dig through my posts and get mad at me, instead of just listening to what I have to say. you cared more about the fact that I said something about you on my blog, than what I was upset and hurt over.

"I'm upset about this"

"well idk why you wouldn't come to me you told me you don't like when people post about problems, and you've done this in a vent channel before. Hypocrite!!!"

fucking insane!!! you don't get to remind me about things I've done and have owned up to before, after I tell you what I'm upset about. ESPECIALLY since I worded I as nicely as a could, and we all know how bad I am at that!!!