rivering waters

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I loved her against reason, against promise, against peace, against hope, against happiness, against all discouragement that could be.

“If you press me to say why I loved him, I can say no more than because he was he, and I was I.”

“Live to the point of tears.”

There's nothing like this in the world, you say, knowing I cannot touch your hand and look too, into that godless cleft of sky where nothing turns but dead sands flashing

And as the bandage knot was tightened

"Times are bad. Children no longer obey their parents, and everyone is writing a book."

"Let the gods speak softly of us"

And the days are not full enough

"The great object of life is Sensation - to feel that we exist - even though in pain - it is this "craving void" which drives us to gaming - to battle - to travel - to intemperate but keenly felt pursuits of every description whose principal attraction is the agitation inseparable from their accomplishment."

"I have a great mind to believe in Christianity for the mere pleasure of fancying I may be damned."

"There is something pagan in me that I cannot shake off. In short, I deny nothing, but doubt everything."

The cadence of suffering has begun. Every evening at dusk, my heart constricts until night has come.

This hate has blossomed like a living love,

I spent the whole evening sitting before a mirror to keep myself company.

You no longer feel the fear of a change of being and desire... The course of the hours lays not violent hands upon you; necessity and chance guide not your steps