a smile is the best revenge

2013 was five years ago let that sink in

Good morning today I’m having emotions about how Shane cradles Ilya’s head after they say I love you—big strong hands wrapped all around his head and neck, giving the gentlest scratches that you know felt so good, making no effort to move just holding firm but soft, pressing Ilya into his chest and lips brushing his forehead—it’s such a perfect comfort to give Ilya and Shane does it so naturally.

Can I contribute Shane and Ilya’s hands intertwined and framing Ilya’s face after the “say it again in Russian please” sequence, where Shane is holding Ilya with his eyes closed in warm bliss while Ilya looks off into the distance, deep in thought? This is literally my thesis for an avoidant Ilya who is no longer avoiding, but the road ahead isn’t perfect. Being in love introduces new issues and exacerbates old ones, but all around him the entire time is Shane, holding him, loving him, wanting to be there for him even when he doesn’t know how. Wanting to know him deeply, never wanting to be spared the darkness. Ilya’s mind (literally his brain, being framed in the shot) will never run perfectly, it will never stop telling him that he’s lazy and less-than, but he will still be loved.

I hope I'm online when it happens. I want to see a sudden flood of crab rave memes right after refreshing my dash, and in the middle of it all, the Castiel news meme. That's how I want to learn of it; not through anything solemn or serious, but via overwhelming silly celebration.

“yes, I’ve been wanting to read that!” I say with complete earnestness, as I proceed to ignore every opportunity I have to read it

“I’ve been meaning to read/watch/listen to that, but the stars are not in position, so I can’t do it yet”

man sometimes friendship really is just "I saw this and knew it would give you psychic damage. please respond with agony" and then they do. and it's great

y’all my friend decided to investigate what was blocking their drain system and you are not prepared for the answer

i'm getting the sense some of you are not actually forklift certified.

well damn . egg on my face

Update: I took a certification class in shipboard Material Handling Equipment at my federal job. *now* I'm forklift certified, but only on ships and piers and only for this company, but also rated to forklift explosives and hazardous materials. Also I'm a woman now.