a smile is the best revenge

Good morning today I’m having emotions about how Shane cradles Ilya’s head after they say I love you—big strong hands wrapped all around his head and neck, giving the gentlest scratches that you know felt so good, making no effort to move just holding firm but soft, pressing Ilya into his chest and lips brushing his forehead—it’s such a perfect comfort to give Ilya and Shane does it so naturally.

Can I contribute Shane and Ilya’s hands intertwined and framing Ilya’s face after the “say it again in Russian please” sequence, where Shane is holding Ilya with his eyes closed in warm bliss while Ilya looks off into the distance, deep in thought? This is literally my thesis for an avoidant Ilya who is no longer avoiding, but the road ahead isn’t perfect. Being in love introduces new issues and exacerbates old ones, but all around him the entire time is Shane, holding him, loving him, wanting to be there for him even when he doesn’t know how. Wanting to know him deeply, never wanting to be spared the darkness. Ilya’s mind (literally his brain, being framed in the shot) will never run perfectly, it will never stop telling him that he’s lazy and less-than, but he will still be loved.

I hope I'm online when it happens. I want to see a sudden flood of crab rave memes right after refreshing my dash, and in the middle of it all, the Castiel news meme. That's how I want to learn of it; not through anything solemn or serious, but via overwhelming silly celebration.

“yes, I’ve been wanting to read that!” I say with complete earnestness, as I proceed to ignore every opportunity I have to read it

“I’ve been meaning to read/watch/listen to that, but the stars are not in position, so I can’t do it yet”

man sometimes friendship really is just "I saw this and knew it would give you psychic damage. please respond with agony" and then they do. and it's great

y’all my friend decided to investigate what was blocking their drain system and you are not prepared for the answer

i'm getting the sense some of you are not actually forklift certified.

well damn . egg on my face

Update: I took a certification class in shipboard Material Handling Equipment at my federal job. *now* I'm forklift certified, but only on ships and piers and only for this company, but also rated to forklift explosives and hazardous materials. Also I'm a woman now.

nora please set me free from the numerical symbolism please im tired and i dont have enough red string for connecting all these dots

and if i said that that jeremy trying to yoyo in the scene where he and jean meet is a perfect introduction to his character. because think about it. yoyoing is an activity which many deem childish and useless. that said, it takes a lot of skill and practice to be able to do it well, and it's impressive when someone actually can. yoyoing can be read as a symbol for jeremy's optimism. at first, jean doesn't understand what kevin meant by saying [of the trojans] "their kindness matters." he assumes that jeremy's optimism is the result of naiveté, and that it is ultimately futile. as jean gets to know jeremy, however, he learns that he has suffered profoundly, and experiences negative emotions as regularly as anyone else. he realizes that jeremy is kind in spite of his sufffering, in spite of his capacity for cruelty, and that it makes a huge difference in the lives of his teammates and loved ones. like yoyoing, this is a difficult skill that jeremy has spent years honing, heedless of those who would dismiss it.