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hello everybody its me ivy ruth langley. i am really struggling to feed myself consistently right now and keep any money to pay my bills. my bank account and credit card have both been overdrafted in the past 2 days because im dumb. i might have a job lined up and i am trying to sell shirts and finish commissions ASAP but i have been so panicked about my bills and living situation and feeding myself that i can barely do anything but freak out. i have been in a cycle of feeling like i cant make art that is worth money because i have to make perfect items to justify asking for peoples money and then being so broke and freaked out i cant do anything i feel is good enough. i am trying desperately and genuinely to have a different set up right now and coordinating with as many people as i can that i know to get out of this position.

i hate having to ask for money from people but i genuinely do not have any other choices right now because i need money to pay rent and do various other things. i have mostly been sleeping on floors for the past 3 months so that i can be in portland where my print studio is but it is deeply uncomfortable and i cant draw unless i am where my desk and drawing stuff is, in seattle. i have been avoiding making a post like this with every fiber of my being for like 7 months. my rent is monstrously high and i havent been able to get off of my lease because i cant get any savings. i cant get money to take hrt or do anything but stay in my room all day and im like extremely miserable all the time. all i eat is rice and canned tuna unless people give me extra food. i am trying to live as small and unobtrusively as possible.

if you are able to send me money it would help me extremely right now even if it is a small amount of money. my life is confusing and bad because i am an embarrassing fool.

my venmo and my cashapp are both bloodsad. my paypal is [email protected]. i have literally nothing meaningful to offer in return ATM but being alive and my extreme gratitude. the only thing i want on earth is to not think about any of this and draw pictures all day.

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Hiiiii again!! Wish I didn’t have to keep doin this but. It’s e-begging time once more… Before my lease was terminated a few months ago, I lost my job after I started having seizures and had to get carried out on my last day there. I’ve been couch surfing since then, looking for somewhere permanent to go…

I found somewhere with people I trust and love where I can actually heal, and I can move in as soon as April! But… it is on the opposite side of this stupid goddamn country… I have a lot of stuff to bring (besides my pet axolotl, who unfortunately I’m gonna have to donate to someone better suited to care for her) and a lot of distance to cover, so transport costs are looking really really steep… I’ve also recently become uninsured, so I’m also looking at medicine costs, costs for reactivating my phone, and who knows what else…

Things are pretty damn rough right now… I’m hoping this’ll be the final hurdle to being able to put this nightmare chapter of my life behind me and focus on actually resting and healing… Here’s hopin’.

I’m still planning a lot of things, but I’m looking at having to raise over $700 to make this work. Wouldn’t be surprised if I end up needing a whole thousand ;w; If you have anything to spare, even a little bit (the little donations make up the bulk of the help I receive actually) then please consider donating! It means the world to me, and soon I’ll be able to at least try to make it up with some nice art to post here.

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Hey, folks …

Unfortunately, I come to you once again graciously asking for help if you’ve got the means. To prevent another emergency or root canals like the one I had in January, I’ve got to get a lot of dental work done. I am still bitterly uninsured.

I’m doing what I can with payment plans, but it’s a very tough situation with my current status at work + existing bills. I’ll remain as transparent as I can with this and keep you updated.

Thank you and all the best. Anything helps.

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